Before I Let You Go Chapter 1, a fairy tail fanfic

AN: Hey all! I've been listening to this song non-stop and had to write out this story. It will either be a two-shot or three-shot, I haven't decided yet.

I hope you like it. =]

Disclaimer: I do not own the songs; Before I Let You Go - Colbie Caillat and Like Yesterday - Colbie Caillat. I also do not own Fairy Tail. :'(

It was a normal day at the guild with everyone talking loudly and the occasional chair flying overhead. Team Natsu and I had just returned from a week long job and were sitting down at our usual table. Natsu, as always, was recounting every battle that occurred, at some points he and Gray even reenacted it, although I'm sure that wasn't part of the plan. I knew they were trying to get me to join in but I was too busy looking around the guild for Gajeel. He knew I'd be returning today so I was sad to see that he wasn't here to greet me.

Although no one knew it, we had been dating for the past four months. It was his idea to keep our relationship hidden because he knew that Levy had some romantic feeling towards him and didn't want to hurt her feelings. I had told him I was against hiding it but he refused to listen to me. Levy and I had, had this discussion many times before, we knew that we both had feelings for Gajeel and had agreed that if he decided to date one of us then the other would not be upset. Even after hearing that something still held him back from telling her.

It wasn't fair. They were able to sit next to each other, talk and go on jobs together but I wasn't. I had to remain with my team, acting as if I didn't have this huge secret on my shoulders. Outside of the guild we were fine in the beginning, but after the first two months I could tell something had changed. Since we were keeping it a secret form everyone we had to either go to his house or the neighboring towns to avoid being seen. But that didn't bother me at first because Gajeel always made it into an adventure; every date was different.

Once we spent the entire day at one of his favorite spots. It was a secluded cliff overlooking a lake, it was beautiful. He had thought of everything. Food enough for the day was in his backpack, along with blankets, towels, our swimsuits and rope. When he pulled out the rope I balked and froze, he just chuckled and proceeded to make a pole that reached over the cliff and tied the rope to it. After that near panic attack, I had another one soon after when he told me to swing off of the 40 foot cliff into the water below. I refused and even tried to run away to avoid it, but unsurprisingly he had caught me quickly, encircling his arms around my waist. Scared out of my mind I grabbed on to the nearest tree and held on for dear life. He was shocked when he found he couldn't pry my arms from around it so he resorted to tickling me, I held on as long as I could before my laughter burst from me with a snort to follow. Horrified I covered my mouth hoping he hadn't heard, but by his laughter I knew he had. The next thing I know I was in his arms again being brought to the dreadful rope.

Giving me no time to prepare myself he grabbed a hold of it with the arm that wasn't holding me and took a running leap. We swung twice before he was sure we were clear of the cliff and let go. Expectantly I was screaming my head off as we fell but was silenced by Gajeel's mouth descending on mine. As he planned it shut me up, but I was too shocked to respond. Just as I was about to respond Gajeel pulled away from me and pushed me away from him with a laugh right before we hit the water.

That had been our first kiss.

I tried to remember that day every time I questioned our relationship, but it had stopped working lately. Instead of the guild being a place of peace for me it had become torture, to the point where I began avoiding it all together.

This morning when we were on the train home I had come to the conclusion, with the help of my spirits that I had to let Gajeel go. No matter how much I cared for him and wanted to be with him this daily torture wasn't right. It was as if Gajeel couldn't choose between the two of us, as if I wasn't enough for him and it was killing me.

Seeing the guild doors open from the corner of my eye I turned towards it to watch as Levy, Jet, Droy and Gajeel entered the building. I saw the object of my desires glance my way but all he did was nod before he went back to talking to his companions. Being so easily dismissed after a week away from him only strengthened my resolve, I can't deal with this anymore.

"Lucy! Where are you going?" Natsu yelled before he got distracted by Gray's fist. Ignoring everyone and their questions about why I was leaving after only being there for a few minutes, I slammed through the doors and took a deep breath of the fresh night air. Releasing it I started walking towards what had become my solace these past two months.

"Hime are you alright?" Virgo said as she fell into step beside me.

"I'm tired Virgo. How long have Gajeel and I been together? You would think after four months he'd want to tell everyone or at least stop letting Levy cling to him and control him. It's ridiculous really when she started going out with Jet I thought this would stop; he keeps telling me things will change but they never do. Every time we're at the guild I have to watch him with her, I can't take it anymore." I said barely holding back the tears that were building up.

I hadn't even realized we had stopped walking until Virgo took me into her arms to comfort me. We stood there for only a couple of minutes but her soothing words did their magic and I was able to pull myself together. It had been awhile since I was able to talk freely about the situation. I was truly blessed to have such great spirits, they had been my rocks these past months.

Wiping off the last remnants of my tearful breakdown I gave her a hug and started walking again. We didn't speak as we headed to the edge of town, just having her here was enough for me and she knew that. Once we got to my destination I turned to her and gave her another hug, this time I was able to refrain from getting her shoulder wet. "You can go back now Virgo, thanks for everything" my words were mumbled by her shoulder.

Before she spoke I felt her arms tighten around me as if she didn't' want to leave me alone but she knew me well enough to know that if she stayed I'd break down again and I didn't want that. Looking up at her face I saw her give me a little smile before she backed away. "If you're sure Hime, I'll be just a call away." She said as she bowed before she disappeared.

As I entered 'Jack's Bar and Lounge' I felt all of my troubles wash away like they always did when I came here.

I had found this place on a day similar to this when I had been upset by Gajeel and Levy. It had been surprisingly devoid of people for a Friday night. The only person who had been there was the bar tender and owner, Jack, who looked shocked to see someone in his bar. I had made a beeline to the closest stool and ordered his strongest drink. One drink led to another and I wound up telling him all of my life story and all of my relationship problems. When I had stopped talking my head had met the counter and almost immediately I had started crying on it with him reaching over to awkwardly pat my back.

By some miracle I had been able to stumble home and pass out to live another day. When I had woken up my head felt like Taurus was repeatedly hitting my skull with his axe. It took me double the time it usually took to get ready because I was hindered by my nausea and headache. When I was finally presentable I decided that it would be in my best interest to not go to the guild. Having nowhere else to go I made my way to the bar I vaguely remembered, surprised to see that Jack was the only person there again.

The first thing I noticed besides Jack was the most beautiful dark brown grand piano hidden at the corner of the stage. As if my feet had a mind of its own I went to it and admired it, running my hand over the keys and bench. "Do you mind?" I said nodding towards the piano.

"Go ahead, my wife was the only one to use it and she hasn't been around for some time."

I remember like yesterday I
Carried a heart without hope
Had given up on mystery I
Only saw mirrors and smoke
Thought I was fine alone
That's just because I didn't know

I remember like yesterday
Lovin you seemed far away
We were friends in different places
Then love began leavin traces
Sitting with u on a crowded bus
It seemed like just the 2 of us
That night everything was changed

Within moments I had gotten lost in the music playing song after song while singing along. After five songs I felt how parched my mouth was and stopped. When I had looked up I was surprised to see the place half full with Jack running around from one end of the bar to the next. Standing up I felt myself blushing as I heard all of them clapping. Doing an awkward bow and little wave I hurried off of the stage to an empty bar stool, where I hid my face in my arms as I leaned down.

"Hey Lucy, can I speak with you in the office?" Nodding in response to Jack I slowly stood up and followed him to the back. Great he's probably upset…

"I'm sorry –"

"Sorry? For what, bringing in the most people I have seen since my wife left me?! No I brought you back here because I wanted to thank you and ask if you'd be willing to play here regularly."

After that day I had been coming here anytime I wasn't on a mission. It was hard at first slipping away from the guild but I learned to time it with Natsu's fights. "Hey Lucy you I thought you weren't going to be in tonight. Don't you want to rest after your mission?"

Walking up to the stage I started arranging things the way I liked and unpacked my music preparing for the night ahead. "We got back this morning… I hadn't planned on coming in but I just needed to get away, you know? I have some new stuff I've been working on that I finally finished. I was going to play it tonight if that's alright with you; I think you'll like it."

"You know I love anything you play. Since our agreement I've had so much more business that I feel like I should be paying you for your performances. That way when the big wigs come asking for you, you won't leave me quite as fast." Although he said it with a laugh I could tell that he actually thought I'd leave and never come back. Hoping down from the platform I walked up to him and placed my hands on his shoulders, making sure I had his full attention.

"You've been nothing but kind to me. Not only do you let me borrow your piano to practice but when I'm low on rent because of my team you always let me balance your books to earn some extra cash. I'm fine with our agreement and don't plan on changing it anytime soon. Plus all the big wigs live outside of Magnolia, I couldn't leave my family and friends at Fairy Tail. I definitely couldn't leave you either, imagine what your books would look like if I did." At that we both laughed remembering how chaotic his office and books had been before we had come to the agreement. "Now are you gonna just stand there and think about the what ifs or are you gonna prepare the bar for another full house?"

Within an hour of my arrival people started pouring in to order drinks and get a table for the show. Two months ago all of these people would have made me nervous instead of excited. Shaking my head at the thought I looked at Jack and nodded to tell him I was ready.

Looking back at the audience I sat down at the piano and began playing, putting everything I had into it.

Boy I see you lookin' over
You keep on looking back at what you knew
When will you come closer
Closer to the one that's good for you

Cause you're still goin' back to that life
And I refuse to stand on the side
By sparing her from heartache
Don't you know you end up hurting me

I see your head spinning right around
She makes you fall hard and hit the ground
When you ever gonna let her go
I see the way that she breaks you so
All I'm asking is for you please
To take control and be set free
Make the space so we can grow
Save us before I let you go

So you say this will get better
Better for you, her, or me?
Well I don't know what to tell ya
It's not my fault that I don't believe

Cause you're still so stuck in that life
And I refuse to stay on this ride
Cause we're goin' round in circles
Aren't you tired of never having peace

I have been waiting
For you to change this
But it has taken too long
So I can't keep waiting
I've got to change this
It's hard for me to have to be so strong

Oh baby I, baby I, baby I, baby I
Don't wanna let you go
I don't wanna let you go
Save us before I let you go

Oh baby I, baby I, baby I, baby I
Don't wanna let you go
I don't wanna let you go
Oh no, oh no
No I don't ever wanna let you go...

As the last cords drifted off I heard everyone clap. Smiling I looked into the crowd. Instantly my smile disappeared when I saw everyone who had been at the guild in the doorway with Natsu in front. Looking at movement to his right I watched as Gajeel walked to the front with a torn look on his face, Levy not too far behind him. When I saw her I turned back to Gajeel and shook my head. Without looking back I left the stage and locked myself in the office. In the distance I could hear Jack telling everyone that, that was it for the night. Sliding down the door I listened as my guild became the new entertainment. Erza, Gray and Mira were yelling something at Gajeel as his growl got closer to the door.

"Bunny let me in." He said in a gentled voice, almost tempting me to do just that. But I heard "Lu-chan?" right after, just as close to the door as Gajeel's voice had been.

"Leave me alone. If you even think about breaking down this door or breaking anything else in the bar I will summon Aquarius to sweep you all away." Hearing protests I yelled "LEAVE!"

Everyone must have heard something in my voice because I could hear as Mira shooed everyone away. "If you need anything Lucy you know where I'll be." She said before she left.

Too tired to respond, let alone move from my spot on the ground, I let myself drift off to sleep, completely unaware of two figures slipping through the window across from me.