"I don't understand."

~Couple of hours ago~

"Germany, wait" I said while trying to bring him back "Please let me explain!" "You don't have to explain anything "he says while holding front door "I understand" he says while leaving.

"Germany….Please come back" I fall to my knees, sobbing telling him to come back and I will explain everything, but he's gone…

~NOW~

"I told him that I would explain everything. I'm sorry Ludwig. I love you so much."

2 HOURS AGO

I was on the floor crying when I heard the phone ring. "Ciao, this is Feliciano Vargas." "Konnichiwa Italy" "Oh hi Japan" I said while wiping my tears " Italy, I have terrible news" Oh great more surprises. "What is it Japan?" I heard silence on the other end "Japan" "I'm sorry Italy, but Mr. Germany got into a real bad accident and he is in the hospital." I was speechless, I couldn't think of anything to say. Accident…Germany….I'm sorry… Oh my God this is my fault.

~THE HOSPITAL~

Italy is sitting in one of the hospital's sitting room chairs thinking about what happened to Germany. "Two hours ago he was fine, now he is in the hospital," he starts to cry " I'm such an idiot why is he still with me?!" He starts to cry again but his phones rings, it was big brother Romano.

"Ciao," trying to cover his tears "Veneziano! I was just at your place and – why are you crying?" "Oh hi Romano, oh it's nothing really," I don't want to get Romano worried about me, but I should really tell him. "Veneziano, you are my fratello1, I know when there is something wrong with you. If that potato loving bastard does anything to hurt you then Io la pelle dei suol muscolie li transformano in scarpe.2" ((A/N: Romano doesn't really mean it ^~^)) I chuckle, "Grazie fratello." "Great, now, where are you and that potato loving bastard I need to ask you something." Romano says. Oh great, do I tell him or do I not… I'll say. "I'm…I'm at the hospital, Romano" "WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?! ARE YOU OKAY? IF THAT BASTARD HURT YOU, IM GOING TO-" I couldn't hear the rest; probably Spain is covering his Southern Italian mouth. "AND THAT'S WHAT IM GOING TO THAT FUCKER! HURTING MY BROTHER, HES GOING TO PAY!" "Romano, I'm fine, it's him who is in the hospital." "STILL I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK! THAT'S IT, TONI AND I ARE COMING OVER RIGHT NOW !" "Romano please don't,"

The phone hung up before he could finish the sentence. " Great, Romano is coming" Italy starts pacing the hospital floor worrying sick about Germany and pissed off Romano he knew this wasn't going to end well. "There's nothing I can do, Germany, my love, please." I sit down and start to cry until I heard, " Italy, I came all the way from my house when I called you." It was Japan. I didn't have the nerves to talk to him, so I just shook my head. " Italy is everything alright," Japan asked.

I knew that Japan doesn't like personal space but, I really needed a hug. Big brother Romano was on his way over here, pissed, with Spain so I really didn't know what to do . " I'm fine," trying to fake a smile. I knew it wasn't working. Japan could see the pain I was going through. He could figure out ,I mean everyone knows, how much Germany means to me so that's the only thing that came to mind. Japan only looked at me. I tried to fake my smile again ,but the only thing that came out was tears, and lots of them. Tears of pain, suffering , and loneliness. Oh God, I was suffering. I cried harder and harder only thinking about what will happen to me if he doesn't recover. I know I sound a little selfish, but I wouldn't know what to do.

Japan only looked at Italy while he was crying. He had never been in a situation where one of his friends was crying. The best thing he could think of was to comfort him. " Italy ( sorry I touched you) , Mr. Germany is going to be fine. He's strong and he will be okay, don't worry ( sorry I touched you again) you will get to see him again." I grabbed hold to Japan's arms and hugged him. He knew that I really needed that and I was really glad to have a great friend like him around.

The hospital was quiet, well not quiet, there were doctors and nurses moving around trying to help patients ,but it was a peaceful quiet. The windows were open to giving the hospital floor a great aroma. I was relieved for a while ,but I knew that my Germany was alright. The doctor came and told us that he had good news and he had bad news. I asked for the bad news first ,but he recommended the good news first.

The good news was that Germany had made a full recovery. I was so relieved that I hugged Japan again, he jumped again (see personal space). The bad news was "While he was recovering Ludwig slipped into a coma," Japan and I stood in shock. I wanted to cry again but I knew Germany wanted me to be strong. "We don't know how he got into the coma but we know that it did not look to well." I started walking away from the doctor and Japan. I didn't want them to see me cry. Japan knew that more bad news would have sent me over the edge because of this I knew I couldn't do anything else so I just thought it over and over getting the words Ludwig slipped into a coma…..we don't know how but it doesn't look well. Tears streaming , I finally said "I can't take this anymore! I know…I know everything is my fault. The fight that petty fight, I should've told him what I meant but no, I let him leave." I walked farther trying to hold back the tears but they still kept falling. I felt weak, so weak that I fell to the floor. I cried more and more. I wanted him to hold me and tell me that everything will be alright but no he can't. "Oh God…This is my fault."

1 Fratello is brother in Italian

2 I will skin off his muscles and turn them into shoes.

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