I do not own Tokyo ghoul (cause if I did everyone would be happy)

You know something Kaneki, I believe you are in good hands. I have come to an understanding that you will do fine without your memories, because you have people around you who care deeply for you whether you know it or not.

At first I felt left out when you began your job with the others. I would sit at our table sipping the coffee watching you laugh with everyone. They were all ghouls and now so are you, you all had something on common be it same fears, taste, whatever it may have been. My worry began when I didn't see you that much in school. I even checked the bookstores you liked but came up empty, so when I did finally get to see you again I paid close attention, trying to see if anything was wrong.

There was.

Ever since you went 'missing' I would stay up looking for you, worried that you might be in pain- or worse, dead. I would try to understand your situation and drink that nasty coffee you'd drink. When they started to notice you I grew even more worried- worried that my best friend might get caught. I would stay up just to watch the news hoping that you wouldn't appear on it.

My grades dropped, my sleep became irregular and for some reason I kept drinking that damn coffee. So when I finally decided to find you, I took the next step and whether it was a good or bad choice I will leave it in the air.

I just wanted to make sure that you were safe.

As I worked with the CCG I grew to know both sides of the story- why they were so determined to kill ghouls like you. Yet, they didn't know that they were also breaking up families or they just didn't care, but I did.

I didn't stop when they started to grow suspicious of my constant questions about the 'eyepatch'. And when they made you one of their main targets I got scared. I was torn between on telling them that you weren't a murderer, that you are just a bookworm and letting them find you so I could safe you. It was risky, I know. So I decided to join up with them- if it meant finding you I was willing to take the enemy's side.

When the fight between ghouls and CCG finally broke out I desperately tried to find you.

And I did.

I saw how you looked, how you were loosing it and seeing you in so much pain just tore me up inside. At first I thought that I had lost, that I came too late. But It was ok, cause I found you. I was happy that you didn't attack me, that you resisted the urge like how you done before.

I had wanted to say more than "I knew." I wanted to tell you that I watched you, worried about you, that I was your silent guardian making sure that the CCG didn't find you. So, I put it all into one. Simple. Phrase.

"Let's go home."

And everything that was said and done after that. I forgive you. Eating me to safe your life, it's O.K. I did my part. I won. All I wanted was to see you alive and well, and I did. So you didn't need to feel scared when you tasted blood in your mouth.

I will always be with you, Kaneki, even if you no longer remember me. Watching and cheering you on with whatever choice you make.

Even if someone replaces me as your best friend, it's alright.

Just be you, Haise.