When they sat in the hospital after Clare had given birth to the baby they were just sitting there holding him. He was dead, but this was their son Eli didn't want to leave Clare's side she was the only one who knew how he felt. They moved their heads closer together.

''Good bye Adam Goldsworthy, there's two people in heaven I'm sure will take care of you''. Eli didn't believe in heaven this was the closest he'd ever been to hoping that it was real. When he was sixteen and first met this amazing girl he didn't know what he'd go through with her. Everything. Every horrible thing that could happen to a couple happened to them. He couldn't even list all the horrible things but this was the worst.

The pain in his chest was even worse then when he lost Julia and When he lost Adam. All the other couples would get to take their babies home. But he wouldn't. They wouldn't. Even worse there was no way for him to protect Clare from seeing this. He always tried to Protect Clare. Even when he was mentally healthy he was protective of Clare well now he had no way of doing that. When she had cancer he was able to he might have gone overboard he hadn't liked the idea of her drinking regular smoothies so he only let her drink heath smoothies. He always found a way to be sure she was safe and happy so When Clare's mother drove them to the hospital they sat in the back together.

Both of them had told their parents that they wanted to go through this with one another. They would have too if the baby lived, They felt like this whole experience was supposed to be private between them. They respected that but didn't agree, they wanted the road trip with their baby to be personal and they wanted the last moments with their son to be personal to. ''God I wish we had a sign that he's going to be alright.'' Eli murmured.

''Me too''. She said her eyes tearing up again. ''We might have other kids... but he's always going to be our first.'' Eli nodded she was his forever he knew they were going to be together forever. ''Oh Eli''. She sobbed and because she was holding the baby Eli called out to the doctor.

''Please''. Eli said wanted to hug her. ''Take him. Its time to take him.'' Clare nodded and she let him go he got into the bed with him and she was sobbing into his arms. He was crying into her hair. The three parents watching from the door the last time Helen had see one of Eli's parents was when his dad came over too ask if Clare could come away for the weekend with him. Had she knew Who Eli really was then well she would have said yes in a heartbeat. But she was hurting for her daughter and Eli whenever Clare was in trouble Eli was her second sometimes first supporter.

''Its not fair, its just not fair Eli''. She said. He had tears running down his face.

''No its not, but Clare we will have another baby I promise you one day we will have another baby. It can't replace Adam, but we'll have another child. It'll be beautiful we'll live the future we planned on the road trip. I'll give you that I promise. I meant it, I want to Marry you Clare Edwards.''

''I feel the same way Eli, I want you to have everything you ever wanted''. He kissed her forehead. ''Your so brave''.

''So are you''.

''But I didn't have to give birth to my dead son, you did. I'm so proud of you''. He hugged her close.

''I love you Eli''. She said. ''So much''. They both shut their eyes as the baby was taken away. She sat up and hugged him close. ''Everything, will be Ok.''

''Clare i'm not the one who needs to be supported.'' She nodded.

''You do, you've done it so much for me, let me do it for you''. She hugged his head close to her, just like that time in the car when he was at his worst just feeling like she could be ripped away from him any second. But now it was his son his unborn son who had been ripped away from him both he and Clare were angry how could god do this?

''Eli, its so not fair. I don't understand it, why can't we have our baby?'' Eli kissed her forehead.

''I don't know''. He replied. The doctor returned.

''You two are free to go''. She said softly. When she left Clare sat there for a second and Eli next to her.

''Come on, we should go''. He said this gently, Clare nodded and Eli began to leave so she could get dressed.

''Stay please, I can't be alone without you right now''. He just sat down on the bed reaching for her it took them ten minutes to get the courage to walk out of the hospital and be the only parents on this floor without a baby to take home on top of being the youngest. The other parents with babies about to go home turned to look at him. Eli had his arm around Clare they had both been Crying and people knew right away what had happened. They were all looking at them with sad looks. But Clare broke down she fell into Eli's arms crying her mother and Eli both hugging her.

''Well'll always be his parents''. Eli said. ''Always''. One of the other moms gave them a look.

''I lost two babies before I had my daughter''. She looked down at the baby. ''Annie will be our first and our last, it'll get better I was okay''. Clare sighed. ''I didn't have the father around when my two first babies died.'' She looked at Eli and smiled. ''Your lucky''. Clare looked at Eli.

''I am''. She said hugging him close. He kissed her.

''So am I''. With that they left the floor together hoping one day they would be back here and be able to take a child home''.