I just want to say that this is my very first fanfic. I am sorry if there is a problem with the language. i accept help lol. Just remember that this fanfic will end with everlark.

My name is katniss Everdeen-Mellark, Im 28 years old, I am married to Peeta Mellark CEO of Mellarks corporation, I am CEO of Everdeen marketing. I live in manhattan

I sitting right in front of our guest bedroom door. I know im still alive but I am very sure that im not breathing. You ever heard of the saying that you dont know what you lose until you lost it? I heard people say it but I always saw it as a myth just as the stories they told us when we were little. Tonight as I stare at the guest bedroom door I know i lost my husband and there is nothing I can do about it because that is wat I wanted for a year and a half. Now that I got what I wanted i am not so sure that is what I really wanted.

I am still not breathing how I am suppose to. I never knew that in this moment I will have this much pain and this is just the start of it. But this is what I deserve because I am a horrible person. I have been having a affair with a other man for a year and half. But before I go to that story I think we have to back up and start at the beginning.