Chapter 29

"God, I've missed this," Cece murmured, moving her lips over Alison's skin, "Your touch, your smell, the tiny little goosebumps that crawl over you…"

Alison grinned and flipped their positions, so she hovered over her girlfriend.

"And I've missed your sex voice," Alison chuckled, "You're such a seductress."

"Mm," Cece smirked, running a hand through Ali's hair, "You never had a chance," she murmured.

Alison laughed, "Never," she agreed.

"Neither did I," Cece quickly flipped their positions again and pinned Alison to the bed, "You're so fucking hot," she licked her lips.

Alison giggled, "You are so turned on," she teased, "You have that look in your eye."

Cece bit her lip, "Shut up," she mumbled, "What look?"

"Hm, like a wolf," Alison decided, "Like you're wanna eat me all up!"

Cece tilted her head, "Well… now that you mention it…"

She begun sucking on Alison's neck as one of her hands expertly unbuttoned her girlfriends' jeans.

"This okay?" she murmured.

"More than," Alison breathed, "I love you, Ce."

Cece pulled her lips from Alison's skin, "I love you so much," she whispered, "And you're right by the way," she grinned, "I'm totally turned on."

Alison laughed as Cece began nibbling on her neck again. She leant her head back and ran her fingers through her girlfriends' hair. She pulled her blouse over her head and Cece's mouth moved to Alison's stomach. She kissed it softly before lashing her tongue out against it.

"Mm, Ce," Alison moaned, her fingers curling in her girlfriends' hair.

Cece smiled at the sound of her girlfriends' moans. She finally pushed Alison's jeans down her legs. Alison helped, pushing them off with her feet and kicking them away. Cece ran her fingers over her girlfriends' bare legs, letting out a quiet moan.

Alison giggled, watching Cece's transfixed stare.

Cece snapped to attention, smiling sheepishly, "I've missed these too," she squeezed Alison's thigh.

Alison smirked, "I can tell," she teased gently.

Cece laughed and hooked her thumbs into Alison's underwear, eyes gleaming as she exposed her girlfriend. Wasting no time, she ran her mouth over the insides of Alison's thighs. She quickly made her way to her target after nipping Alison's skin gently. She moaned as her mouth made contact and heard Alison do the same above her. Her tongue made its way through Alison's wet folds and she flicked it just enough to tickle her clit. She felt Alison's body shudder beneath her.

"Mm, I sure missed that taste," she murmured, "And that smell," she inhaled deeply.

Alison chuckled, "I missed that tongue, that – oh."

She was cut off when Cece's tongue flicked against her clit harder this time, making her whole body jerk involuntarily. She felt Alison's hand grip in her hair as she continued her ministrations. Cece teased Alison briefly, running her tongue along her slit slowly but she couldn't resist moving faster. She pulled her girlfriends' clit into her mouth as much as she could and swivelled her tongue around it expertly.

She worked her tongue around until she felt Alison's body quivering below her. Then she traced her lips up her girlfriends body quickly and let her fingers take the place of her tongue. They slid into Alison easily and the younger woman moaned long and loud as her orgasm hit. Cece held her tightly as her body shuddered it out and Alison turned her face into Cece's shoulder, at first biting into it but then releasing her body grew limp and her breathing laboured.

"Well," Alison breathed, "I have definitely missed that."

Cece smiled at the still recovering Alison below her, "Me too," she whispered before raising her fingers to her mouth and licking them clean.

Alison groaned and closed her eyes for a moment. Quickly, she opened them and grabbed Cece's hand.

"Not yet," she whispered.

Cece tilted her head, not understanding for a moment before she smiled in realisation, "Again?" she grinned.

Alison nodded, shifting her legs, "Please."

Cece kissed her passionately, licking her lips as she drew away, "My pleasure," she traced her fingers up Alison's still wet thigh's and easily slid her fingers back into her girlfriend. She buried her face in Alison's neck, peppering kisses on her skin, "I love you;" she pumped her fingers slower this time, then deeper.

Alison held the back of Cece's neck, keeping her in place as she grinded herself against her girlfriends' fingers. She quickly came again and her arms fell to her side. Cece pulled her face from Alison's neck and kissed her lips briefly, letting her regain her breathe.

"Now may I lick my fingers clean?" Cece smirked.

Alison half laughed through her laboured breathing and nodded, "Sure."

Cece smelt her fingers quickly before putting them in her mouth, licking them clean one by one.

"I'd almost forgotten that taste," she murmured, "I'm sorry Ali, I know we haven't exactly been – "

"Don't dare apologise for that," Alison raised a hand to Cece's cheek, "It's one of many ways we express what we feel. A fun, beautiful way, sure but don't ever apologise for not being… active. I'd rather we do it when we both feel like it than for either of us to only be doing it for the other person out of some kind of… obligation, wouldn't you?"

Cece nodded as she lay on her back beside her girlfriend, "Of course. I just don't want you to think… because it's not like I haven't wanted to, it's just – "

"Stop," Alison turned to face her, stroking her cheek, "I know, baby," she whispered, "You've had a thousand things on your mind. I know you haven't all of a sudden stopped being attracted to me, I know you love me. All the medications…the surgery… your body's been preoccupied, it's fine."

Cece smiled, "I'm glad to hear you say that. I'll never stop loving you," she bit her lip, "I'm really glad you don't doubt that… sometimes I get scared…"

Alison watched her closely, "Scared of what? That I'll stop loving you?"

Cece shrugged, averting her eyes, "I don't know… sort of. I mean, part of me knows you love me and that you'll look after me… but sometimes, when I get sad, it's like my mind starts working against me and telling me all these bad things."

"Like that I'll leave?" Alison guessed quietly.

Cece nodded, "Yeah, like that," she admitted, "It's awful, Ali. I've never felt so much self-doubt before."

"Can you do something for me, Ce?" Alison asked.

Cece nodded, "Of course."

Alison placed a hand on Cece's stomach, running her fingers over it gently, "When you start to get those thoughts, those bad thoughts like that I'm going to leave… can you please come to me? You don't have to tell me what's going on if you don't want but just… let me be around you. Maybe we can help your brain realise it's wrong. It's got to be better than sitting alone thinking like that, doesn't it?"

"I'll try," Cece whispered, "Sometimes I think it wants me to be alone… even though I know it makes me sadder."

"You know if I could I'd pull that sadness away from your heart… shoot it to the moon… or further," Alison said quietly.

"I know you would, Ali," Cece smiled sadly, "Things are getting better though… things will get better, I have to believe that."

"They will," Alison confirmed firmly, "Sometimes it's hard to see your own progress, but I see it in you every day," she kissed Cece's cheek.

Cece smiled, a little shyly, "I don't know how I would have got through any of this without you… without your mom taking me in… it's the first time I've really felt like I belong. I never knew how nice that feeling was until now."

Alison kissed her lips and took Cece's hand, placing it over her heart, "Not to be incredibly corny," she chuckled, "But this is where you belong."

"It's not corny if it's true," Cece smiled before fighting back a yawn.

"You're sleepy," Alison realised, tracing the bags underneath her girlfriends' eyes, "It's okay. Get some sleep. I'm going to read for a while."

Cece let her eyes grow heavy, "Okay, maybe tomorrow I get my turn, hey?"

Alison laughed lightly, "Whenever you like," she whispered.