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A/N: Hello I am back Yay! Ok…so this is my first Glee fic. I have been thoroughly peeved at how this season is going to crap. So…I have came up with my own version of season 5 had Finn/Cory still been alive. I hope you enjoy. This picks up right before Rachel finds out her fate with Funny Girl.

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The Worst Day Since Yesterday….

Rachel sat on the couch flipping through the channels wishing that she had gone to Lima for regional's with Kurt and Santana she had her Funny Girl audition coming up and she didn't want anything or anyone to get in the way.

She could've taken a later flight and followed them up lord knows she could use the support of her friends from High school.

Kurt and Santana had tried to convince her that she could come and support the New Directions but…the main reason wasn't the audition it was…Finn the man that she still had deep feelings for. She felt like shit leaving him in the middle of the night like she did but…she panicked after realizing what had happened. She had never been one to cheat on some one ok…well there was that one time in high school with Puck but that was a different story. She was with Brody while they may have kept it casual she was still with someone when she slept with Finn. So she did what she had to do which was catch the first flight back to New York and try to move on.

Which…that didn't go quite as planned considering that once she got back to New York everything started going to shit not, like things were going that well before she left. She tried to keep up with her classes but…with each passing day she found the classes that once brought her joy were just a chore to her. She just wasn't in it any more. And it didn't help matters when her shark of a dance instructor was belittling her in every way she could. While Cassandra was supportive of her callback she knew that there was something up.

The worst thing about New York wasn't her classes or Cassandra it was…Brody who at first she didn't want anything to do with but…once her loneliness started to overwhelm her she took a chance on. This, in the end backfired on her. She didn't know what she would've done if Finn and Santana hadn't of done what they did.

Finn had convinced her to do Don't Stop at the audition and she thought she had done well and the moment she had been waiting for her phone finally rang. She looked at the caller ID and she felt her heart skip a beat.

"Hello?" Rachel answered trying to keep calm.

"Hello, may I speak with Rachel Berry?" The voice on the other end asked.

"This is her." She could feel the butterflies form in her stomach.

"This is Rupert Campion, casting director for Funny Girl." he tells her.

"Hi." Rachel said still trying to keep her composure as professional as possible.

"Rachel, firstly let me say that you are an amazing singer and your acting is superb the talent that you have at the age that you are is outstanding. While, I thank you for taking the time to try out for Funny Girl, we have decided to go with someone else." Rachel felt her heart sink to the floor when the words had left his mouth.

"Thank you for considering me." Rachel said her voice was on the verge of breaking.

"We will be having auditions for the understudy next week. I really hope that you will be there." he tells her.

"Sure." she tells him.

"It was nice to meet you Rachel and good luck with your career. I will see you next week." She hung up the phone thankful that Kurt and Santana were in Lima so she could just cry in peace which is what she did. She knew it was a long shot that a small town girl with no experience at all would get the lead role in a huge Broadway production. But…she still thought she had a shot. She wiped the tears from her eyes and picked up the phone and dialed Finn's number she knew that regional's were a few hours away but…she needed to hear his voice. She waited for him to pick up the phone.

"Hello?" He answers.

"Finn….it's Rachel." her voice was soft and he knew something was wrong.

"Oh, hey Rach…man I wish you had come with Kurt and Santana. Everyone else is here too well…Mercedes and Mike are the only thing that would make it perfect is if you, Quinn, and Puck were here. It would be like old times." Finn tells her he knew something was wrong but decided not to push it.

"They didn't want me." She tells him his voice cracking on the other end.

"What do you mean they didn't want you I thought you said you blew them out of the water?" So…that's what's wrong.

"He said my talent was amazing for someone so young. But…I guess they wanted someone with more experience. He did say they were having tryouts for the understudy." Finn's heart broke for her. His wished so badly that he could be there to hold her right now.

"Rachel I am so sorry. Have you told anyone else?" He asked.

"I just found out you are the only one that I have told." He was always the first person she would call when anything major happened in her life. "I really wish I was with you and our friends right now I miss you so much." Rachel tells him not really realizing what she had just said.

"I miss you too." He told her. "Have you told anyone else?" He wondered.

"You are the only one that knows." Rachel tells him. "Finn can you please not tell anyone else. I don't want anyone to know yet."

"I promise." He tells her. He wanted to tell her so much more but…he decided to leave it at that.

"Thank you." before hanging up she wanted to tell him that she loved him but…she knew that now was neither the time nor the place. Instead she wished him and the New Directions luck and hung up the phone.

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Finn was really glad that Rachel had called. He still couldn't believe she didn't get the part that she had been dreaming about since she was little. When they were together all she would talk about was Funny Girl and New York. She was so talented he thought for sure that she would've got the part. He just really wanted some good news for her; he knew this year wasn't the best for her.

Speaking of not great years his hadn't gone as planned either. With him not getting into PACE and being discharged from the military, oh and the whole kissing Miss. Pillsbury thing.

He watched the group take their seats to watch the other groups perform. He knew they were up against some of the toughest groups in the state but, he had faith in those kids. While he wasn't really sure what was going to happen with Nationals being right on their heels. Brittney was going back to MIT and Ryder was threatening to leave. Then you had Sugar and Joe who had this habit of not showing to rehearsal. Despite the problems that were going on in his life he couldn't get Rachel off his mind. He wanted so badly to hop on the next flight and take her back to Lima with him but…he knew that was not a possibility.

"Hey, was that Rachel on the phone?" Kurt asks walking up behind Rachel.

"Yea." Finn tells him.

"So…did she hear back yet?" Kurt asked and Finn remembered what Rachel had told him about not telling anyone.

"No…not yet." Finn told him. "She called to wish everyone luck today."

"We tried to convince her to come with us but…she insisted on staying and waiting for the call." He heard Santana say

"Well…when you guys go back tell her that we all miss her and hope to see her soon." Finn really wanted to go visit her but…now that he was going to college and running the Glee club he wasn't sure when he would have the time.

We were up next the Hooiserdaddies had finished their set while their lead vocalist was a powerhouse she was no Rachel. Brittany gave a speech about how Glee club had inspired her so much and…then Mr. Shue turned to Santana and Kurt.

"Any word from Rachel yet?"

"She called to wish you guys' good luck." Finn said. "She hasn't heard anything back yet."

"Well…tell her we are thinking of her and we hope she gets the part." Blaine says before bringing the others in. He knew that if she had gotten the part everyone would've been there to support her opening night.

He stood their backstage with Mr. Shue proud of what this group had accomplished. While he knew he had done some stupid things this year it seemed like everything was finally falling into place. They had done an amazing job on Hall of Fame. Marley had written and amazing original song she reminded him so much of Rachel. Everything was going great Mr. Shue and Miss. Pillsbury had decided after the show that they were going to get married backstage. While it may have sounded weird it was fitting this was the place that they had met. It was only appropriate that they would get married here.

Now we had to figure out what we were going to do for Nationals. We had nine members since Sugar and Joe had decided that they were done with Glee Club. Sugar had said something along the lines that Glee Club was holding her back from her true talent and well…Joe wanted to devote his time to Jesus and….Ryder well since the whole catfish thing he wasn't sure what he wanted to do. Finn went back to his dorm room to call Rachel.

"Hey." Finn says lying on his bed.

"Hey…so how was Regional's?" she asked.

"We won and Mr. Shue and Miss. Pillsbury got married." Finn tells her wishing she was next to him.

"That is great Finn! I can't believe they got married. Tell them all congratulations and that I am so proud of them." Rachel says he could hear the sadness in her voice.

"How are you holding up?" Finn asks knowing the answer but he still had to ask.

"Not well." she tells him her voice trailing off. "I wish you were here." her voice is barley a whisper.

"Maybe coming home for a few days would do you some good." he says hoping that maybe she would come back.

"Finn…I want to but….I have class as much as I don't want to go. I know as soon as everyone at that school finds out my life is going to be hell." Rachel explains

"Maybe they won't find out." Finn tells her.

"Of course they will find out everyone at that school reads the Broadway message boards."

"Just come out for a few days then." Rachel wanted more than anything to get away from NYADA, Broadway, New York all of it for a few days.

"Finn…I don't know."

"Please….I think it would do you some good to be around your real friends. Also…it would mean a lot to me if you would come." Rachel is silent for a minute thinking about this.

"Ok….I will book the first flight out. But…I am only staying for a few days." Rachel told him. He was right it would be nice to be back home with her friends.

"Call me when your flight lands and I will pick you up at the airport." He tells her.

"I will." She says hanging up the phone. Finn wanted to tell her that he loved her but…he knew it was too soon.

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Rachel's plane had just landed in Lima and for some reason Finn found himself nervous as hell consider the last time they had saw each other it really wasn't on the best of terms. But…things had been going really good so far and while he knew that getting back together was not an option he was happy that she had agreed to come to Lima for a few days. He scanned the crowd and there she was walking towards him bags in hand.

"Hey." Rachel gives him a huge smile.

"You made it!" he says taking some of her bags.

"I did." she says as they walk over to his car.

"So are you going to stay at your dads while you are here?" Finn asks placing the bags in the trunk of his car.

"Yeah, I barely had enough to cover the ticket so I figured I would just stay at my dads." She tells him as he closes the trunk and opens her door for him. "Thank you." she smiles as she sits in the car he gets in on the other side and drives off.

"So…are you going to tell anyone else?" Finn asks.

"I might as well." as much as she didn't want to admit failure she knew she had to tell people she didn't get the part.

"You know they are not going to look down on you." Finn simply says.

"I know but I still feel like I let people down." She tells him as they pull into the drive way.

"You didn't let anyone down. Rachel you have no idea how proud we are of you." he tells her as he gets out and grabs her bags.

"Thank you…it really means a lot coming from you." She tells him as he helps her bring her bag inside.

"Hey I was thinking while you were here that maybe you would like to help out with Glee Club." Finn says changing the subject.

"I think that would be great." She tells him. "Just leave them there I will get them later." She says motioning to the floor.

"Really?" Finn asks he didn't think that Rachel would be up for it.

"Sure I would love to help you." She gives him a small smile. "You want to stay and catch up?" Rachel asked.

"Aren't you tired?" Finn asks. He wants so badly to stay but he knows he should be going.

"Please stay. I don't want to be alone tonight." She tells him with pleading eyes. Finn lets out a small sigh.

"Ok…I guess I could stay."

"I am going to make us something to eat and then maybe we could sit on the couch and watch a movie." She gave him a look. "You can even pick out the movie." She says as she walks to the kitchen. Finn walks over to the stack of movies and begins to go through them hoping there was at least one action movie in the pile. He can hear the faint sound of music coming from the kitchen.

See the stone set in your eyes
see the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
on a bed of nails she makes me wait
and I wait without you….

He closed his eyes letting the song fill his head. It was a song that was so moving to him and it summed up his feelings about Rachel. While he knew with him living here and her living in New York it was not possible for them to start a relationship. Maybe when they both graduated they could focus on something more. Right now he was just happy that she was home and…he was going to spend as much time with her as possible these next few days.

"I made us some sandwiches I hope that is ok." She says placing the plate on the coffee table. Finn is still focusing on the song playing in the background as he walks towards Rachel and looks at her.

"I missed you." he says pulling her into a hug. He wanted to tell her so much more but he knew it wouldn't change a thing.

"I've missed you too." She tells him her voice is barely a whisper. As she pulls him closer. Rachel is the first to break the embrace knowing that if she held him any long something bad was going to happen. And…she didn't want anything to complicate their already rocky relationship.

"So what movie did you pick?"

"Anchorman." he says placing the DVD in the player and taking a seat next to her on the couch. Rachel lets out a laugh and moves closer to him resting her head on his shoulder. Once the movie ended he looked down and saw that Rachel had fallen asleep. He knew she was tired even though she denied it. He gently moved her head so he could get up and grab a blanket. He placed the blanket over her and gave her a kiss on the top of her head. 'I love you' he whispered. As he quietly shut the door behind him he knew she would be upset with him for leaving but…he knew that if he stayed there would be no turning back.

Thank you for taking the time to read this I really hope you liked it. Leave a review if you wish. I will have chapter 2 done later today.