Liam's Notebook

August 19th,

It is summer and Scott has graduated. We went to celebrate with his mom a couple of weeks ago. And exactly today, Scott and I have been officially together for six months. Time has quite literally flown by and I can't believe it's over half a year ago when I was last depressed. Well…really depressed. I have still had some sad moments. Just last night, even, Scott spent the night for the first time – Mom and dad finally let him. Their worry has worn off a little. Anyway, I woke up some time in the night and couldn't go back to sleep. I started overthinking again and, somehow, Scott noticed. He woke up and without saying anything just turned around and held me. His hugs are always so warm. His arms literally wrap all the way around me. He was rubbing his thumbs on my hands and on my wrist, which I suppose doesn't sound very special, but when you have scars there it can actually make you feel quite uncomfortable. However, that night it didn't, so I didn't move away either, and right when I realized that Scott hugged me a little tighter. I swear he can read my mind. He's so perfect; really knows exactly what to do. I feel incredibly lucky.

Ms. Morrell says that, eventually over time, it will get better and I will have those random sad moments less and less frequently. To be honest, I'm not sure if she's right. I mean, I want to believe her, obviously, but right now it just doesn't feel like it's ever going to be over. But still, that's okay. I have learned so many things over the past few months. Scott has taught me to open up and I can never be more grateful. I'm sure that when I have him, it won't ever get as bad again. And, hey, who knows? Maybe in another six months I feel like I'll be fine by myself as well. Baby steps.

Things with my parents are still a bit awkward at times. I think we need to get used to showing a little more affection to one another. Mom especially. Although, I have to praise her effort – she has been giving me a lot more hugs and kisses lately. At first it felt insincere and pitiful, but now it's actually quite nice. Love can do that to a person, I suppose. She and dad are also incredibly protective. I guess that's something that'll stay for a while. I don't blame them.

I have to wrap up. Scott is taking me swimming and he has a surprise for tonight. I can already guess what it is. He's so ridiculously romantic and predictable, I usually tease and make fun of him, but I'm pretty sure he still notices me blushing. He notices everything. I bet you, he's going to take me stargazing. He has basically made it his life goal to remind me of all our fun moments. That's probably why we also still hold pinkies. He's so insanely sweet, I don't know how I deal with it. He makes me feel small and safe and content. It's like he has made me lose my old self and found a place in my mind. I guess Scott is just…

Scott is my universe.

P.S. Guess who is starting as Beacon High's captain of the lacrosse team next semester?

Author's Note: I can't believe it's over! Thank you all so much for sharing this journey with me. I know it has been quite frustrating at times, especially regarding frequent updates (that weren't there), but I hope you can forgive me.

To be completely honest, I was quite lost on the ending, because chapter 26 actually felt like everything was over and done with. However, I really wanted to do a short epilogue and a scene where Liam goes to see Ms. Morrell, which is why chapter 27 is so short. All in all, a learning process for me. ;)
Anyway, again, thank you for reading, and - hopefully - till next time! 3