Authors Note: Well thank you everyone for the reviews! I hope I don't disappoint with this chapter, and once again I do not own any of these characters.
I hope you all enjoy chapter 10, I can't believe it's 10 already!
"I am pregnant, Liv knows, we were planning for a baby, I got sick at a scene couldn't work, and I just want to give Olivia and our baby the world. And once I won some money I just couldn't stop." Amanda confessed with tears streaming down her face. "I just wanted to give our baby the life neither one of us ever had."
Olivia Benson stood there in her kitchen with Nick Amaro and Melinda Warner staring at the photos in her hand when her cell phone rang in the other room. Olivia walked into the living room and picked up the phone and walked back into the kitchen and told both her guests to remain quiet as she answered her phone. "Hey babe" and then pressed speaker phone.
"Hey Liv" Amanda said in a worried voice.
"You alright?" Olivia asked not wanting Amanda to know that she knew about her habit she has hidden from her.
"Are you home or at work?" Amanda asked
"I am home, is everything okay?" Olivia asked again
"Yeah, listen I am on my way home. We need to talk." Amanda told her softly.
"Alright babe, I am home. And I will be waiting for you." Olivia assured her pretending to put on a smile when she really just wanted to explode but she knew having this conversation over the phone wasn't the time or the place.
"Okay then I will see you in a couple of hours." Amanda told her and then asked "Hey Liv?"
"Yeah?" Olivia replied
"I love you." Amanda told her sweetly.
Olivia nodded her head "I love you too, I will see you soon." Olivia told her and then hung up the phone and placed it on the counter behind her.
"What are you going to do Liv?" Nick asked
"Well for starters Nick, you are going to leave." She told him before adding "Thank you for the information, but I told you not to follow her. We will talk about your insubordination on Monday. Until then go home, and do not and I repeat do not follow Amanda again." Olivia warned him.
"Got it" Nick told her as he looked down at his feet. "I am sorry I went behind your orders, something just felt off." Nick apologized and then left the household.
When both women heard Nick leave the driveway, Mel broke the silenced "So what are you going to do?"
"I am going to the casino and I am going to meet her there." Olivia sighed
"Do you think that is a good idea?" Mel asked
Olivia shrugged her shoulders "I don't know, but I don't want her to try to lie her way out of it. Yes she said we needed to talk, but that could be about anything. So I will just wait for her there in that parking garage."
Mel nodded her head before she asked "Would you at least like some company waiting?"
Olivia smiled slightly and shook her head "It is better I do this alone, I don't need her knowing that almost everyone knows about her problem. But thanks, you are a good friend." Olivia told her and then pulled Mel into a hug.
"Anytime I am here for you and Amanda when ever you two need me." Mel whispered as she hugged Olivia back.
After the hug ended Olivia walked Mel to the door where she said goodbye to Frannie, and then Olivia before she walked out of the house and got into her car and drove off.
Once she was gone, Olivia shut the front door and locked it and leaned her back against the door as she took in a deep breath and slid to the ground with her head leaning on her bent knees. Frannie quickly picked up something was wrong and started to lick Olivia who just laughed and pet her. "Thanks Fran, what am I going to do with your mother?" Olivia asked and Frannie just barked which only made Olivia chuckle "Well thanks for the help." She smirked and then hugged Frannie tightly.
Olivia didn't know how much time she had spent on the floor in the entrance way of her house, when she finally got up off the floor and gathered her keys and cell phone and got into the car and drove to Caesars World Resort Casino.
Once she pulled into the parking garage, she quickly glanced behind her to make sure no other cars where there and then glanced at the photos Nick had given her to see what floor Amanda was parked on, and then drove to the eighth level of the garage and found Amanda's car with an empty parking space next to it. She backed her car and checked the time and the wait began.
By hour five, Olivia was wishing that she had bought coffee at least to keep her awake, when she saw a yellow taxi pull on to the level of the garage. "Oh please let that be Amanda." Olivia prayed to herself.
The taxi pulled up and stopped in front of Amanda's car, and Olivia saw Amanda get out of the backseat along with her suitcase. She waited until the taxi backed up and drove away before she got out of the car. "Hi Amanda." Olivia sighed as she got out of her car and saw Amanda jump.
"Liv…I uh, I can explain. What are you doing here?" Amanda asked in a shaky voice.
"I could ask you the same question." Olivia retorted.
"Well shit." Amanda mumbled.
"Yeah, are you going to explain yourself or what?" Olivia asked as she tapped her finger nails on the hood of her car.
Amanda blinked away tears, and just when she thought this night couldn't get any worse. "Can we at least do this at home please?" Amanda asked and Olivia nodded her head. "Thank you." Amanda told her and opened the backseat of her car and threw her things inside and walked around the car and got into the driver seat.
Olivia followed Amanda home, and once they arrived, Olivia followed her into the home, where they both were greeted by Frannie.
Amanda greeted Frannie quickly and then took Olivia's hand in her own and pulled her into the living room and then sat them both down on the couch. "How much do you know?" Amanda asked.
Olivia shook her head "It doesn't matter what I know, I want to hear your side." Olivia told her as she looked her deep in her eyes.
Amanda took in a deep breath before she told her "I have a problem Liv."
"What kind of problem is this?" Olivia asked wanting to hear everything from the woman who sat in front of her, the woman who she loved so much.
"I didn't go help a friend in Canada; in fact that friend doesn't even exist." Amanda confessed and then took in another breath of air. "I went there to gamble." Amanda whispered.
Olivia, who was still holding her hand, squeezed it tightly before she asked "With who?"
"Chris, he is a dealer at Caesars, and he is the one who told me about this underground club." Amanda whispered.
Upon hearing her words Olivia almost lost it, but she knew right now yelling wouldn't solve anything. "Underground, you mean as in illegal?" Olivia asked keeping her cool.
Amanda nodded "it's okay Liv, you have every right to be mad."
"Yeah I know that, and trust me I am. I just know that right now yelling isn't going to get anywhere. When did you start?" Olivia asked, she needed to know.
"I first went to Caesars after you and I had a fight, when Cragen put us up in a hotel, when Elliot came and found me." Amanda told her and just when she was about to go on Olivia cut her off.
"YOU HAVE BEEN GAMBLING ALL THIS TIME?" Olivia snapped and Amanda shook her head. "Then tell me when the hell you started again" Olivia demanded through gritted teeth.
"It was only that once, and I stopped. But I started again, after I got sick at work." Amanda told her.
Olivia shook her head and was now breathing heavily trying to remain calm, but she knew that her anger was slowly getting the best of her. "Why, why didn't you talk to me about these urges? Why didn't you tell me?" Olivia asked trying to wrap her head around everything.
Amanda shrugged her shoulders and looked down at their hands which were still conjoined. "I just, I just want to give you and our baby the world, I want you both to have everything and anything." Amanda whispered with tears forming once again. "I just don't want our baby to have the life, we did" Amanda confessed again for a second time that night and now the tears were streaming.
"Amanda, our baby wouldn't have the life we had because it is us raising them and we would never let them go through what we went through." Olivia whispered before she placed her fingers under Amanda's chin and pulled it up so Amanda was looking at her. "And having you and our baby is the world to me." Olivia whispered.
Amanda nodded "I know that, I just, I just don't know Liv. What can I say I am stupid and you deserve so much better." Amanda began but Olivia cut her off again.
"Look at me, look in my eyes." Olivia demanded and Amanda did what she was told "You are not stupid, and I never ever want to hear those words come out of your mouth again." Olivia told her forcefully. "And I don't deserve anyone better than you, because there is no one better. I love you Amanda, and I want you and only you." Olivia told her before she pulled her in for a deep kiss.
When the kiss broke Amanda was the first to speak "Liv there is something else."
"What's that?" Olivia asked
"In Canada, I met Declan Murphy from Vice." Amanda sighed and Olivia looked at her in confusion.
"He a dirty cop?" Olivia asked
Amanda shook her head "No that is me" Amanda sighed "He is undercover there as a club manager." Amanda told her.
Olivia took in a deep breath, "Jesus Amanda what the hell happened up there?" Olivia asked
"Some waitress recognized me, and went back to the backroom before I could leave fast enough." Amanda confessed.
"So what now?" Olivia asked
"They want me to do shit for them, Declan told me to just report to him. I am so sorry Liv" Amanda told her with tears filling her eyes once again.
Olivia pulled her close and wrapped her a tight hug "It's okay baby, I know addiction, I know it's tough." Olivia whispered before she pulled back and look Amanda in the eyes "But you won't have to do this alone, I will be right by your side and I promise you I will never leave." Olivia told her sweetly with a smile and Amanda smiled back at her.
"I love you so much Olivia Benson." Amanda whispered.
"I love you too Amanda Rollins." Olivia told her before she asked "Now is there anything else?"
Amanda nodded "Kim really didn't call, the safe was out because it has all my money that I won inside."
Olivia nodded "I know, I talked to Kim tonight."
"Is that how you knew?" Amanda asked
"Somewhat, Nick followed you even though I told you not to and he showed up with the pictures of your car parked in the garage and you getting into another car." Olivia confessed and then added "And I know about the money, after I talked to Kim, I got suspicious and I opened the safe and saw all the money."
"I was on a lucky streak" Amanda chuckled even though she knew it wasn't a laughing matter.
"You say that as Canada didn't go good, well at the tables I mean." Olivia smirked
Amanda shook her head "It did at first."
"At first?" Olivia asked
"I was doing good, and now I am down 15 grand" Amanda whispered
"15 GRAND?" Olivia snapped again "Amanda we have a baby on the way, a mortgage."
"I know Liv, I am sorry. I will pay it off I promise." Amanda told her
Olivia shook her head and Amanda thought the worse was coming, and what they had was over until the words that came out of Olivia's mouth shocked her to no end. "No we will pay it off together."
Well there is chapter 10, I hope you all enjoyed! Please let me know what y'all thought, I love hearing from each and everyone of you, it keeps me motivated to write this story for you.