Author Note: I suddenly started writing this and this is the result. All from Light's point of view. I like to think that there was one side of light that regretted killing L so I wrote it out here

Just a Game

I knew that there had to be a winner and a loser in this game we were playing.

That was what it was…a game…and he was my opponent.

It didn't matter that we were playing with people's lives.

All that mattered was who won and who lost.

Our ideas of justice were on the line.

Who was right? Who was wrong?

Who was justice?

Who would live and who would die?

It was just a game…but the moment he died in my arms, I realized…

That he was so much more than just my opponent.

He was my intellectual partner…my friend…my soul mate.

The game was never the same after that…I was never the same after that.

My sanity slipped away with each lonely day.

I deluded myself into thinking that it was better without him.

But that wasn't true.

I missed him terribly but I never showed it.

In the end I lost to those who strived to be him

But they never were.

It wasn't a fitting end.

If I had to lose…I'd rather it be to him.

I was forced to accept that everything I did was in vain.

All those deaths I caused…including his…were in vain.

I was filled with regret but then…

In my final moments, I saw him again.

He was watching me with those analyzing eyes like he always did

But this time, there was also understanding in his eyes.

I found that that was what I always wanted…

Someone to understand me...

Someone like him.

Still, I died with a sorrowful face…for I knew…

I wouldn't be going where he was.

End

Author Note: just so you know I meant soul mate as in a person ideally suited to another as a close friend

I love Death Note so I'm glad I finally got to write something Death Note related.

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