Hello internet! This is for NeonClan's Weekly Tumblr Challenge. The prompt? Our OTP's first kiss! It was very difficult to choose but I ended up choosing a favorite pairing of mine, Sollux Captor and Aradia Megido! I'm a little out of practice in the writing department, so I apologize in advance.

I remember the first time I kissed you, AA. Do you?

We were outside your hive. It had been a while since my last visit, and as usual, I always marveled in the overall silence. A communal hivestem is not silent, ever. I never minded it much, but getting out into a remote rural area… The silence can be overwhelming.

We were holding hands and talking about that. The silence. You said that it wasn't silent there at all. There were all kinds of sounds that one could notice just by listening. So we listened.

Being silent there with you seemed to bring up some weird tension. I'd never noticed it before, but it could have been there all along, for all I know. You noticed it too, AA. I could tell. You smiled in that way you always did. You were so happy back then, AA. So happy.

I felt your hand grab mine, and it felt right, somehow. I felt the urge to brush the hair out of your eyes, which I did. I kept my hand there, just resting there on your cheek, and you reached up and grabbed it with your other hand.

There we were, holding hands like in one of KK's stupid movies. I had to admit, it was a nice feeling. You let go of one of my hands and reached up, pulling off my glasses.

You seemed to like my eyes a lot.

We were there like that, for a while. I could feel that tension getting stronger, harder to ignore. We were still silent. Then, the it became unbearable.

Did I kiss you, or did you kiss me, AA? That's the one thing I don't remember. We did kiss, though. Your lips were warm, supple. Pleasing. You closed your eyes, and I did too. Great. We really were in one of KK's movies then, weren't we, AA?

I never wanted to stop. I wanted you, AA. God, that sounds dumb. But it's the truth. You made me feel complete, like I meant something to the world. Yeah, that's super cliche, but I didn't care, and neither did you.

The rest was all a blur. We talked, and you laughed at something I said. I just stood there wondering how a girl like you would ever want to waste her time on a guy like me.

We slept beside each other, later on. Your head rested on my chest. You were still holding my glasses, cradling them like they were some precious artifact.

I remember the first time I kissed you, AA, but I also remember the day I killed you.

Everyone assumes that I don't remember. That Vriska did some weird manipulative mind crap to erase the memory or that I just wasn't "there" in my mind while she took control. But I do remember, AA. How could I not? How could I ever forget that?

I woke up near your hive, or the remains of it anyway, wondering how the hell I got there. Then I remembered it all. How I had suddenly felt the overwhelming urge to fly to your hive. How I brought a jar of mind honey. How I felt the urge to eat the mind honey, despite my own protests.

How I brought your hive to the ground with my power.

When I woke up and remembered, I immediately used my power to lift all the rubble. And I saw you there, AA. Bleeding. Broken. Beyond repair.

I held you, AA, tears rushing down my face, as I silently begged you to wake up. To smile at me. To kiss me and make it all go away.

But you never did.

I'm sorry, AA. So sorry.