Yah! Elie here!

I'm currently rewriting PILL:KHR so don't expect any update on that for a while...

Anyways...

Lately I was reading 'The Reborn Sky' by UmiNight Angel Neko and I was inspired to write this so happy reading guys...

Disclaimer: Don't own a thing...

Warning: Self-insert! FemTsuna! probably (reads: most definitely) out of character... Irregular update...

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By: Elie

Target 00: Monochrome World

"Look at her! So looks just like you!" She woke up, hearing a masculine voice exclaim. She slowly opened her eyes and the light immediately burns her sight. She quickly close her eyes as she turns to the warmth that gently held her. She snuggles deeper to the warmth, trying to ease the discomfort of her sight.

"Aw~! She's shy..." The man exclaimed again as she felt a finger caress her cheek. "Nana... what should we name her?"

She was confused.

Name? She already had a name. She was Elie Anne Reyes. A 26 years old office worker. An adult stuck in a monochromatic life.

She was Elie the internet novelist.

Elie the 'Anime-freak' as her peer so lovingly dubbed her.

"Hmmm... Tsunayuki... Her name will be Sawada Tsunayuki..."

Elie was just a normal girl. A normal out-casted girl who was forced to go along with the flow of the world.

But if anything she was dreamer. A child who saw the wonder the world could offer, she grew with a smile as she lived with confidence and belief that everything was possible. A child that seen a rainbow-filled world.

At a very young age she had knew the importance of friendships and bonds, thus it was obvious that she became everyone's friend. She had accepted and befriended everyone regardless of their flaws and faults. Nobody was perfect and everyone had their own flaws that's why she knew everyone deserve the chance to be accepted.

But life was never fair and it was unnecessarily cruel. That's how life was and will always be.

Time passed and the friendships she built upon acceptance and trust were easily swayed by other's opinion as a rumor born from jealousy, led her so called friends to turn their backs on her. She was criticized, labeled and out-casted. She was blamed and framed for many things she never did but her objections fell in deaf's ear. By the time she graduated from grade school, her so numerous friendships dwindled to a single digit.

But still she held on, moving forward with an ever present smile in her face as she continued to face the day with endless optimism. Still She couldn't help the bitter-cynical thought that was slowly growing in the back of her mind as she notice that she 'smile' was heavier to wear.

Middle school was the catalyst of it all. Her 'friends' vanished into thin air as everyone begun to bully her. At the best they had begun to ignore her, acting as if she never existed as the adult belittle for being a dreamer. She was left alone, isolated and abused. Her bitter-cynical thoughts screamed louder in her head but despite that she still held on. She still had her family.

High school was the last straw. Her family was going through some financial crisis that soon turned all of them, excluding her, against one another. She took several part-time jobs just to help out and all her earning were used for their daily necessities. She may have been bullied in school, tired from work, and sleepless from her homework but it was alright. She can keep her family together.

That was until the day of her graduation, her parent was tired from work yet they insisted to drive her to her graduation and be there to watch her as she was called to be the top of her year. Unfortunately, they never made it. Her parents fell victim to their own fatigue and they had been caught in a car crash. She woke up a week later in the hospital only to know that her parents died soon after being brought to the hospital and her brothers hated her for being the cause of their deaths. She been left in the care of her grandparents who was also taking care of her baby cousin.

Since then she been cold to others, only showing emotion to her grandparents and baby cousin. She grew her bangs letting it cover her eyes, she could no longer bear to look at how colorless the world became. She would often wear her headphones, listening to countless of songs to drown out the crowd. She became silent and withdrawn, only speaking when needed.

Her only solace was the internet, in which she found her object of obsession. She became addicted in Anime/Manga to the point of becoming an unhealthy obsessions. Her college peers believe that she couldn't differentiate reality from fictions, that she was too much of a child. She was accused of never having suffered. That she was a well sheltered girl who never lived in the real world.

Those words hurt her more than all the insult pointed at her. To accuse her of never suffering was worse than calling her a degrading name.

After seven years with her grandparents, she was once again facing threat of losing someone she cared for. Her grandfather have fallen ill and had been bed-ridden since six months ago. The doctor had confessed that there was no longer anything to do but wait for death and with that her grandmother had fallen to depression while her dearest cousin had withdrawn herself from the family thus she was left to take care of her dying grandfather. She kept up her smile despite it feeling heavier than before as she pretended that everything will be alright. That it will all pass.

But it didn't.

One night, she was sitting beside the bed of her grandfather's bed, telling him false cheerful story of her daily life. Every thing was going smoothly, that is until her grandfather struggled to lift his hand. Her grandfather caught her one of her hand, causing her to stop her storytelling as her hands was guided to her lap.

"Thank you, child."

Those were the last words her grandfather said as the last breath came following. The hand that held her hands fell limp as she bit back a sob, her hand trembling as millions of words forming a lump in her throat. She wanted to scream, to yell, to question the gods or whoever almighty was up there but she can't because she knew. She knew so painfully well from all her past experience. That, just like her objections, her prayers are just words falling in deaf's ear.

After that everything went in a blur. There was nothing else left to keep her grounded as her relationship with her cousin and grandmother became nothing more than strangers living under the same roof.

So here she was, standing on top of a chair with a noose around her neck. She was tired, weary and ready to give up. She took a deep breath, desperately trying to convince herself otherwise.

But alas, there was nothing left.

Her once colorful world is nothing but a broken monochrome world. Not even her obsession can't stop her from hanging herself.

And with that she jump down.

She was Elie, and still is but as sleep begun to claim her, she wasn't so sure any more.

So yeah that took care of my past...

Fun facts: most of that is true, except from the people dying part. My parents are still alive they're just in different countries while me and my brother aren't really in the best term we don't really hate each other. My grandpa is really sick and possibly dying, and my cousin, Amber Sky is depressed and is actually locking herself to her room, Amber loved my grandpa so much so it's not really surprising that she'd be taking this harder than most of us... so yeah... Hard times...