Chapter 25

"Are you fucking kidding me, Eren?" Levi hissed, before walking over to stand right in front of me. He grabbed my collar tightly, pulling me even closer. "Are you fucking kidding me?!"

I let out a forced cough, before placing my hands around his to try loosening his grip. He seemed determined not to let go, so I ended up just looking into his eyes, silently pleading him to let go of me instead.

He looked mad as hell.

"Levi, it's not what it looks like!" I tried explaining myself, but it was hard to focus on my own words, when I was trying just to breathe properly. "J-Just let go, and I'll e-explain everything!"

Levi looked at me through squinted eyes, eyeing me for a few seconds, before finally letting go. God, how could he be so strong? I was too amazed at first to gather my thoughts properly, but then I pulled myself together.

"Armin... He just wanted to apologize, a-and he wanted closure, s-so..." I looked away, feeling guilty about my own words. "So I kissed him to give him... Closure... I'm serious, it didn't mean anything on my part! It was just to lay all of this drama to rest! Please Levi ..." I didn't know why I pleaded him at the end, perhaps I just wanted him to believe me. I didn't want him to hate me for some stupid misunderstanding.

"I told you not to answer the door … I told you not to go, dammit!" Levi yelled, hammering his fist into the dresser that was standing out in the entrance, before taking a deep breath. He stared at his fist for a moment, before loosening his hand and instead bringing it up to rub his forehead with a sigh.

"I told you to stay …"

I swallowed a lump in my throat, feeling absolutely horrible about seeing him like this. Clearly this was a bigger deal than I had first anticipated.

"Levi, I don't love him anymore. I've already told you that! I never cared for him, n-not the same way that I now care for.." I muttered, not able to say that last word. I took a deep breath, before taking a step forward as I grabbed a hold of his shirt with a shaking hand. Would he just slap it away, and turn his back on me? I held my breath for the first few seconds, waiting to see what he would do, but he didn't move. He just stared down into the ground, still having his hand on his forehead to cover up his eyes.

"That kiss was like a symbol … It symbolizes the end of our relationship. If anything, you should see it as a good thing, because now I'll have no ties with him anymore. I'm done with the drama, and -"

"Stop, Eren, you aren't fucking done with the drama. You are the drama," Levi said in a low tone, before slowly looking up to stare at me. "Drama is everywhere around you, it's almost as if you fucking enjoy it. Do you find it entertaining to be the center of attention, huh?" He stared into my eyes as he said those cruel words. I was at a loss for words at first, but then I realised that I didn't have to say anything at all to truly answer him.

Slam.

Levi stared at me in shock, as he slowly reached up to cover up his cheek with his hand, the cheek that slowly was turning bloody red after the impact with my hand. I had slapped him, and he hadn't seen it coming. None of us had, and for a moment we just stared at each other in complete shock.

And then something even more unexpecting happened.

I stared into his eyes that had started watering, slowly filling the corners of his eyes up until they bursted out and started running down his cheeks.

I couldn't even blink. I just stared at him, unable to move, or speak, or anything. This was something I thought I'd never see. He reached up to his face with a confused look, touching the cheek as if he didn't understand it as well.

I tried reaching out for him slowly, an apologetic gesture, but he automatically slapped it away, before quickly coming bac to his senses.

"You're nothing but trouble, Jaeger." He hissed at me angrily, though with a croaked voice underneath the fiery tone. "Don't expect me to put up with your shit anymore,"

And with those last words, he turned around, hurrying out the door and slamming it behind him.

I just stood there for a few seconds, before finally leaning back against the wall and sliding down it until I hit the ground.

So that was how it was going to be, huh? Gaining back my best friend, but at the cost of love? God, I just couldn't do anything right.

I buried my face in my hand, trying to take in deep, slow breaths as my thoughts ran wild. Should I not have kissed Armin? Was it stupid of me to try to mend our broken relationship with a last kiss, or was Levi in the wrong, just assuming that I'd betray him?

Of course, I understood that seeing something like that while not being able to hear our conversation could create some paranoia. But I had explained it to him, and he refused to see reason anyway – could it then truly be my fault?

I sighed heavily. I shouldn't be creating excuses for myself in the first place – I just didn't want his words to be true … That I was a dramaqueen. Because I wasn't … Right?

It wasn't my fault that all this shit kept happening around me. I wasn't to blame, I couldn't be …

I could feel the tears unfold as my eyesight started to get blurry, and I quickly blinked to push them down my cheeks instead.

It all started when I realised that I didn't truly love Armin. That's when shit started to hit the fan. That's when everything went wrong. If I had been content in our relationship, then I wouldn't have to look for something else, for something more … I wouldn't have set my eyes on Levi the way that I had. There wouldn't have been any sexual tension between us, there would only have been tension. I would still have despised him …

No, that wasn't what I wanted. I didn't want to sit here and wish for it all to change back to the way things originally were.

If I hadn't started to care for Levi, I would never have truly known him the way I did now. I wouldn't have understood why he did those things to me when we were kids. We would never have kissed, never have slept together… Maybe he would even still be hating me. And I would have hated him. Perhaps he would even have gone back to living on the streets, just to get out of the house again?

I would never know for certain, and I was happy about that. Even with all the stupid drama, I was happy that things had worked out the way it had.

So I now knew what I needed to do.

I needed to apologise.

"Hey! Levi, wait up!" I yelled, and even though he was nowhere to be seen, it still wouldn't be hard to find him. After all, there was only one road that led to the forest... The place where he would most likely want to calm down at. "Levi!"

He was walking down the small, rocky road, and as I finally spotted him, I ran after him as fast as I could.

"Will you just stop already!" I yelled after him as my breath turned into small pants. I finally caught up to him, and the first thing I did was grabbing his shoulder to stop him from going any further.

"Seriously, I just – "

He interrupted me by taking me by surprise, pushing me away roughly only seconds after I had grabbed him.

"Fuck off, Eren." He hissed, looking at me with squinted eyes.

"I need you to understand how sorry I am! Why won't you listen?!"

"Because you fucking … Y-You … " He seemed lost for words, as if he wasn't sure how he was supposed to phrase it.

"Levi," I started out, waiting until he was focusing on me again. "I'm so sorry. I know I shouldn't have kissed him. I know that drama seems to always find me, and I know that I tend to fuck up a lot of things. But I also know one more thing, and that is that I'm in love with you. I've never felt like this about someone else before, a-and... I just don't want to ruin this..."

Levi's reaction wasn't really what I had imagined. Though then again, I wasn't really sure what I was expecting from him. He just raised an eyebrow, crossing his arms tightly over his chest, and stared at me as if he was waiting for something. I had already apologised, what more did he want from me?

"You already have," Was his only answer, and this seemed to put my hopes on hold. However, even though his voice was hard and cold, his eyes told a different story. They were looking away, as if he didn't want to face me. As if he wasn't completely sure yet.

So I took a chance.

"I've got CHIIIIIIIIILLS," I exclaimed, actually startling him to the point where he had to take a step back and look at me properly. I looked into his eyes with an intense look, not backing down anymore. "They're multiplying! And I'm LOOOOOOOOSING CONTROL!"

"Jesus Christ Eren, lower your voi-"

"But the POWEEEEEEER you're supplying,-" I interrupted him, before falling to my knees. "Is electryfying …" I almost whispered the last part, before looking up at him expectantly, waiting for him to continue the song.

"I'm not doing this with you," He said stubbornly, his arms still crossed over his chest, as if to protect himself. But instead of answering him, I just kept staring.

"Eren, cut it out, you're just embarassing yourself," He said, but this time his voice was a little softer – I could tell by now.

"No! When I was feeling like crap, you were there for me... You cheered me up and made me smile. I-I'm just trying to do the same with you now!" I exclaimed with a determined look, as I turned my hands into fists. "I care about you Levi, and I don't want my stupidity to ruin our relationship before it even has a chance to turn into something more!"

Levi stared at me in astonishment for a moment, before kneeling down in front of me so that we could look into each other's eyes.

"You're so damn stubborn ..." He growled lowly, before reaching out to place a hand on my shoulder. I sighed heavily, before opening his mouth once more, "You better get up, cause' I need a man... And my heart is set on you," He looked away as he said it, not even trying to sing the melody.

My face cracked open with a huge smile, before I started laughing. And not before long, I threw my arms around him, pulling him close to me. "Thank you," I whispered before sighing in relief.

"You're still an idiot though,"

"I know,"

Hey guys! I hope you liked the chapter!

I know I've been gone for a long time, but I couldn't just leave The Jealousy unfinished.

Soooo ... As you can guess, this will be the last chapter. I'm planning on writing a shorter fanfic about Levi and Eren (Still working on chapter one though), so if you'd like to stick with me a little while longer, I'll definitely have some new stories out in 2017.

Thank you all so much for enjoying The Jealousy as much as I've enjoyed writing it. It has been a long journey, but now we've arrived at the end. All your lovely comments have not gone unnoticed, and I'm so grateful that you've wanted to read something that I've created. Thank you for your support and love. It has been wonderful.

Thank you, and goodbye for now 3
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