Chapter One

The fight against the mountain men is over, and yet my struggle has just begun. Lexa leaving us hit me harder than I could have ever have imagined, it was as though she had drove her blade through my chest and into my heart. As I stood in front of her, begging her not to leave I broke, I knew that after this day I would never be the same. It hurt more than Finn, and that is what affected me the most, the fact that I knew there and then that I had grown to love this woman. Even though I didn't want to admit it, she had made me love her only to then betray me and leave me for dead.

I hated her not only for the love I now harboured for her, but for the actions that she forced me to take in order for my people to survive. The lives I took tonight will haunt me for the rest of my life, along with the fractured faces of their loved ones that I will have to look upon everyday.

As I walk out of the mountain with my head hung in defeat I suddenly feel the extreme weight of the world on my shoulders. Falling to my knees I bury my face in my hands and weep into them "Clarke," a soothing voice whispers into my ear, and I listen as they struggle to kneel next to me "it's OK, it's over now" they take a deep breath before releasing it shakily.

Frowning through the tears I raise my head slightly to see my mother beside me. My eyes immediately follow hers as she looks down at something "Mom," I sob when I see her hand, slick with blood clutching at her stomach.

"Clarke," she gasps, her lips slowly spreading into a smile before she collapses to the muddy ground "you did it, you saved us" she whispers in awe as she gazes up at me.

"Let me go get help," I say, suddenly coming back to my senses I look around to see that there are many people huddled over others, rushing around in the chaos as they try to help anyone they can.

"No, my time has come Clarke. I know that I will not make it through this"

"Mom please," I beg as I make to stand up, but her hand shoots from her stomach and lands on my arm, keeping me there in a vice like grip. Another sob racks my body as my own hands quickly move to cover where hers had just been. The sight of her blood seeping through my fingers makes me lose all hope "I cant lose you too" I cry "please don't leave me, everyone leaves me"

"You are strong Clarke…I k-knew the day you were born that you would do great things…a-and you d-did…you brought us h-home" she chokes on her words and I watch helplessly as the tears begin to spill from her eyes "I am so p-proud of you" she stutters, her breathing becoming more laboured with each passing second.

"I forgive you," I mumble as I wipe the blood that's slowly trickled from the side of her mouth "for what happened with dad" I elaborate as she looks up at me puzzled, at my words her grip on me tightens even more and she nods slowly.

"Thank you," she whispers as she looks up at the clear night's sky. I glance up as well and watch as the stars twinkle beautifully.

"We always said we would stargaze if we ever made it to earth" at my words my mother laughs gently, and I close my eyes and listen.

"Better l-late t-than never"

"Yeah" I say, looking back down at the woman that has raised me, loved me and stood by me my entire life "may we meet again" I cry as I lean down and kiss her forehead.

"May w-we meet a-again" she speaks her last words before her hand falls from my arm and her eyes become still. I do not hear myself, but I know in that moment that I am screaming as I shake my mothers shoulder. With tears streaming down my face I wrap my arms around her and cradle her lifeless form to me.

How long I sit there with my mother I do not know, I'm not aware of anything around me expect for the feeling of her in my arms. No sounds penetrate the screaming voice in my head. My father, Finn, Lexa and now my mother have all been taken from me, I have no one and no one has me.

"CLARKE" a voice yells somewhere in the distance. Blinking back the tears I look around only to see the same hectic scene I did earlier, except now people seem to be running, running towards me.

"CLARKE" another voice screams and this time I recognise it as Bellamy's. I search the space in front of me for him and when my eyes land on his sprinting form he raises a hand and points to something behind me.

Frowning I turn my head, squinting as a looming figure approaches me from the entrance of the mountain. He stumbles towards me, his own hand outstretched in front of him "Cage," I whisper in horror.

The next few second pass by in a blur, I hear but do not see the spear that rushes through the air and towards Cage. I see but do feel the bullet Cage sends speeding towards me, but as I hit the ground its almost like someone pushed a button and all my senses come flooding back to me.

I can feel the blood rushing down the side of my head, the sound of people shouting my name becomes clearer. Soon enough Octavia is above me and her hand is pressed firmly against my wound "It's just a graze" she urges as more people begin to surround me.

"Lexa" I whisper as my eyes become heavy "Tell her..."

"Tell her what Clarke?" I somewhat feel someone shaking my shoulder.

"That it's not her fault"

"CLARKE" I hear but then everything goes black.

A/N: So I really would like to know if you guys think I should continue with this idea?