Dear Diary,

I'm really sorry that I haven't written to you in a long time. Things have just been really stressful with the Gems lately. Pearl has been having panic attacks lately because of the fact that my birthday is coming up.. which is also when Mom died.. You know, no one really likes to talk about Mom's death. I guess they just don't want to make me sad or whatever. But why would I be sad..? I mean yeah, I'm pretty bummed out that I didn't get to meet her.. But Dad tells me ALL the stories about them and their little love life, and that's pretty cool right? The Gems really miss her a lot and so does Dad.. Man, one day I wish I could be as awesome as my mom! I wish she could be here today.. then no one would be sad.. Diary, why did I have to be born? My mom was so awesome and me? I'm NOTHING compared to her! I haven't fully mastered my skills yet and who knows if I ever will! I hate myself... Why can't I just disa-

"Steven, are you alright?" Garnet questioned as she walked into the room.

"Oh.. u-uh.." Steven stuttered as he quickly slid his diary under a pillow, forcing a smile on his face, "y-yeah I'm fine."

"Then why are you crying?"

"Oh, well.. I was just thinking about how lucky I am to have such great friends like you, Pearl, and Amethyst! It just makes me so happy that I let out happy tears! I love you guys," he said, wiping the tears from his rosy cheeks.

"Hmm.. Well we love you too Steven." Garnet smiled, but still looked a bit concerned, "Anyway, the Gems and I were going to just go for a walk around the town and Amethyst wanted to know if you'd like to come with us."

" Uhm.. Sure! Just wait outside for me and I'll be there in a little bit."

" Alright." Garnet said and left the room. Steven sighed and took a deep breath.

Sorry Diary, Garnet walked in.. Phew! That was a close one.. Well I'll get back to you later, the Gems asked me if I wanted to go on a walk with them and they're waiting for me. So, I better get going!

Love,

Steven Universe