Hey loves! So, I know that most of us aren't thrilled about the arrivals of Gavin and Piper. It will be set from Princesses and Prizes and forward and the downfall of everything. This will be in Ally and Austin's POV mainly, but it'll show you how they're dealing with being with other people and their feelings. So, while this story may be angsty. Trust me it will get better. xo

Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or the Disney Channel.

I Hate That I Love You

Ally's POV - Flashback

I was already upset that Austin went on a date and took Chelsea dancing the night before. I had Dez go salsa dancing with me so that I could spy on them. Dez did some fancy dance move, spun me on the dance floor where Austin and Chelsea were and I actually spun and knocked Chelsea and I both over and into the sand. The worst part.. Austin completely ignored the fact that I had fallen as well and he helped Chelsea up. It was then that I realized that maybe Austin honestly just doesn't care about us anymore and is frustrated with whatever the hell it is we actually are. Well, anyways I was jealous and it wasn't like I actually knew that Chelsea already had a boyfriend so I had nothing to worry about. I thought I did, there was a burning in my chest and honestly the worst feeling ever. I'll never forget the day Austin performed at Chelsea's little sisters princess birthday party, which I thought was Austin and Chelsea's second date, BOY was I wrong! Of course I had to ruin Heidi's birthday party because I let jealousy get the best of me. I did, however, try to stop Brooke from running right at them. Austin then approached me because I guess he wanted to talk, his words, well you'll see. I don't like where this conversation went.

"Well, if we're not going to be together, it's only a matter of time before one of us meets someone else."

"You think it's time for us to move on and date other people?"

I tried to act like I was okay with this suggestion, I mean how could he not see the pain in my eyes. Ha! Some best friend he is! What happened to when he was able to tell when I was lying and that I wasn't just feigning to be hurt and that I actually was hurting?

"Maybe. Whatever happens, I just want you to be happy."

REALLY AUSTIN? SO much for him fighting to want to be with me. I'm so sick of being taken for granted.

I told him, "I want you to be happy too."

END FLASHBACK

...

Honestly, I felt my heart break even more during that conversation. Did he seriously mean that? I mean between the note, me going to see him while he was on tour and with the plane ticket that he bought for me to meet up with them literally anywhere, me staying on tour with Austin for the rest of the tour...I honestly thought we were making progress, I thought he would realize that being separated while he was on tour was killing me,that it was so hard being away from him. And that he would realize that I'm in love with him, that he's so important to me and that's the reason that I stayed with him on tour, but I guess not.

I had taken the time to absorb what he was really telling me, it just felt like he was being a coward. He really couldn't just tell me that he wanted to be with me. Why does he have to make everything so difficult? I wish more than anything that he would just be honest with me about his feelings, but no of course not. So, I had taken what Austin had suggested to heart, completely heartbroken and devastated by the way, the boy that I love more than anything pretty much denied that I meant anything to him. Yeah, yeah I know well he did say, "Whatever happens, I just want you to be happy." right Ally? What you don't realize though is that the second Austin suggested that we move on and date other people. I became numb, almost robotic sounding, the worst kind of neutral and unfeeling possible. So even while I was zoned out, I had already put up my guard knowing full well this idiot was going to break my heart again.

I had to pretend that I was okay while I was still at Shredder's Beach CLub and at Heidi's birthday party, but went to Sonic Boom right after and was praying that Austin wouldn't come here after his performance of Upside Down. If the song was actually about me, I don't know and right now I honestly could care less because I think it would make the knives stabbing my heart over and over again even worse. It doesn't help that when I get up to the practice room everything literally reminds me of Austin.I switched on my Ipod and started playing Rihanna's I Hate That I Love You So. As I listened to the song I began to sing along with it, but it just made my heart break even more. Why me? Why can't Austin just get his fucken shit together and be with me? Stupid teenage boys. UGH! As I'm wallowing and wanting to drown myself in the music I hear a knock on the door, I actually locked it because I want to be alone. On the other side I hear a voice,

"Ally! Why is the door locked? You never lock the door. Is everything alright. Please please just open the door."

Austin sounds broken and like how I'm feeling maybe I should let him in? Then I'm interrupted by my conscience,

No Ally! Don't you dare, that idiot has broken your heart for now the second time. I don't care if he's your best friend, does he even genuinely care about your feelings?

I don't know if he does.

Well pretty girl...if you don't know. Don't let him in! He doesn't deserve to be in your presence right now after what he just said to you earlier.

Since it hurts to breathe and my heart is of absolute no help right now. I'm going to listen to you.

You better respond to Austin, I can sense that he's getting worried, but be strong and make him go away for at least now.

...

I'm snapped out of my trance when I hear Austin pleading. I get up from the chair and walk to the door and put my hand and head against it,

"Austin, please I just need to be alone right now. I don't want to be anywhere near you please just go."

"Ally, please I'm worried. It took you ten minutes to respond to me. What's going on?"

That it's I've had it with him and it's then that I snap and raise my voice which I've never done ever, not to him, not to anyone,

" I don't fucken care if you're worried! I don't care what YOU want Austin! You don't get to be with me or talk to me right now! Got it?" Wow, this sucks.

"Ally... I - "

I cut him off, I knew what he was going to say, and honestly there's no way that I would ever believe that he is in love with me after suggesting we move on and date other people.

"Austin! Don't you dare, just go! I don't even want to look at you right now."

I knew that I was hurting the other half of my heart right now, but honestly I didn't care, truthfully I don't think anyone would blame me. Austin and I were connected at the heart of it all, when he felt an emotion I felt the same one and vice-versa. We are supposed to complete each other, but that's definitely not what it feels like at this very moment. I feel like I've lost a part of myself, the best part, my best friend, the one who is supposed to make me happy, who the second he walks into the room my eyes light up with happiness and my smile that sends the message I'm in love with him. That's not what I feel like at all right now. I wait a second, contemplate opening the door, but I can't let him see me like this completely broken with tears streaming down my face. I walk away from the door and back towards the chair, turn back on my IPod continue to sob loudly and not caring if he hears me or anyone else for that matter. Once I'm seated in the chair, I hear footsteps descend the stairs and just like that he's gone. I don't know how we're ever going to get through this.

I hate that I love him.

Austin's POV

Wow, Ally just told me to go. It took her ten fucken minutes to respond to me, she locked the door and refused to let me in and she's never done that before. She doesn't want to look or even see me right now. What have I done? I was just upset, I don't know what I was thinking. She wouldn't even let me tell her I'm in love with her and I could sense that she knew I was going to say it, by the tone of her voice and the way she said it when she cut me off. It sounded something like,

Save your breath Austin, you're just an asshole. Now leave me alone.

I can't believe that I broke her heart again, but she wouldn't even let me try to explain how I was feeling. Then I'm interrupted by my very own Jiminy Cricket,

Good going asshole, you really screwed up this time.

Would you shut the fuck up?! I'm not in the mood for this right now.

Oh that's right, poor Austy's crying and heartbroken. Whose fault is that Austin?

Well...I'm waiting.

Ugh, mine.

DING! DING! DING! That is correct. Well, would we have a heartbroken Ally right now if you had just listened to me when I told you to just tell Ally that you love her and want to be with her? That the date with Chelsea didn't mean anything to you at all.

No, I guess we wouldn't.

Well Romeo...you really fucked up! You need to start using your head more and think before you speak. You do realize that now that you've basically told Ally you don't love her, care about her, and whatever other moronic thing I was subjected to listen to. Now, she's going to try to move on and how do you think you will feel when she meets a guy?

I really do love Ally, she probably just thinks I was going to say it just for the sake of saying it and so we could makeup. Oh God, what am I going to do if Ally meets a guy soon? I have a feeling that my jealousy this time around will be way worse then when Elliott came to town and I made a huge fool of myself.

By the way, I'll bet he'll even treat her better than you.

Whose side are you on?

Austin, even I am sick of your shit. You're on your own. Until you come up with an idea to get your dream-girl back. YOU'RE FUCKED!

Damn.

...

Just like that Austin is now all alone and on his own, he gets in his car and continues to cry not caring if his friends or the paparazzi sees him totally broken. Ally, his Ally it feels like everything is just so fucked up and even though they're not together..this hurts him so much that it might as well have been a breakup. Austin screams with his windows up in frustration and continues to cry. He's close to losing Ally forever. What the blonde heartthrob doesn't know is that the beautiful brunette decided to walk over to the window in the hopes of not seeing his car or him in it. Unfortunately, fate is not on either of their sides today. Austin has to figure out a way to get Ally back before it's too late, but with his luck and his conscience not willing to help he knows that he's fucked.