She's getting married today and I couldn't be happier for her.

That's the truth… more or less.

She has found someone to love her unconditionally.

I could've done that… I am doing that; I have been doing it for a while now.

She has found someone who is able to put her first,

something I could never do because I carry the weight of a city on my shoulders.

No one put it there, I chose to lift it and I choose not to put it down.

She carried it with me once, a long time ago…

well not very long ago actually, it just feels that way,

but now she can't or I won't let her.

She won't listen so no decision has been made,

the conversation is not over.

She has found someone that is not afraid to tell her how he feels about her.

I tried it once, maybe twice but never to her, it never ended well.

With her I didn't want it to end at all, so it never started.

She has found someone that knows her completely

and loves everything about her.

I am not speaking of him, I talking about me because I do.

Sometimes I fool myself into believing that she settled for him

because she could not have me,

but that is just wishful thinking

since she does not know how to settle.

I look at her and wish she were mine, I wonder if she knows.

If she does, she won't say anything because I told her not to.

Everybody deserves better but very few earn it,

she has earned it.

I am suppose to walk her down the aisle,

she says I am the closest thing she's got,

I wonder whether that includes the person she is about to marry?

She made a promise to me today,

she said nothing will change and she will always be there for me.

How can it not? How can she?

I don't know how to let her go but I will because I love her,

because I chose to go at this alone.

But do I still choose it? Is it too late?

I could go to her now and ask her to run away with me.

I wonder if she would?

But I won't, because I have made my decision and she has made hers.

Do I regret it?

Every damn day.

"Oliver? Penny for your thoughts?" Felicity asked.

Oliver sighed as he took her hands in his.

"It's really not worth that much… but I was just thinking how lost I would feel if you were here with someone else today."

"Then consider yourself found because I married you today." Felicity smiled