School was a tedious reality that I somehow enjoyed within my vampirism. I liked picking new subjects every time Charlie and I moved to a different city, a different country...

I liked studying the basics in class whilst I spent my nights learning the advanced bits, the College and PHD parts of the course that I was sure teachers barely remembered now.

I loved having a vast knowledge of almost everything on the planet. It was comforting... Liberating... A reason for existence...

You see, since the day I awoke from my change, I'd been different.

Different from the stories he used to tell me.

He would tell me vampires were uncontrollable. He told me they had an insatiable thirst for human blood and without the right help and companionship they could become monsters.

Now don't mistake me... There had been a slight monster in me... But she was gone within seconds.

Let me explain.

I had completely, utterly, 100% fallen in love with the high school vampire Edward Cullen when I was a human teenager in Forks. He was beautiful, smart, funny... Everything I could wish for...

He told me he loved me too... He told me he wanted me forever...

And then he left me. He told me he didn't want me. He said he didn't love me.

Heartbroken was an understatement. I became a statue. Living stone more real than Edward had been.

He and his family disappeared... I searched their house, our meadow... Every trace of him was gone.

And every trace of me had left with him.

But then Victoria came looking for me. She was out for revenge after Edward and his family had killed her partner James for attempting to murder me.

She had gotten me alone in the woods during one of my long walks one Sunday. She had her hands wrapped around my throat, ready to suck the blood from my veins when she realised that I was waiting...

I welcomed death.

With searing anger she realised Edward had left me. And instead of killing me... She changed me...

That way Edward and I would live a horrible eternity without each other, and my pain would never end.

I managed to somehow make it back to Charlie's house with her bite mark gauged in my neck, I locked myself in my room, threw myself on the bed and let the pain take over.

Charlie had learned never to bother me when I went into one of my moods, and so he continued unknowingly to pass in and out of the house every morning and night, assuming I'd gone to class and came home and went straight to bed.

He wasn't aware I was in my bedroom changing into a vampire.

When the damage was done, and my eyes snapped open, my brain hungry for the taste of blood, I flashed off the bed quicker than I thought was possible.

I stared at myself for endless minutes in the mirror; my pale face was beautiful, my hair floated down in silky waves and my body looked amazingly closer to that of a super models.

But that was when the front door opened, and the scent of Charlie's blood wafted straight up the stairs and into my body.

I was down stairs a second later, my hand wrapped around Charlie's neck as he stared at my red eyes in horror.

And I bit him.

My own father.

And it was then that I realised I wasn't like the other vampires Edward had described, because I looked at Charlie's face and a second later I'd let go of him, watching him fall to the kitchen floor as he asked me quietly what was going on.

I left the house immediately, my foot prints fast against the pavement as I ran towards the woods. My senses were heightened, and I found deer almost straight away, snapping their necks and glutting myself with their blood.

When I knew I was no longer thirsty, I went back to take care of Charlie.

Although I hadn't killed him, I had done enough damage to change him, and so I sat with him quietly as the days passed and he slowly turned into me.

It was a lot harder to talk sense into Charlie not to kill the neighbours, but thankfully he followed me into the woods and fed off the animals like I had.

Charlie was a good man.

And I was finally able to tell him everything.

So that was how our eternity started. Charlie had trouble with his thirst but wanted to fed on animals and so he used all of his willpower to do so.

Me on the other hand, I was like a human vampire. Human's didn't bother me at all.

It made for very easy living...

Well that, and my power.

I scoffed at the idea of Edward being able to read thoughts and Alice being able to see the future.

They had nothing on me.

I'd figured out my power slowly over the years, and I couldn't believe how much I actually expanded. I was a shield. I could protect my brain from Edward, just like I had been able to do as a human. But I was also protected from danger, from someone hurting me... It was like I put up an automatic wall that people could not get past.

Over time I was able to push my shield outwards. I was able to block off other peoples thoughts. I was able to protect others from harm.

I was able to raise my hand and stop people in their tracks, stalling them so they couldn't move an inch.

It was from that that I realised I could move people too.

I could flick my hand and they'd move in the direction I pleased.

It was very cool.

Not that I needed it much, I only ever used it when unfriendly vampires who were looking for a fight came into Charlie and I's new town of residence.

But we'd been in Portland for two years now, I was a senior in high school, and we hadn't had any trouble at all.

Did it scare me that we were so close to Forks? Of course.

Did I wonder what would happen if I met the Cullen's again? Obviously.

But I just had to remember, as Victoria had so nicely put it; Edward didn't love or want me, and I had forever to dwell on that fact and live in pain.

Plus it had been twenty years and I hadn't seen them again...

Well... Until now.

My friend Adam was chattering away beside me in English, and suddenly I began to listen to his words.

A new family had joined the school.

They'd moved from Alaska.

There were five of them.

One that Adam had particularly taken a liking to, a gorgeous blonde girl, was fiercely protected by her big muscular brother.

I stopped the air in my lungs, even though I didn't need it.

Like I said I was more human than the rest of the normal vampires.

I sat and thought about Adam's information during our English class. Lunch was next period... I'd soon be face to face with them.

And what would I do?

Had Alice seen this?

Did Edward know?

Fear struck through me... Edward didn't want me. Edward didn't love me.

And here I was ruining his family move to Portland.

No.

I was here first.

They could leave!

I growled under my breath as the fear suddenly formed into anger. They would see me, finally as the strong and powerful Bella I always was.

They would no longer see the fragile human.

And I'd make them leave.

Once the bell rang, signalling the end of English and beginning of lunch, I jumped up from my seat, books in hand as I turned to Adam.

"I'm going to my locker first," I nodded at him, "I'll meet you with the others at our table."

He didn't question me, as it was a common enough thing for me to say when I had to nip to the toilets to put in another pair of brown contacts over my golden eyes.

I let the class file out before me, before I turned on my heel and headed straight for my locker. I placed my belongings inside, grabbing another pair of contacts and glancing in my locker mirror so I could put them in.

I stopped myself, however, as I stared at my now golden eyes.

Let them see me like this, I nodded to myself, let them see what I became without their help.

I straightened my hair out, fixing my red blouse and skinny jeans before I took one look at my face, my red lips, pale cheeks and golden eyes.

I slammed the locker door shut and made my way towards the cafeteria, not sure what I would see when I entered.

But I didn't have to look very far.

The double doors to the lunch room closed behind me softly, and I watched as people moved around the lunch hall, grabbing their food, sitting at their tables, talking to their friends.

No one was paying any attention to me.

Good.

Because right there, at the bottom of the long hall, I could see them.

The perfect family that I adored so much.

And the perfect man... Edward.

They all looked so beautiful, so familiar... It hurt my eyes to look at them.

The last time I'd seen Edward he had told me he didn't want me, and that he didn't love me.

I had to remember that now.

I had to hold on to my anger.

Alice clearly hadn't seen me coming, because she sat talking to Jasper. As did Rosalie with Emmett.

But Edward sat staring at the wall, just like he had so many times back in Forks.

I bit back a growl, clenching my fists tightly before I felt around the edges of my shield, testing it lightly as I began to push it away from me.

Edward would surely be listening to the hustle and bustle of the lunch room, hearing all the human's thoughts, and so I began to shield them all one by one, taking a table at a time.

Shielding them meant that their thoughts would turn onto mute in Edward's head, and I watched his expression with a somewhat evil smirk as I quietly turned off the sound in the lunchroom.

It was silent.

He inhaled a breath, searching the room as if wondering what had happened, and then his eyes found mine.

"Bella?" He choked out in shock, his golden eyes widened and looking so happy that I thought he might burst.

His family's heads all shot in my direction, and I watched as he whispered softly, "It's really her."

Their faces were the picture of surprise and awe, and Jasper turned to Alice questionably, "Didn't you see this?"

Alice shook her head, her mouth draped open and her eyes boring into me, "Edward told me to stop watching her future, remember?"

These words angered me further. I growled lowly and unclenched my fist as I raised it slightly, making enough force to push their table lightly.

"Holy crap." Emmet muttered, "What kind of power is that?"

"A damn powerful one." Rosalie answered, and to my surprise, she looked impressed.

"She's cut off all the thoughts of everyone." Edward said in a quick breath, "I can't... Is it... Oh my god..."

"That's our Bella." Alice smiled suddenly.

My growl was louder this time, and it caused a few people at the nearest table to look up at me quickly, before resuming their conversation.

"I am not your Bella." I bit out slowly, low enough for only them to hear.

Edward's face dropped, "Bella, let us talk... Let us explain..."

"It's been twenty years since you left, Edward." I ignored the warmth that coursed through me at finally speaking his name again, "You've had your chance."

"We didn't know... You were a..."

"A vampire?" I raised my hand a little more, pushing his chair roughly, and I heard Rosalie giggle from beside him, "Victoria came back for me." I explained, watching his face pale in surprise and... Anger?

"But..." Edward stalled, trying to think of the words.

"And what if I wasn't a vampire? i'd be human. I'd be nearly 40. I'd be married with babies. I'd be long out of your reach and you still wouldn't have found me to explain."

Edward's eyes clouded over suddenly, and he glanced at the floor.

"No." I spat out, my index finger flicking upwards, causing his chin to lift and his eyes to meet mine again, "You don't get to be the one who looks away."

Jasper shifted uncomfortably, "Guys... She's really powerful... And really angry."

"Well done Jasper." I nodded sarcastically, "Hey you should've came back sooner, could've had that blood you wanted so badly when I was eighteen."

I felt bad for my words.

I didn't blame Jasper at all.

But I was livid.

Edward growled at my sentence, standing up sharply before I flicked my wrist and shoved him back in his seat, listening to the metal crunch slightly at the force with which I threw him back down.

"I want you lot gone." I bit out, "Charlie and I have a life here."

I watched their faces flit with surprise as they realised Charlie was clearly one of us too.

"I never want to see your faces again."

And then quickly I let my hold on everything go.

The forces keeping the Cullen's in their seats slacked, and I watched them relax slightly as Edward cringed at the voices now back inside his head.

I turned on my heel and walked out of the cafeteria, going straight to my locker and grabbing my bag.

I was already in my car when I heard the Cullen's speak their decision from the lunch room.

They were going to follow me home to talk about it.

Great. At least at home I wouldn't have to hold back.

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