I Hate Myself for Loving You

Chapter 1: Heart and Pride Taken Away

Hello, FanFiction readers. I have a new flavor of Danny Phantom for you to try. I decided to try a pairing that I feel deserves more attention. Danny and Kitty. Why have I chosen to write one? Well, my first reason would be that you the fans voted for this. My second reason... I'll share with you soon. Besides my usual warning for my M rated stories, I would like to caution you on the darker tone this has compared to my previous stories. Also, for those fans of Sam that are still here despite my pairing, you may not like what I have done to her. Now that the formalities are out of the way, I do not own Danny Phantom, the cover picture, or the song "I Hate Myself for Loving You" by Joan Jett & The Blackhearts. R&R and Enjoy.

***Bar in the Ghost Zone, 7:30 PM***

Midnight, gettin' uptight, where are you?

You said you'd meet me, now it's quarter to two

I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you

Hey Jack, it's a fact they're talkin' in town

Those were the words coming from the radio in the bar as Kitty continued to sip on her strawberry daiquiri. A scowl was clear on her face as she brought the glass to her lips for another sip.

"What a surprise. He forgot our anniversary." she muttered before setting the glass down. The bartender gave her a sympathetic look as he continued to clean the bar top. She sighed before she began to rub her temples to ease the headache she was developing.

'Should have known not to trust him anymore after I caught him looking at some floozy the last time.' Kitty thought. 'Hell, I probably should have stuck with Danny instead of going back to him. At least Danny and I got along during the short time we had together.'

I turn my back and you're messin' around

I'm not really jealous, don't like lookin' like a clown

I think of you ev'ry night and day

You took my heart then you took my pride away

Kitty began to seriously think about her relationship with Johnny in the past few months. First was their initial escape attempt from the Ghost Zone. Johnny had made it but she had been trapped. To find a way to bring herself into the human realm instead of going back to the Zone, she had given Johnny some of the gifts he had given her when they were still alive. Her jacket, one of the first gifts he had given her when they had started to date. Her scarf, from their first motorcycle ride through the countryside and she had been getting cold. Finally, the promise ring he had given her when had professed his love for her and he had claimed her virginity. These she gave to him and asked him to give to a mortal girl so she could possess them and come to the human realm.

In retrospect, she realized she could have simply asked him to possess another human so he could unlock the Ghost Portal and allowed her access to the human realm. Another thing that bothered her now was weather Johnny really wanted to bring her back or to simply have her possess the body that he chose. At the time, she wasn't concerned about who he picked but now she questioned his choice.

Next was the time she had left him when his eyes were roaming on some random human chick in the park. When she had called him out on it, he fervently denied it. He said, "I only have eyes for you, babe." But not even five minutes later, his eyes were glued to her ass again. This time, she smacked him upside the head before flying away from him. Deciding to spite Johnny, Kitty decided to possess Paulina and date the one person that would anger Johnny the most, Danny. In the beginning, it was strange going out with Danny, having to pretend to be someone she wasn't and dating the enemy of her friends. But as the days went by, she grew to enjoy his company, both as Phantom and as Fenton. When it finally came to an end and she went back to Johnny, she was genuinely disappointed. She wasn't mad at Danny for tricking her back to Johnny. He thought he was doing the right thing. It was Johnny who was to blame. He had come up with a sob story and begged Danny to help him get her back.

I hate myself for loving you

Can't break free from the things that you do

I wanna walk but I run back to you

That's why I hate myself for loving you

Ever since then, Johnny began to flirt more often and in front of her. Kitty tried calling him out on it but her brushed her off. She had banished him several times, occasionally nearing the point of no return and then bringing him back. During those moments he would come back crying, swearing he would never flirt with any woman again. They would subsequently make up and they would be happy for a week or two until the vicious circle began again.

Sighing, Kitty finished the rest of her daiquiri before taking off her promise ring and looking it over. A small smile came to her face when she remembered the way in which he had given it to her. He had taken her out on a picnic in a large, open field. After eating, he had taken out the ring from his pocket and slid it on her finger, saying that he would only love her. After she had recovered from the initial shock, she flung herself towards him and returned his feelings. Soon after, they had made love, Kitty's first time. Admittedly, Johnny had been fairly rough and it had hurt. Still, she enjoyed it all the same and relished the fact that he loved her.

I think of you ev'ry night and day

You took my heart and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you

Can't break free from the things that you do

I wanna walk but I run back to you

That's why I hate myself for loving you

As she continued her journey down memory lane, Kitty the ring over so she could see the inside of the band. What she saw caused her jaw to drop and make her ectoplasmic blood boil. Inside the ring was an inscription, one she had never noticed because she had never taken the ring off, minus the time she had given it to Johnny. Inscribed was a name.

Michelle

"What kind of sick, twisted joke is this?" Kitty growled as she removed her scarf to look at the tag. On it was written another name.

Zoe

Her eyes were now glowing with rage as she removed her jacket to see if it to belonged to someone else.

Ashley

Kitty's anger peaked as she let out a feral scream, frightening several patrons of the bar and the bartender. After she finished, Kitty took off out of the bar, flying as fast as she could to the Ghost Portal. Her once treasured gifts were now beginning to smoke in her hand.

"When I find you, Johnny, you are going to beg me to banish you." Kitty snarled as she zoomed through the Ghost Portal and began to look for her now ex-boyfriend.

***Meanwhile***

November. The time of year when what little green on the Earth that survived fall would eventually die as winter came. The trees were nearly barren, save a few straggling red and brown leaves. The once green grass, now a sickly yellow and covered in leaves. The residents of Amity were going about their business, bundled in thick coats and jeans to protect themselves from the cold. The one exception to this seemed to be a teenage boy with messy black hair, a white T-shirt, and faded blue jeans.

As he walked down the street to his best friend's mansion, Danny Fenton was feeling like he was on Cloud Nine. Top of the world. Like a million bucks. Any phrase that would describe a good mood, that was what Danny was feeling. A broad smile was on his face, a bouquet of roses in his right hand, and a heart-shaped box of chocolates in his left.

The normal passerby would wonder which lucky lady Danny was trying to woo with his gifts. That girl just so happened to be Samantha Manson, one of his best friends and, if things worked out the way he had planned, his future girlfriend.

Were any of his family or his other close friend, Tucker, to see Danny now, they might exclaim that it was about time Danny stopped being clueless. To his defense, Danny didn't see the visual and verbal clues because he had several things on his mind when they were presented. A little difficult to see that your friend is flirting with you when you are fighting ghost, trying to maintain grades in school, and escape detection from your parents.

Now, however, all that was in the past. Now, Danny was ready to take a leap of faith to make Sam his girlfriend. What better way to show his new found affection for her than a surprise visit, bearing gifts?

Unnoticed by the love drunk teenager, as he made his way up the path towards the front door to Sam's mansion, was the black motorcycle with an ecto green 13 painted on the gas tank parked across the street.

Meanwhile, an angry Kitty was zooming through the streets of Amity, trying to find the bastard that used to be her boyfriend. He wasn't at any of the biker bars, he wasn't flirting with human girls at the park, and he wasn't in any of the back alleys, receiving head or getting a quickie from the few promiscuous women around the town. With no leads to his current whereabouts, she was hoping to catch a glimpse of either him or his motorcycle.

"No good, two timing, ass hole." she hissed. When she finally found him, she would force him to tell her the truth about the other women and their relationship. Then she would beat the shit out of him, make him beg her to banish him for good. But she would refuse. If banishing him had not worked before, there was no reason to try it again. He would suffer his punishment before he succumbed to his slow and painful demise.

Before she dwelled anymore on the ass beating she would be giving Johnny, she finally spotted his motorcycle. Unusual that he would be anywhere near the more classy part of Amity, she thought. When she looked around to see why he would be here, her eyes rested on the Manson mansion. Anger welled up inside of her. The goth chick. Johnny was now seeing the goth chick. Was there no low that he would stoop to? Was he that horny that he would fuck one of his enemies?

Growling, Kitty flew up to the girl's window to break up their little fun session. She still clutched at her former boyfriend's gifts but now there were evident burn marks. Where she gripped the jacket, the once red leather was now black and charred. The purple scarf had glowing embers clinging to it. The gold ring was now covered in soot and ash.

Going invisible, she phased through the window and took in the sight before her. The goth girl's room was black with purple accents. Various grunge and metal band posters covered the walls. An ebony wood desk sat in the corner of the room while a large bookcase stood next to it. Finally, there was the bed. A queen size with black and purple sheets strewn across it. On the bed itself was the bastard she had been looking for. Currently, Johnny 13 was completely naked, sweat glistening all over his body and a cocky smile on his face as he plowed Samantha Manson from behind. She was in the doggy position, ass in the air while her forearms were planted on the mattress. She was also naked, her C cup breasts jiggling after each thrust from Johnny. Her black mascara was streaming down her face while moans of satisfaction escaped her lips.

"Oh God, yes! Keep going!" she said.

"You got it, babe." Johnny replied, picking up his pace.

Kitty was outraged. So this is how their relationship would end? He stands her up on the day of their anniversary so he could fuck the goth chick? Well, Kitty was going to make sure she had the last laugh when she wiped the floor with...

But at that moment, the unexpected happened. She gasped as Danny Fenton walked into the room, carrying a bouquet of roses and a heart-shaped box of chocolates. Were the situation any different, Kitty would think it one of the most romantic things she had ever seen the Ghost Child do. Unfortunately for him, his timing couldn't have been any worse.

"Hey Sam. I stopped by to..." the teenager began before he took in the sight before him. The smile that once graced his face vanished as a look of surprise and despair replaced it. The beautiful bouquet slipped out of his hands, soon followed by the box of chocolates. Rose petals lazily floated to the ground while the heart-shaped box of chocolates split in two, spilling its sweet contents across the floor.

"Sam... What?" Danny stammered, unable to comprehend what he was seeing.

The two on the bed stopped their activities to look at the intruder. Sam looked annoyed and frustrated at Danny while a cruel and sadistic smile graced Johnny's face. The ghostly biker snapped his fingers.

"Shadow, hold him." he commanded.

In a flash, Johnny's Bad Luck Shadow sprang up from behind him and captured Danny, pinning him against the wall. Danny was too stunned at the site before him to react to Shadow. As his head slammed agains the wall, his body below the neck was smothered by the creature. It felt as soft as silk yet it was as thick as sludge.

"Well, well, well. Look who decided to drop by." Johnny chuckled before pulling his still throbbing cock out of Sam and slowly made his way towards Danny. He kicked the bouquet away, scattering even more rose petals and crushed the assorted chocolates beneath his feet.

"I wouldn't try going ghost if I were you. The way Shadow has you now, he would crush your lungs before you could say your ridiculous catch phrase." he said, stopping in front of the captured boy and grinning maliciously at him.

"Sam!" Danny said, looking towards his friend. "What is going on?"

"Shouldn't it be obvious?" Sam replied. "We're having sex."

"But... but..." Danny stammered, desperately hoping this was all a cruel joke. "I was going to ask you out. I took the time to look at us for and what we have been through recently. I finally saw those subtle hints and advances."

Instead of Sam replying, there was only the cruel laughter of Johnny that responded.

"Oh, the irony. You finally realize that she was hitting on you just in time to find out she has gotten over you. On top of that, you catch your crush with somebody else." he said as his laughter finally died down. "Aint that a bitch."

Danny tried to respond, tried to counter his statement, but ended up wordlessly opening and closing his mouth.

Kitty watched it all play out, her anger slightly dissipating as a something new bubbled up inside her. Sympathy. Her heart went out to Danny as she saw his heart being broken by the friend he wanted to be his girlfriend and one of his enemies. She wanted to comfort him, tell him it was not the end of the world, that there were other girls that would gladly take him as their boyfriend, and that she would make the cause of his pain suffer.

"Speaking of bitches, I might as well give you some company." Johnny said, before quickly spinning around and blasting the invisible Kitty in the chest. Not expecting this, she was thrown into the wall, her exposed midriff stinging from the burn she received from the ecto blast. Johnny quickly grabbed her by the throat and tossed her at the wall where Danny was being held. Shadow quickly covered her with his inky black form, leaving only her head exposed.

"Well, this is most certainly convenient for us. Now we get to kill two birds with one stone, so to speak. I was wondering when and how I should dump you but I think this will work perfectly." Johnny said, making his way towards the two.

"You cheating, son of a bitch!" Kitty yelled at him, her red eyes glowing menacingly at him. "You leave my to dry on our anniversary so you can fuck the goth chick? The girl that was crushing on your enemy?"

"You hit the nail right on the head." Sam said, speaking up for the first time since Danny had walked in. "Was crushing on him. No longer, though."

Sam gave the two captives a smirk before continuing. "Sure, I flirted with Danny. Tried catching his eye, tried drawing his attention away from the other girls, tried getting him to notice me as something more than a friend. Unfortunately, he was too stupid to realize the signals I was trying to send him. I'm a patient person but there is only so much I can take before I decide to give up."

"I noticed now, though." Danny croaked, his eyes watering as his heart slowly broke with every word she said. "I've been so busy fighting ghosts, dealing with school, and trying not to get caught by my parents that I never really thought about the signals you were giving me."

"Oh yeah? Then explain why you dated Paulina when she was possessed by Kitty?" Sam replied, glaring at him.

"It was like a dream come true." he tried to explain. "The pretty girl that I had a crush on finally noticed me and wanted to go out with me. I knew I wouldn't get another chance so I decided to take it. Even after finding out it was Kitty, I still had a fun time dating her. She liked me not only as Phantom but also as Fenton. It wasn't until Johnny came back, telling me how much he missed her and how he had made a mistake that I decided she needed to go back to him. A couple weeks after they got back together, I started to think back about us and the little interactions we have had. I realized the signals you were trying to send so I decided to talk to you about them today."

Kitty was touched by Danny's explanation. He really did enjoy the brief time they had together and only ended it because he felt it was the right thing to do. She wished she could embrace him, tell him that his heart was in the right place. Alas, before she could get a word in, Sam scoffed at Danny's response.

"Typical. Picking the Queen B of Casper High, possessed by this ghostly slut," Sam said, casually pointing a finger at Kitty, "Rather than picking the better choice of your best friend. Well, it looks like this will be a bit of a wake up call, Danny. Your best option is now gone and you are just going to have to deal with that mistake."

That was it. As soon as Sam had finished, tears slowly trickled down Danny's face.

"Sam..." he choked, trying to hold back the cracks in his voice. "I'm sorry. I didn't know. If I would have known sooner..."

"Funny things about the 'ifs' in the world, you never know the answer to most of them because they won't happen." Sam said, cutting him off.

"You are a heartless bitch." Kitty snarled, glaring daggers at the treacherous goth.

"No." Sam said, "I'm just tired of being ignored and overlooked. Thankfully, all that is over now that I have my new man."

"Ha! You really think he will remain loyal to you? The bastard will fuck any pretty face he can! Those gifts he gave me were from some of his other conquests."

Johnny began to laugh. "It took you this long to realize those gifts I gave you from other girls? Who is the stupid one now? And as for me screwing any old girls I fancy, Sammy is fine with it as long as she gets a piece of them as well."

As if to confirm his statement, Sam added, "He'll always come back to me and he knows to give me more attention than the other girl.

Kitty's cheeks flushed red. "So is that all I was to you? Just a fuck buddy? Was everything you told me when we were together, both when we were alive and in the Ghost Zone, a lie?"

"Yeah." he replied, nonchalantly, "You were basically a glorified fuck buddy. But not everything I told you was a lie. You did have a tight pussy when I popped your cherry."

Kitty snapped. She yelled and screamed, hurling every insult she knew at her former lover only for him to laugh in her face.

"Now, however, you are nothing compared to Sammy." he chuckled. "Your ass is tiny compared to her's. And those mosquito bite A cups don't stand a chance against these magnificent tits."

"I'll end you! I will have you begging me to banish you!" Kitty shrieked.

"Looks like we need to shut that foul mouth." Johnny said before walking to the bed, picking up something off it, and turning back towards the two captives. In his hand he held what looked like a purpled thong. It was completely soaked with both Johnny's cum and Sam's vaginal fluids, droplets falling on the floor. He casually walked over to Kitty.

"Open wide." he commanded, a sinister smile on his lips. She refused to open up but was shocked when Shadow's tiny tendrils forced themselves into her mouth and forced it open. Johnny shoved the soiled lingerie into her mouth before Shadow forced it closed again.

"Enjoy the taste, Kitty. It will be the last time you ever have it." Johnny chuckled before returning to the bed. "How about we put on a little show for our guests before we kick them out?"

To answer his question, Sam simply lay back on her bed and spread her legs for him, a mixture of both their fluids dripping out of her womanhood.

Johnny took her hips and slammed his hard member into her, eliciting a moan of pleasure from her lips.

As they settled into a steady pace, Danny's heart continued to break. Memories of his and Sam's time together shattering into a million pieces.

The first time they met in middle school.

Gone.

Entering high school with her and Tucker.

Gone.

Her convincing him to enter the Ghost Portal.

Gone.

The many misadventures they had shared as he fought his ghostly enemies.

Gone.

Every happy memory he had of Sam was being replaced by the scene before him.

"Harder, Johnny! Harder!" Sam pleaded.

Johnny picked up the tempo, their love claps growing louder as they neared their climax.

Kitty looked on in anger. Nothing had gone as she had planned. She caught Johnny together with the goth. Danny walks in and gets his heart broken, Johnny blows off her insults, and now he is screwing his new girlfriend in front of her. It didn't help that she had to taste his cum off the panties shoved in her mouth. Turning her head, she took in the look of despair on Danny's face as tears streamed down his cheeks.

"I'm almost there, Sammy!" Johnny exclaimed.

"Wait!" Sam said before pulling him out of her and taking his penis in her mouth. She continued to orally stimulate him until he finally came, taking all his load into her mouth. She then got off the bed and walked towards Danny, her cheeks still bulging from the seed in her mouth. He looked back at her, wanting her to have a change in heart and be his. Instead, she spat the seed into his face, covering him in the sticky mixture. Long, pale strands of cum dripped from his hair while his tears mixed with the rest.

If Kitty had use of her arms, she would have bitch slapped the girl for doing that to Danny. She wasn't satisfied by crushing his hopes with her and screwing Johnny in front of him, she had to throw salt on his already gaping wound by spitting cum on his face. Danny did nothing but hang his head, allowing the seed and tears to drip off his face.

"Well, now that we are done, I'll take this trash out. See you later, Sammy." Johnny said as he pulled his clothes on and kissed the still naked Sam. "Shadow, keep holding them and follow."

With that, Johnny and his Shadow went intangible and flew towards his bike. He gunned the motor and sped towards the now empty park. Parking his bike, he walked a couple of steps before stopping by a large puddle of mud.

"Well, kiddos, it sure has been fun." Johnny chuckled, "Can't say I'm going to miss you Kitty. Now that I have Sam and she is willing to share with any other girl I bring, there really is no point in coming back to you. As for you, Phantom. Thanks for neglecting her and consider this payback for the times you kicked my ass."

He walked back to his motorcycle and started the engine.

"Dump them." he said.

Doing as commanded, Shadow tossed the two into the puddle. With a thick splash, they landed and were soon covered head to foot in the gooey muck. Before Kitty could get up and banish her ex, he and his Shadow had vanished back into the Ghost Zone via Johnny's personal Portal Generator.

"Damn it!" Kitty hissed as she got to her feet and went intangible, allowing the mud to fall off her. "Fucker got away."

Before she could contemplate on what to do now, she turned back to look at Danny. He had barely moved from his position in the puddle, simply turning over to lie on his back. Like her, he had been completely covered in the muck. The only difference was that there were two clean line of skin on either sides of his face, showing the paths his still flowing tears had taken.

"Oh, Danny." Kitty said as she helped him to his feet before making the two of them intangible, allowing the mud to fall off him as well.

"There. Now you aren't dirty anymore." she said, trying to give him a reassuring smile.

"I guess." he croaked.

"Danny..." Kitty said, trying to find the words to make him feel better. To cheer him up after this experience.

"I'm sorry you had to deal with that, Kitty." he said.

"I'll be fine Danny. I'm more..." she started to say before Danny cut her off again.

"I'll see you around." he mumbled before slowly walking back towards his house.

Kitty wanted to stop him. To tell him something, anything to make him feel better. Yet nothing came to mind. Disappointed that she didn't know how to help the heartbroken boy, she watched as he walked the lonely road back to his house.