AN: So the only character I actually own is Perseus Hunt. You'll find a lot of characters from Castle, Shield, Bones, OITNB, White Collar and more but since this story is about our favorite author and Kate Beckett, it stays as a Castle fanfic. This is post season 6 ending with me playing with one of Castle's own spy CBI FBI ideas adding my own little flare to it

3… 2… 1… and KA-BOOM!

The man sighed from his hiding spot as he watched flames go up. The newly purchased car, blown to bits, spread all over the grass. The sun glared at him, as if scolding him. Why now? He thought to himself. It had been years. He had left that life of his so far back… so far that he had almost forgotten, his brain had turned it into a distant memory, a faint dream from another life. He looked up and stared at the sky. Minutes passed as he felt tears form within his tear ducts. The dry grass beneath him sizzled and poked into his skin. Punishing him for the pain he was going to cause in just a few minutes.

Blinking back his tears, he took the phone from his partner and without thinking dialed the number. "Hello? Who is this?" a female voice sounded on the other side of the phone, he knew her in and out didn't he? He could taste the longing and happiness in the very sound of her voice. But right now, all he felt was sadness, he couldn't do it. His partner snatched the phone from him, putting up a frightened voice he spoke, "Is this the residence of Richard Castle, Owner of a New York registered car number: DZ-8479? … Ma'am, I am calling from the Long Island Fire Department. By passers just reported a car crash at the….." The man, tuned out the conversation, he couldn't bear it anymore. Today was supposed to be his big day. He was going to marry the woman of his dreams, Katherine Beckett. Why did his past have to catch up with him today? Of all the days in the world why today? Is the mummy's curse finally catching up with me? …. Snap out of character Perseus Hunt you do not believe in curses or luck or any such thing. He instantly chided himself. He took in a deep breath as he realized he had been stuck so long in his thoughts that he hadn't realized the commotion by the burning car.

His wife/fiancée… NO. Surveillance Object Katherine Beckett stood in her wedding dress. Oh she was right, I would have died at the sight of her at our wedding alter… Oh Kate. Please don't cry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. He pushed back a tear as it threatened to slip down his cheek. What sort of a monster was he? He was causing pain to the love of his life... and then he was sitting and watching her crumble to the ground because of his actions. How could he? He wanted out. He had done as he was asked. He had completed his mission.

Lev's sneering brought him back to his senses. "Perseus! it's nighttime, uniforms have taped and evacuated the area, we have to evacuate this place and be at Headquarters within an hour. The Director will not have any delays or rusts, so, QUICK"

He tried his best to snap out of the gloomy haze but he failed. Yet he tried to put up a strong face, the man next to him was a co-worker. He could not show emotions infront of a co-worker. "But the nearest authorized airfield is at least 50 minutes from here because of traffic and that too in the opposite direction, how do we make it there and then Providence in exactly an hour?"

"In that case it's a good thing I snuck out Lola hmm? Oh and headquarters is exactly above the Empire State building right now."

"WHAT!? LOLA? Coulson will kill you!"

"He definitely will if we don't make it back on time, let's get moving now."

And with that he pushed his pretend life to the back of his mind as he and Lev raced back to the black Range Rover that sat unharmed and well hidden behind a tree, concealing a cherry red Lucra LC470 shining with panther black interiors, fondly known as Lola. He grabbed a can of acetone and along with the assistance from Lev; he washed the black car clean of prints or other tracks in haste. He raced Lev back to the Lucra and jumped into the driver's street, starting it without warning as his mind was still 100 miles away. Focus Perseus! You have to! He chided himself as his foot mercilessly pressed the gas pedal. The customized flying racecar grunted under his foot while obeying its driver's command. Miles passed by the minute, the scenery slipping behind him as the blistering sun slowly slipped down the sky, it was a moonless night as if the dark sky were reflecting the man's mood. He tried to pay it no heed as they entered the maddening city of New York. His eyes were red now as with every passing minute and every beat of his heart he also felt the ever growing pain that he had caused Kate. I love you Kate, I am so sorry. I will come back for you. I promise... I should have told you. Oh lords why didn't I ever? He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't notice himself driving straight for the Empire State Building, head on, in the last moment the car's own flight mode was activated causing the car to do a vertical fly up at the speed of a 100mph. He cautiously wiped a tear off his cheek before Lev could notice it and forced a smile at the Helicarrier runway and the landing agents that stood there. The gigantic Helicarrier loomed up infront of him like a sky city, making him feel small irrespective of his height and build. As he stepped out of the car, the night winds whipped against his face, mussing his air shocked hair, charging static up that he really didn't care for just then. I can do this. I can figure a way out and go back to Kate. No she won't accept you, you fool. What will you tell her? That you're Richard Castle? That you messed up and were on a mission faking to be someone you aren't? That you fell in love with her and asked her to marry you after you forgot you weren't the actual Richard Castle? She loves the man who wrote those books which even though you did, you aren't Richard Castle, she loves that shining face on the back cover, not a top-secret agency's Agent. Even if you do manage to find a way back into her life as you, she's a one and done person, she will never let you in. You showed her dreams, opened her up, told her not to fear life and then crumpled them all in one second. You, Perseus Hunt are a monster.

He suddenly felt like he was being shaken so he left his berating aside to look at his co-worker, who right now was looking at his weirdly. Oh how much I would like to punch you in the face for 'extracting' me out you bearded asshole. Perseus thought to himself then decided that he had to show him who was leading. "Agent Bark Liev, please lead the way."