Sarah re-read the last line, took a deep breath, and sat the journal in her lap. She knew what was coming for them and Beth had paid the price to keep them all safe. Sarah picked up a few of the pictures and looked at them. Her heart clinched in her chest at sight of the two women smiling back at her. Sarah could see it in the way the Beth looked at Alison, she would have done anything for her. Sarah sighed and vowed to find some way to help Alison. She picked up the journal and began to read.

~ I talked to Cosima today and she told me that Alison had asked about me and how I was doing. I smiled at that, but it also made me sad. It's been too long since I've seen Ali. I miss her. She needs to get over it. I mean shit all I did was kiss her. Little does she know I plan on doing it again. Hell, it might help get that stick outta her ass.

~ So I decided I had enough of Alison not talking to me and am now stalking her. Well, stalk sounds creepy, but I am following her. I am hoping to find a minute to get her alone. It's not like I can just walk up to her front door. Can you imagine? Donnie would shit a brick and Ali would kill me. Anyway, back to stalking…. I'm going back to her house in the morning. I've watched Donnie and Alison leave the house at the same time every morning. Alison takes the kids to school and then comes home and Donnie goes to work. So, tomorrow I plan to break into her back door and surprise her.

Sarah chuckled and tried to imagine how Alison is going to react to Beth breaking into her house. The soccer mom practically has a stroke anytime the clone club meets there. Sarah laughs again and continues to read.

~ Today went about as well as it could. I wish that you could detect sarcasm through writing. It was a complete and utter shit show. I got to Alison's house early and watched her leave with the kids and come back. I waited a few minutes before going around to the back. I did consider just knocking, but knew that would give Alison the chance to refuse to open the door. So, I picked the lock and went in. I checked downstairs, but she wasn't there so I went upstairs. I could hear her moving around on the top floor and I headed up. As I neared the top of the stairs, I could hear Alison singing at the end of the hallway. I followed the sound of her voice and as I entered the room I realized it was her bedroom. That's when I heard the shower turn on and I stopped dead in my tracks. I looked across the room and saw Alison standing in the bathroom stripping off her clothes. I swallowed and froze. I didn't know what to do, so I just stood there. Now of course I wish I hadn't, but I did. I watched as Alison pulled her t-shirt off and over her head before dropping it in the clothes hamper. I remained stuck in place while she hooked her thumbs in the sides of her yoga pants and pulled them down over her hips. That's when I knew I was in trouble, the moment the woman in front of me bent at the waist to tug her pants the rest of the way off, I was done for. I silently praised the yoga gods for the amazing sight before me. I was still too dazed by the yoga toned ass to notice Alison getting into the shower. I watched for a minute before I knew that I was crossing a line so I slowly backed out of the room. I slumped against the wall and left myself slide down onto the floor trying to regain some sense of composure. I sat there listening to Alison sing and wondered what I was doing here. How was this going to play out? How the fuck did I think this was ever a good idea? I was too lost in my thoughts to hear the shower shut off. I heard footsteps and quickly jumped up, unfortunately my foot was asleep and I fell into the door way and onto the floor. I scared Alison, who dropped her towel and screamed. I got to my knees quickly and realized that I was suddenly face to breasts with my clone.

Sarah was laughing so hard she had to stop reading for a minute. She could just picture it. Poor Beth, Alison was going to unleash hell on her. She would have hated to be Beth in that moment.

~ I could only stare like an idiot. Alison gasped and slapped me. I felt the sting radiate through my cheek as I groped blindly for the towel. I handed it to her and she quickly covered herself, not before I got another look at her. God, how were we clones, do I look that good? Her abs are ridiculous, seriously, maybe I should try yoga. Alison starting yelling at me and pacing back and forth, asking what I was doing, why was I there? I didn't hear her. I was too focused on the way the water droplets from her hair slide down her throat and disappeared over the tops of her breasts. I smirked at the sight and looked up to see Alison looking back at me with a strange look on her face. I apologized over and over again, for everything; for breaking in and for scaring her. When I was done she only looked at me like she was expecting more. She asked if that was all and I said yes. I knew she was hinting at the kiss and waiting for me to apologize. I told her I wasn't here to apologize for the kiss and I wouldn't apologize because I wasn't sorry. I was here because I missed her and wanted to get past it. Alison titled her head to the side, as if considering something, and I saw the corner of her mouth twitch. I'm not sure what it meant, but I knew that I had been forgiven. Alison simply nodded as if that was enough of an explanation for her. I stepped out of the bedroom and let her get dressed. I met her downstairs and she walked me to the door. I had my hand on the door handle and decided to push my luck just a bit, to see if I could get a rise out of her. I told her that yoga and hip hop abs really did agree with her and she smirked. I stepped outside and felt a hand grab my arm. When I turned Alison was smiling at me. "I missed you too, Beth." Is all she said before letting go and shutting the door.

Sarah sighed. These two idiots, she thought with a smile.