"Haruhi I'm leaving your package on the dining table, I'll call you in one hour okay sweetie?"Ranka called from the hallway as he did a quick hair check before heading out the door. He had been called in on a favor from a friend to cover a shift, it would only be for 4 hours but since they were willing to pay double Ranka couldn't refuse. Although it didn't seem like being home would do much good anyway, Haruhi had been sitting in her room all day reading. Not that it really bothered Ranka to see Haruhi reading, but it just bothered him how she was reading. Curled under her blanket with a serious look on her face, much too serious for someone reading an English text book. She was thinking of something else but used the book as an excuse not to open up anymore today.

"I might as well start my school work.. at this rate I'll run out of sick days"Haruhi looked down at the package, it was nicely wrapped in white with the Ouran symbol across the front. It was nice of Tamaki to have her homework delivered but a regular brown bag would have been just fine. She pealed back the wrapping to reveal her work for the day.

'3 pages of calculus, I can do that tonight. The assigned reading for biology, take home chemistry quiz, vocab for English, flattened rose and letter, study guide for next week's exam, club news letter.. what?'While she had metally gone through all her piles of work she looked back down at the pressed red rose and the letter attached to its stem.

"Must be from the hosts"Haruhi held the pressed red rose in her hands, its petals still soft. It had been freshly done and maintained its sweet scent. Her fingers traced over the neatly folded piece of paper that had a little bear in the bottom right corner.

She began to read.

'Dear Haruhi, I hope you'll be feeling better in the days to come. I had requested your teachers submit your homework by noon so if anything had been assigned after if might not be in here. I hope you'll be coming to school tomorrow, I understand things may be difficult right now and you're not ready to talk. But please remember I'll always be here if you need anyone. Your dearest friend/father/daddy dearest, Tamaki'

'PS. Please call me if you feel like talking, I'm a better listener then I appear'

Haruhi stood there for a moment holding the letter in her hands, she looked over at her house phone that hung on the wall. She could call him, but it was only 4 so he would most likely still be in club. Picking up her calculus homework and the study guide Haruhi decided school work would come first, just as it had before any of this happened.

The sound of her pencils lead scratching against the paper was the only sound besides the ticking clock. The time passed quickly as Haruhi slowly began to pile her homework together, the homework had been easy but the study guide would take some time.

'Already 5:30'Her eyes checked the clock involuntarily as she made her way to the kitchen. She placed the kettle onto the stove and poured some leaves into a tea strainer.

-Knock-Knock-Knock

Haruhi felt her stomach drop at the sound of the knocking, she wasn't ready to face them yet.

-Knock-Knock-Knock

'But I can't just let them stay out there all day..'Haruhi turned the stove onto a lower heat and brushed her hands clean of any powder from the tea bag. She made her way to the door attempting to be quite.

-Knock-Knock-Knock

'If they knock one more time I'll answer it'

For a moment she thought her visitor had actually left and was ready to make her way back into the kitchen but she wasn't that lucky

-Knock-Knock-Knock-

"Who is it?"Haruhi called as she reached up to unlatch the lock. Not that she didn't already have a pretty good idea of who it would be. However when she undid the final lock before they could answer she was a bit surprised.

"Hikau? What are you doing here, I don't want to see you right now"Haruhi had to admit she was expecting to see Tamaki at her door. It seemed like him to just show up unannounced when he was concerned about her, but maybe he really was keeping this distance. However Hikaru was standing there at her door, a bouquet of red roses in his arms and a nervous look on his face.

"I know you don't want to see me… but I really wanted to see you"He hands gripped the plastic wrapping that contained the roses tightly, you could see the thorns gently pushing into his fingers. Haruhi scanned over his hand and noticed the cuts on his knuckles and the bruises on his wrist.

'I should just slam this door in his face.. his stupid face'Childish as it seems Haruhi serious contemplated the thought. But stepped back from the door, allowing him to enter. Hikaru didn't question her as he stepped inside and slipped his shoes off carefully. He normally just kicked them off but he wasn't trying to make Haruhi anymore angry then she already was with him.

"Do you want some tea"Haruhi asked unemotionally as she poured him a cup anyway. He answered with a polite yes as the flowers were placed next to her on the counter. She could sense him standing behind her, waiting for instructions on where she wanted him to be.

"If you want to stay then you have to be honest and answer all my questions"She placed the two cups on a small tray and made her way to the sitting room, but walked past it towards her bed room. If her father came home and caught Hikaru here she'd never hear the end of it. He had told her she should stay away from him and Kaoru until she had time to recover. An she hadn't even been away from them for 2 days.

She closed the door behind them and made herself comfy on the floor across from Hikaru. His fingers played nervously with his newly dyed locks. He looked so tense.

"Tell me what happened"

Her request caused Hikarus hands to still. But Haruhi waited patiently, she had pulled a pillow from her bed and was hugging it tightly. He placed his hands firmly onto his knees before beginning, but as he began she wished she had never asked.

There will be some graphic language and sexual descriptions in this next paragraphs. If you skip it then it'll be fine and nothing much will be missed.

"It started off like any normal after party for us. Our mother was running fashionably late so Kaoru and I decided we'd enjoy some of the wine they were passing out. From there things start to get fuzzy for me. Kaoru and I sat talking to one of the newer models, it had been her first time in our mother's shows and she wanted to continue working with her. I guess she thought maybe we had something to do with who got picked. She went with Kaoru to get some napkins after one of us split wine on her dress, they didn't come back for a while so I was stumbling around and saw Kaoru making some coffee in the kitchen, he was using that instant stuff you always buy us"Hikaru paused for a moment, looking over at Haruhi who was waiting, they both knew this is where the bad part was coming

"I walked to the bathroom and ran into that girl again.. I didn't even know her fucking name. I pushed past her into the bathroom and she came in with me. I felt her hand here"Hikaru gestured to his arm where she had touched him first. He remembers her long manicured nails and how annoying they looked to him.

"She asked if I had a girlfriend and I just started saying all these things, I talked about you, how much I loved you, how much I just wanted to be with you… and how jealous I was of Kaoru. It was like I had no filter"His hands began to shake and he could no longer meet Haruhsi graze. But he could hear a slight sniffle coming from her direction.

"I told her about how much I wanted you, and then she offered to pretend to be you. Like a roleplay of sorts and I just.. I was so fucking stupid Haruhi! I just agreed and, and I'm so disgusted with myself!"Hikaru was standing now, walking away from Haruhi to the other side of the room. Not that there was a lot of space but he still managed to put a few more feet between them

"She got up on the counter and I was just, I was just fucking her like how I wanted to do to you! I pushed my hand so hard against the mirror when she started screaming that the glass started to crack and I finally realized what the hell I was doing! I looked at myself holding that dumb model and thought I had just thrown away the best things that ever happened to me! I thought I threw away any chance of being with you! I love you Haruhi, I love you so dam much that I can't think straight"His fist was pressed firmly against her closet door as he struggled not to cry. He felt the weight off his shoulder being replaced with over whelming guilt.

Done

"Hikaru"Her voice was steady as Haruhi called him. She whipped the tears that had fallen from her eyes and took a deep breath. He nervously turned around and approached her, afraid to touch her but afraid to not grab hold of her. Like she was made of nothing and would disappear far out of his reach in a matter of moments.

"I can't forgive you"