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i had to leave that place
i was disgusted with myself
i killed those people
we killed those people
we ran
i ran
he has no remorse for them
the ones we killed
he knows that he must protect his own
so do i
i just don't want to hurt people
but i have to
when we landed
i vomited
i'm a leader
and i can't keep my breakfast down
the proper leader
he came to help
worry on the face
i love
we stayed
he napped
and i thought
i can't be who i was
now that i'm a leader
i have to be more like him
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that's the life we live
i have to be willing to kill
give myself to save others
accept all willing to change
and do the best i can
so as i watched him sleep
i made a promise to be more like him
a promise to everyone i know and love
especially him
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that what i would have to be
in a world as untamed as this
that's what i Will be.