so I decided to make another fanfic, since this has been nagging me for a lot.

this fic is my continuation of the ending of the movie rebellion. what ive felt, is that most of the fics here arent really dealing with the changes done, and the feelings the characters are having, properly.

im still continuing my other fic so dont worry about that one.

and of course the usual disclaimer: I dont own the series madoka magica.

"I finally found you... really, how long are you going to keep worrying your friends?"

"Ah, sorry to bother you about that..."

"...what's wrong? You're not acting like yourself."

The red haired girl, who was munching on some snacks, looked up at the blue girl sitting opposite to herself with a mixture of surprise and shock.

Well that is to be expected... just a few days ago I would have just vehemently rejected any show of her concern.

The two of them were currently inside the train station, sitting on one of the waiting benches that people sat while waiting for the next train to arrive. It was way past midnight already, meaning that the whole station was deserted, leaving the two well alone to freely talk about whatever they wanted to.

But was there there something they even wanted to talk about?

"...I just don't care anymore," the blue haired admitted in a bitter tone. "What do I even care about anymore? Who do I want to protect? I don't even know anymore..."

"Hey..." the red haired girl started to say something but stopped as the other girl opened her palm to reveal an egg-shaped dark blue gem.

"The balance of hope and despair is always zero, as you said so yourself," the girl said with a depressing smile on her face. "I understand what you meant now."

That's right, this world worked on a shitty rule.

"I've saved plenty of people, but in exchange, resentment and pain took root in my heart," she continued. "I'm even hurting my dearest friend now."

"Sayaka! Are you-" the red haired once again tried to say something but was cut off as the blue haired, Sayaka, continued on with her monologue.

"As much as I wished for the happiness of one, someone else must be equally cursed," Sayaka said as she raised her eyes upward. "That's how the story of a magical girl goes..."

Tears started forming on her eyes as she glanced turned towards the red haired girl, who could only gape at her. A heavy and dark feeling spread within Sayaka as she uttered her last words.

"I've been such a fool."

A strong gust of wind suddenly burst from the girl inside the station, pushing the red haired several feet away. Fortunately she managed to grab hold the rails, preventing her from being thrown into the tunnels or smacking a wall.

Meanwhile, Sayaka's body had slumped and collapsed on the floor, like a marionette with its string cut. Dark electricity seemed to spark around her as space twisted. The gem on her hand had also cracked, then started to change its form into something much darker and malevolent.

"Sayaka!" the red haired girl shouted her name as she clung tightly to the rails.

Is this type of world even worth fighting for?

"Sayaka!"

"!"

Sayaka gasped in shock as she sat up on her bed. The room was in pitch darkness, signifying it was still night time, but she could still make out the face of a familiar red haired girl looking down at her with a concerned expression.

"...Kyouko?"

"Thank god you woke up," the girl, Kyouko, let out a sigh of relief before affixing her eyes back on Sayaka. "You were bumping on the bed a lot and I could hear groans and whimpers, so I looked down and saw you were having a nightmare. I tried to shake you up earlier but it didn't seem to work until I started calling your name..."

"Ah so that's what happened..." Sayaka replied after a while. "Well, thanks for waking me up," she said with a small smile.

"O-of course, idiot," Kyouko muttered as she turned away from her. "Someone has to look after you."

"Haha, well, I'm fine now," Sayaka chuckled a bit at the girl's reaction. Kyouko was still not quite used to displaying her concerns openly, or having them returned back to her for that matter.

"A-are you really fine?" she asked. Instead of turning around though, Kyouko just turned her head to the side, likely still feeling embarrassed. "What were you dreaming about anyway?"

"Ah, I forgot all about it just now," Sayaka answered with a silly grin. "And I just said I was fine... though I feel like not sleeping yet, so I'll just be going to the kitchen to get some snacks."

"Oh, well, it's natural to not want to sleep again after a nightmare I suppose," Kyouko nodded slightly at her words. "Just be careful out there... and bring me some too."Kyouko requested so with grin before climbing back up the ladder to her bed.

"It's always the food that gets your attention," Sayaka sighed before standing up and walking towards the door. "I'll see what I can find."

As she closed the door behind her, Sayaka waited to hear the familiar snores from Kyouko as she slept again before moving on. After a few steps though, she let out a groan before leaning her back on the hallway.

A nightmare huh... more like, a memory.

It has nearly been an entire month since that incident, the one where the world had been changed. She had confronted the girl about it, which led to nothing except having her powers and memories stripped away. Not all of it was gone though, she still remembered the fact that the girl was a "demon".

And over the course of time, the rest of her memories started coming back to her. Not consistently though, it was on random times she'd start getting them, whether she was awake or not. This has led to her occasionally looking weird and strange towards other people before she adjusted her character back to "normal. Not chronological either, sometimes she'd be hit by a memory from her early childhood days, then some days it was from something very recent.

As of now, she was currently inside her house with Kyouko sharing her room. Apparently, the story was that her family found Kyouko living around near an abandoned church. Being good persons indeed, they had adopted Kyouko into their family which led to her having a bunker bed for them to share the room. Before, it felt very natural and she never questioned it, but now...

"Well, I probably wouldn't have left Kyouko alone either way."

But it was still a bit disconcerting for things to have gone this way, if she thought logically. Her parents probably would have given Kyouko to an orphanage or something, as opposed to just letting her live with them right away. With some of her recovered memories, Sayaka could actually recall that their finances weren't that well enough to support another person under their roofs, let alone for her education. If they did have that much money before, she'd have already bought dozens of music CDs from the music department store instead of just listening to them with her best-

"...friend huh," Sayaka mused before she pushed herself off from the wall and started trudging down to the kitchen. "That girl... was my best friend in the past?

She had only recent gotten the memory of that one. The girl in question was a pink haired girl known as Madoka Kaname who had just recently transferred into their class. Madoka was actually prevalent in her memories, just that she didn't know they were best friends til recently. In actual reality, Sayaka had befriended the girl as she felt rather lost due to just returned from abroad. Sayaka didn't really know what compelled her do it back then, she just couldn't help but feel like wanting to protect that girl. Madoka was rather grateful for her help while Kyouko praised her for helping the girl, though she also noted how Sayaka did a lot more for this girl compared to others (barring Kyouko herself of course). Now she knew why...

"...what did you do, Akemi Homura?" Sayaka asked to no one as she sat down on one of the chairs.

Homura Akemi, also known as the "demon" to Sayaka. She was also a student in their class though barely talked to others and kept to herself. She exuded an aura that made other people feel hesitant to approach her, yet she was also admired for her composure and general skill in all subjects. She was also pretty helpful when people asked her for help regarding something, if they had the courage to talk to her that is. Homura was like the perfect student, the ace of their class and perhaps the whole school. It came to no surprise that a lot of people liked her... except for Sayaka that is.

She didn't have any inkling on what, or even if she did have any connection to it, but she felt like Homura had something to do with her loss of memories. There was also something about her, that made Sayaka feel uneasy, like there was something horribly wrong or off about everything.

I wonder what that girl is doing right now...

so what'd you guys think of this so far?

id appreciate some reviews in order for me to know if im doing it well and if I need some improvement on some parts. you could also give me some ideas for future chapters.