Jasper's POV

I stared at Bella. We both had our wounds, bites, scratches, large gashes, and we were leaking venom, but neither of us cared. I was surprised with Bella's strength and fighting ability. She was strong with her shield, but she also held her own with no gift. It was impressive and I had definitely misjudged her. Bella stopped fighting and I could tell that she had given up. She had accepted that I was the strongest and it pleased me greatly.

Her lust began rising and I smiled. It was so pure, so innocent. She hadn't taken a male vampire lover, and I loved that if I accepted her clear offer I would be the first and only because once I had her I wasn't going to allow anyone else to touch her intimately. She seemed to push her lust out to me and I let out a low warning growl. She was testing me. I looked up at her. I knew what she wanted from me, but I faltered. We had both been avoiding this for so long that it seemed too simple to just give in to our primal desires.

I must make a choice. I knew what I wanted, but my mind was still screaming at me, telling me that I was making a mistake, that I should turn and run. It was even telling me to kill her…I closed my eyes. I didn't want to kill her, I wanted to protect her, I always had. I had a feeling it would always be like this, the doubt, the thought that I would be better off without her and I hated that I thought like this. I hated my upbringing. I just wished things were different, but they weren't and I had to do what was best for me in the end. My face changed and my eyes went black. I could feel Bella's confusion and then her fear. She was right to fear me.

"No, Jasper," she pleaded. "Don't do this, please."

I watched as she broke down in front of me. My dead heart stuttered, but it wasn't enough and I wasn't sure it ever would be.

"Jasper, don't you dare," she said strongly, getting up into my face. "I don't want you to do this."

I could feel her sadness, her devastation and desperation. I looked at her with my hard eyes and face. I knew that if we were able she would be crying right now, but I was staying strong. The darkness had a good hold on me and it wasn't letting go, but I didn't care as it was what I was used to. I felt comfortable in the dark. Bella was in the light and with that came so much unknown. I was afraid.

"Jasper, if you do this then that's it for both of us because I won't recover from your rejection and I will kill myself and do you know how I will achieve this?" I didn't answer her. "I will torment and provoke you until you kill me because if I'm not enough to deserve your love than I better be enough to deserve your darkness. A world without you is not what I want. I can't do it anymore. I gave you time and space because I knew you needed it, but this is it, this is the moment. We can change, we can. We're not stuck. I'm asking you, as my mate, to put your trust in me. I can't make you any promises. I won't tell you that it's going to be alright because it's not. We're going to have our ups and downs and you're going to try and push me away, but I accept that."

"Why?" I asked. "How can you not hate me?"

"Because I love you."

"But why? I'm not a good vampire. I can't love you, I can't be loved. I am darkness and that's all I'll ever be."

"Jasper, please, just…" Bella let out a sigh and I could tell that she was close to giving up, but this time it was different because I knew she was close to giving up on me. The darkness rejoiced, this is what it wanted, but it's not what I wanted. I felt crushed, broken, I felt as though I was drowning. I didn't want Bella to give up on me. I knew she understood me, my needs and wants and I would be foolish to give that up. Bella was way more than I deserved, but it didn't matter because she wanted me and she had done nothing wrong... She deserved me.

My face shifted. I had decided. This was it, I was probably doomed, but I didn't care.

I moved towards her and grabbed her neck. I looked into her eyes one last time before biting down hard and sucking in her venom. I reached down with my other hand and undid her jeans. I got them safely down without ripping them and then started exploring to see if she was ready. She wasn't, but it didn't take long for me to get her there. When I was sure she was ready for me both physically and emotionally, I lined my cock up and dove in. I paused when I was in fully and I just basked in Bella's love and contentment. It was fucking beautiful and I got lost. It wasn't until Bella cleared her throat that I remembered where I was and what I was doing.

I knew this would be quick and dirty, so I started thrusting. I wanted to give her everything, but I held back. I knew I couldn't show her everything I knew just yet. It would scare her. I knew how to use pain and pleasure together and I knew how to use it well. But that would come later, with time. I needed her to trust me first and I needed to trust her. I kept on thrusting. Bella felt so good and I grunted out in satisfaction. She was getting closer and closer. I made a point of not manipulating her emotions, we could get to that later as well. After all we had all the time in the world.

Bella came undone around me and I held her up. Once she was done I came and she had another small orgasm. I'd had sex with Maria before but this was incomparable. It was as though I was sharing a piece of my soul with the one that I loved and maybe I was. I didn't know how these things worked. From what I observed between Peter and Jane they had fed off each other, pushing and pulling until their emotions lined up perfectly. I wondered if that was happening to Bella and me, but I felt the same.

I could feel Peter's emotions incoming so I reluctantly pulled out of Bella and she huffed in displeasure. I pulled up her jeans and re-buttoned them. She tried to attack me with her lust, but I pushed it aside. Sharing Bella and her body with the rest of my coven was not something I wanted, ever.

"Any regrets?" Bella asked, looking at me closely.

"No," I answered and she smiled so wide.

"Good," she said.

Peter broke onto the scene first, followed closely by Garrett and then Jane and Edward. I was surprised Edward was here. I had worked out he was mated to Garrett during my time with the Cullens, but I did not touch that one at all because Garrett was a stupid motherfucker and Edward was too good for him. I guess it didn't matter in the end as they found their way to each other regardless. I looked around at all the vampires now in my coven and I couldn't help but think that we were more like a family. I looked at Bella, she was already changing me it seemed, but I didn't mind it.

Edward and Peter let out a laugh and I growled at them. Great, two fucking mind readers, two fucking shields, two pain givers, two empaths, sure Peter was one half of all of those, but it didn't matter because that fucker was able to use more than one gift at once and I knew that he would.

"Congratulations," Peter said, "I mean it took both of you long enough, but congratulations."

"Yeah," Garrett said, "I fucked Ed the first time I saw him. It was natural, instinctive, but you two fucked that up."

I looked at Bella and I could feel her annoyance towards Garrett, we were alike in that regard. Hopefully both Peter and Garrett would leave soon to spend some alone time with their mates and not come back for at least a decade.

"Umm, not to put a downer on this, but, Ness, what are we going to do now?" Jane asked.

"Ness?" Bella asked confused.

I looked at Peter, he could field this one.

"Jane only knows Jasper as the Bringer of Darkness, well she did, anyway, she called him Ness because Bringer of Darkness isn't technically a name and it's a mouthful at that."

Bella was still confused.

"Darkness," I said, putting the emphasis on the word ness and she finally understood.

"I know you're Jasper now, but can I still call you Ness?" Jane asked me. I looked at her and I noted that her feelings towards me, and more specifically her wanting to touch me, had now vanished.

"If you want," I told her.

"Okay, now back on point," Jane said. "Ness is the Bringer of Darkness and Bella was fighting to bring you in for the Volturi. This isn't going to end well."

"Actually," Peter said, "it's very simple. No one knows what the Bringer of Darkness looks like or that he's actually Jasper-"

"So," Bella said, cutting Peter off. I smiled at that, my girl was definitely strong and I was thankful I could see and accept that now. "All we need to do is tell the Volturi that I killed the Bringer of Darkness," Bella said, "that it was unavoidable, and then, with a little persuasion I suspect," she said looking directly at me, "Jasper will just have to play the part and not go on anymore rampages."

No more rampages? That was not ideal, but one look at my mate reassured me that it was a sacrifice well worth making.

"And me?" Garrett asked, he was feeling scared. "You did catch me once, Bella." Yes, she had. I sent her my pride. "So the Volturi must want me back…" Garrett trailed off. "How can I avoid them when they know what I look like?"

"Easy," Edward said, smiling sheepishly. I had missed my brother even though I had only known him for a year. It was good having him back and on my side. "I may have, accidentally," Edward stammered, rubbing the back of his neck. "I mean…"

"Fuck," Bella hissed, being impatient, "Edward fucked an apple pie and it turns out that Aro hates pies, I don't know, it's weird if you fucking ask me, but ever since Aro saw that in Edward's mind he's kept his distance from him. I suspect there's more to the story that Edward's not telling me, but those are the facts."

I looked at Edward and I could definitely tell that there was more to this story. Edward felt embarrassed, but confident.

"You expect me to believe that my boy will protect me from the three leaders?" Garrett asked.

I could admit that it sounded a little farfetched, but Edward's confidence never wavered and that spoke volumes to me.

"Believe what you want," Bella said, "because I don't care about you. Now leave us alone, we've got some more fucking to do."

I pulled Bella to me and watched as my coven left us in their two pairs. Garrett pulled Edward away and they were both feeling playful and nervous. Jane pulled Peter away and I could feel their mischief and cockiness. I couldn't help but feel that both Peter and Garrett had found their equals. I looked down and Bella and I hoped that she was mine. I was still struggling, but I was now hopeful. I knew she was strong, I knew she could handle my boys, and Edward and Jane. I knew she was cunning too, she had caught Garrett and he was a slippery fucker. She had to be my equal, I refused to believe otherwise.

"What are you thinking about?" Bella asked me.

"Later," I gruffed out. Now was definitely not the time for that. I pulled down her jeans and drove home, letting out a sigh of satisfaction. This was right.

She was mine and I was hers, always.

The End

A/N: Be sure to check out my other Bella/Jasper full length fics: Light Within the Darkness (2011) - Let's Get Ethical (2014) - Irredeemable Killers (2014) - Rising Dawn (2015) - Whitlock's Swan (2018) - Online Predator (2019)

And my Carlisle/Bella/Garrett fic: The Chief's Daughter (2018)