RAPH'S POV

Five weeks. Five fuckin' weeks Donnie and Leo have been missing. Five fuckin' weeks we been searching this city, not finding a single clue as to where they could be. Splinter was givin' up hope. I could tell Mikey was too. April and Casey tried their hardest ta help, but they could only do so much.

If Don were here, it'd be so easy.

If Don were here, we wouldn't be feelin' this way.

"Raph."

I grunted.

"We need to stop."

"No." I growled.

"Raph, we need to stop and think! We can't just keep running around the city like this!"

"THA HELL WE CAN'T!" I shout, but skid ta a halt anyway. Mikey stops just a foot away, glarin' at me. Losin' Leo had hit him harder than losin' Donnie had hit me. Gone was my carefree brotha. In his place was a turtle I didn't know any more.

"We're looking past something, Raph. Sensei said he's sure Donnie and Leo are in the city, but we've searched everywhere. We're missing something, dude!"

I looked away. Mikey was right, much as I didn't wanna admit it. We needed ta really think if we were gonna find our brothas.

"Fine." I growled. "Let's head back to the lair. Maybe April an Case have got something." Mikey nodded, and we made our way back.

In front a tha lair, Mikey stopped and leaned against tha wall, shaking. He swiped at his eyes as tears began ta fall.

Damn. I let 'im get wrapped up in his thoughts again. As tha numba a weeks grew longa, Mikey started ta break. Random fits a sobbin' caught him if he thought about our missin' brothas too much.

I stayed quiet as he tried ta reign it in. When he did, I gave 'im a quick pat on the shoulder. We entered the lair.

Casey was waitin' fer us on the couch.

"No time ta talk. Let's go." He headed straight out witout waitin' fer us to speak.

He led us ta April's house. As we climbed inta tha window, I heard Sensei speak.

"My sons! You have returned." He coughed hard. "Please, excuse me."

"You don't have to apologize, Master Splinter." Said April, who helped him sip some a his tea. Poor Sensei wasn't feelin' too well, and none a us knew just what ta do. Normally we turned ta Donnie.

None of us knew how much we needed him until we didn't have him.

"Sensei, have ya been restin'?" I asked.

"I try, my son, but I cannot relax until we have your brothers back. Forgive me." With a heavy sigh, he leaned back against tha couch. April fussed over him, fixin' his blankets.

"Masta Splinta, ya should tell tha guys what ya told us." Casey said. Sensei nodded.

"My sons. While you were gone, I began to meditate. And I got in contact with your brother, Leonardo."

Mikey gasped. "Leo?" He squeaked.

"Yes. It seems in the time they've been gone, he has brushed up on his meditation skills and is able to project his consciousness in the spirit world. His presence is faint, but I know for a fact that he is still in the city. He and Donatello are still alive."

I tried not to growl when everybody looked at me. "Keep going, Sensei." I grumbled.

"You will not like this part..." Sensei rubbed at his whiskers. "Since Leonardo's presence was so faint, I am to assume your brothers are in the outer parts of the city. If you take me out with you on patrol, I will be able to locate your brothers. The closer I get to them, the stronger Leonardo's presence becomes to me in the spirit world."

I glanced at Mikey, who seemed to be at war with himself. I knew how he felt. Sensei was too ill ta be outside in tha cold fer long, but if we could find our brothas...

"No!" We jumped at tha force of Mikey's voice. "I want Donnie and Leo back too, but... Sensei, you're too sick to go out! It's too cold, we have to wait until you're better."

"Michelangelo, it may be too late by then. We must go while we-"

"No, no, no!" Tears were runnin' down Mikey's face. "I won't do it!" He made a dash fer the guest room April kept. The door slammed behind 'im.

"Masta-"

"It is alright, Raphael. I knew this would happen, with you or Michelangelo. It is a hard decision to make, me or your brothers. I am sorry you had to make it."

April an Casey shared a look. "Let's all try and get some rest." April said. "We can talk about this in the morning."

Case nodded. "Yeah. Let's just get some shut eye fer now. G'night, Splinta. Raph."

"Goodnight, Casey, April."

"Night Case, April. 'M gonna crash out here wit Masta Splinta. Mikey needs some space."

The two nodded at me before heading ta April's room. They made a nice couple, an I was happy fer 'em. But seein' 'em all happy just made me miss Donnie.

I got comfortable on tha floor, bidding Masta Splinta a good night.

"Raphael. Raphael, wake up."

"Huh? Wha?" I lifted my head, swipin' at tha drool that was flowing from my mouth. Sensei was sitting up on tha couch.

"My son, we must hurry."

"Huh. why?"

"I did not want to start an argument between you and your brother... But we must rescue them quickly. Donatello needs us."

That woke me up. I was on mah feet in seconds. "Donnie? What's wrong with Donnie?"

"Hush, my son! Leonardo has said your brother has become unresponsive. He will not speak to him, and eats little. We must go and rescue them before it is too late."

The blood drained from my face. Something was wrong with my Donnie. I wanted ta snatch Splinter up and leave right then - but then I remembered Mikey.

"Sensei, what about Mikey? He really doesn't want you to go out in the cold. And it's really freezing out there!"

"My son, I would not ask you to do this if it was not of utmost importance. I worry for your brothers and until they are safely returned here to us, I will not be able to rest."

I bit my lip. I was torn. I wanted Donnie and Leo back, but Mikey would kill me. "Can't cha just point me in the right direction, Sensei? Ya said you could pinpoint Leo, why not just tell me where?"

Sensei shakes his head. "Due to my weakened state, I only know the general area. The closer we get, the easier it will be for me to find them. I know it is much to ask of you Raphael." He sighs heavily. "I just want your brothers home."

I bit my lip. I agree with Masta Splinta - I want Donnie and Leo home, too. Was I willin' to sacrifice my own father's health to get 'em back?

I swallowed thickly.

"Alright, Sensei… Let's go."

Um... So I'm not very good at writing in Raph's POV. I just wanted to give it a shot. See you guys later!