Why Me?

It doesn't make sense. This relationship we have.

In the beginning it was nothing but a small crush I had. You agreed to make me your bride, even though you had no idea what that was.

Years later I wonder if you even understand it.

The day we were reunited, I was so excited. I couldn't wait for us to spend our lives together, but I didn't understand the cost of such a dream.

You wanted nothing of romance. Heck, you didn't even remember our promise. I was sad and angry beyond compare, but when you agreed to my terms I was happy once again. My expectations were high, I wanted a strong, attentive husband. One that would take care of me and our family.

What I got was not even close.

For the first four years of our marriage, we lived together. I was happy, even though you were still overly focused on training. Even without a menace to the Earth. I should have known that something would go wrong. That you would run off at the first sign of danger. Giving in to your basic need to fight.

When I got the news of your death, I was shaken. What would I do? Our son was kidnapped and here I was alone again. You had the choice to come back, but you didn't. Saying you had to train for a new threat.

I waited. Hoping that you and our child would return safely. But you didn't. The first thing you did with your new chance at life was get your body crushed. Our son laid beside you in the hospital and I was helpless once again. I tried to get you to see reason, but you wouldn't have it. Our son left the planet in search of Namek against my wishes. I just wanted him to grow up without fighting. Was that too much to ask? I know what you are, but what about me? Did my emotions count? Looking back, I think not.

The same could be said for when you were healed. You didn't tell me, you just up and left the planet without saying a word.

Again I waited, hoping that you and our son would return. I only got half of my wish. My son was returned to me, but you decided to stay. Wherever you were. You abandoned us to train again.

A year later you returned, but I didn't know. I was the last to know, like I always was. I put on a face, pretending that I was happy to see you again. Not really wanting to say what was on my mind out of fear. The fear of alienating our friends…who am I kidding. They're your friends.

The first thing you say to me isn't. "Chi-chi I missed you." But instead is another excuse for you to be away. For you to take our son way. I know what you are doing. You want him to be a fighter like you, but you refuse to see that he isn't you.

You lied to me for three years, I knew what was going on. Did you think I wouldn't notice? I'm not as blind as you think.

You fell ill, I took care of you. Even waiting by your side as you thrashed in your sleep. But what did you say when you woke up. You ran off to fight again.

Again you take our son off to fight, even putting him in complete danger. I cringed to myself. Hoping that I would see both of you again.

Our son pulled through, but you sacrificed yourself. I waited for you to be resurrected, but you refused. Saying that you would only bring danger home. That didn't stop you before. I knew you just wanted to train.

9 months after, I gave you our second son. This time I had them both to myself. I raised them the best I could on my own. Without you.

Gohan got into a good school. Goten is a sweet boy. He reminds me of you, back in the old days.

When the tournament was announced both of the boys wanted to join. I was wary at first. But Gohan wanted to win the prize money for us. Something you never did.

He brought a girl by the house, she reminds me of myself. The difference was that I knew my son would make her happy. He wasn't you.

You announced your return, but it wasn't for me. You wanted to fight in a tournament. Again you ignored me.

You didn't even recognize your children when you returned. To Goten you were a stranger. You don't realize how much they missed you. How much I missed you.

Another battle came and went. The earth was destroyed and you saved the day, like you always do.

You told me that you loved me. I was shocked, but didn't believe you. You said you were home to stay. I didn't believe you.

And I was right. Right now I'm watching as you leave with the strange boy you want to train. You couldn't spend time with our own children, now you're off to train a random child.

As I watch you fly off into the distance I think to myself. Why me?