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Sheldon put on his jacket and was ready to go when he heard footsteps behind him.

"Where are you going Daddy?"

Sheldon turned around to meet the beautiful blue eyes of his thirteen-year-old daughter.

"I told you Lily, I'm going to see Mommy for her birthday."

"I know, but could you give her these?"

In Lily's hand was a bouquet of lilies. Sheldon smiled as he took the flowers from his daughter's hand.

"Of course. Do you…want to come with me?"

Lily looked down at her feet.

"No it's ok. You always visit Mom on her birthday."

"Okay."

Sheldon got in his car and started driving. Once Amy and Sheldon got engaged, he made a promise to learn how to drive. By the time they were married, Sheldon drove like a pro. He stopped the car at his destination, and took Lily's flowers. He started walking when he noticed Penny and Bernadette standing near Amy. As he got closer, the girls turned around with their eyes down and their arms wrapped around each other. They almost passed Sheldon had Penny not looked up.

"Sheldon!" Penny gasped.

At that, Bernadette's head shot up.

"Hi Sheldon. We thought we were going to miss you."

"Would you like us…to come with you to see Amy?" Penny asked.

"No I think I'll be ok."

"Ok," Bernadette said.

The girls walked past Sheldon and stopped as they watched him from over their shoulders.

"I don't like leaving him here alone," Bernadette said nervously.

"Yeah. You go I'll stay with him." Penny said.

Sheldon walked to where the girls were standing.

"Happy Birthday Amy! Lily brought this for you."

He kneeled down on the grass and put the flowers in between the Hofstadters' roses and the Wolowitzs' wreath. He smiled at the birthday balloon bouquets on each side from the Fowlers and Coopers, and also from the Koothrapalis' triple chocolate cake on a glass pedestal that Amy loved.

"Wow you really were spoiled this year, Amy! Everyone went all out this year! You know that I never was for superficial gifts, so I'm giving you what I give you every single year."

He leaned in and kissed Amy's name. The cold stone on his lips gave him a harsh quick dose of reality. When he pulled back, he just stared at her name.

Dr. Amy Fowler-Cooper

He then gazed down below.

Dedicated neurobiologist, beloved wife, loving mother, and loyal friend

He grazed his hand over beloved wife feeling each engraved letter below his fingers. That's what she was, is, and will remain to be: his beloved wife.

She looked like an angel that day. That day she became his beloved wife. He remembered being so nervous just standing there, but all that nervousness melting away when he saw his beautiful bride. Her tiara sparkled, but paled in comparison to her eyes. The minister's voice was a blur as he just gazed at Amy's beauty. He didn't even wait for him to tell him he could kiss his wife. He wanted to show these people that he loved Amy more then anything in the world. Without even thinking, he swept Amy off her feet and kissed her with all the love in his heart. After his flashback Sheldon stared at his left hand where a gold band was wrapped around his finger. He hadn't taken it off since Amy put it on fourteen years, five months, and ten days ago. He turned it to see S + A Forever beautifully engraved in it. He then placed a gentle kiss on his ring. At first, he thought engraving the rings was unnecessary, but it was that phrase engraved in his ring that was the light in his darkest days. It gave him hope.

Penny stood there in tears watching her best friend wishing his wife a happy birthday. When it first happened, everyone decided that they were going to keep Amy's spirit alive as much as possible. They would talk about her as if she was still alive. It was never 'We're going to visit Amy's grave.' It was 'We're going to visit Amy.' They did for Sheldon and Lily. As time went on though, they realized they were doing it more for themselves then for the Coopers. The way everyone talked about Amy, it was as if she was still alive, and it was days like today that everyone realized that Amy wasn't with them anymore. Ironically, it was everyone else that was having trouble accepting that Amy was gone. This was especially true for Penny. Those first few months, Penny felt that Sheldon was the only one who felt the amount of grief that she did. No one else understood. Amy was the truest most reliable friend Penny had ever had. She and Amy had a special bond that she never had had with any girlfriend. So, she helped Sheldon take care of Lily, and help him get back up on his feet. In that time, Sheldon and Penny were like family to each other. They shared everything with each other, and even saw each other at their most vulnerable as they mourned the loss of their best friend. Sheldon felt more like a brother to Penny then her own brother, and to watch him mourn over the love of his life was just too painful. She had to be with him.

"Wow Raj and Emily really outdid themselves this year," Penny said from behind Sheldon.

"Penny, I told you I'm fine."

She knelt beside Sheldon and then realized why she had to be here with Sheldon.

"Well guess what Sheldon? I'm not!"

She collapsed into Sheldon and sobbed as he comforted her.

"You'd think it'd get easier," Sheldon said eyes still on Amy's name.

"Sheldon of course it doesn't! It's been eight years and it still feels like it was yesterday! I mean Amy…Amy was my bestie!"

Penny cried on Sheldon's shoulder as he kept his arm wrapped around her. After what seemed like hours, they said goodbye to Amy and walked away in the same positions as Bernadette and Penny did hours earlier. Once they got to their cars, Penny turned to Sheldon.

"If you or Lily need me tonight, I'm only 20 feet away."

"Actually you're 17½ feet away."

Penny smiled and hugged Sheldon. She then cupped his face, and kissed him on his cheek.

"Love you."

"Love you too."

Sheldon got into his car, and took one last look at his wife before he drove away. He then tried to mentally prepare himself for the annual conversation he had with his daughter every time he wished his wife a happy birthday.