Before I go to sleep

A/N: this is my first fanfic that I haven't hand-written, my ultimate fav pairing is definitely Hotch/Garcia and several of my stories are going to contain this pairing. But for now sit back and enjoy my fail of a story.

Chapter one: As one world collapses

She lay on the bed the dizziness of the alcohol and her eyelids grow heavy from the sleeping pills as death slowly surrounded her, the feeling of being free filling before blackness claimed her vision.

Meanwhile:

"Penelope answer your phone, we have a case in Texas, and we're going to need you to come along for this one, call back ASAP" Aaron Hotchner said as he got his technical analysts voicemail for the fifth time.

"Alright, you guys carry on to the airfield I'm going to get Garcia, any questions" Hotch said. The rest of the team shook their heads no before leaving the war room closely followed by Hotch. As he pulled up to Penelope's' apartment complex, seeing "Ester" in the driveway, he jumped out of his car and walked to her front door. He instantly drew his sidearm as he noticed the front door open, pushing the door open with his foot Aaron looked around the darkened apartment. Walking into the living room he noticed the TV still turned on.

"Penelope are you in here?" Hotch called out before slowly walking towards the beads that separated her room from the rest of the apartment. His eyes quickly adjusted to the darkness of Penelope's bedroom, seeing the body of Penelope seemingly asleep on her bed he quickly crossed the room to her only to see her covered in her own blood and still holding the empty vodka bottle in her hand. Aaron checked her weakening pulse as he rang the ambulance.

"Penelope, why would you do this, why couldn't I see it coming?" he questioned her but also himself.

_Before I go to sleep_

As Penelope was loaded into the ambulance Aaron pulled out his badge and flashed it as one of the medics tried to stop him from getting in the ambulance with her.

"I'm SSA Hotchner from the FBI, this is my technical analyst Penelope Garcia, don't try and stop me from coming with you" Hotch said sternly. The medic just nodded stunned for words. After arriving at the hospital, Penelope was rushed to OR to have her arms stitched up and her stomach pumped but they were still unsure about how much blood she had lost. Aaron was sent to the waiting room to await further information on her condition.

_Before I go to sleep_

3 hours later…

"Agent Hotchner, if you would like to follow me" the doctor said before turning to leave the room again. Aaron quickly followed the doctor to the hallway of the hospital, Aarons mind was racing with scenarios of what could happen, and then all of a sudden they ended at the door of Penelope's room. The doctor turned to Aaron, sadness etched into the doctor's face.

"You may go in but we have placed her in a temporary coma, until her has healed and is ready to function by itself properly. I know it's hard right now for you but it is my duty to tell you we almost lost her twice in OR" the doctor placed a hand on Aarons shoulder "You will also have to help her with the loss of her baby, we will also have to remove it in a week or so as it will only cause more damage to her mental state" the doctor walked away before Aaron could ask any questions, looking back to the door he slowly turned the knob and entered the room. The beeping of the machines filled his ears as he walked over to her bed, she looked depressed even in her sleep, her normally golden blond locks were turning to their natural brunette, her face looked like she was older than she actually was. How did he miss this, how did he not see the pain she was going through, he didn't understand how he hadn't noticed earlier that she might go to the lengths that she had. Pulling out his cell phone he rang the only person he could think of.

_Before I go to sleep_

Rossi awoke to the sound of his phone ringing.

"Rossi" he answered groggily.

"Dave, are you alone?" Aaron's voice came through the line.

"Aaron yeah I'm alone, what's wrong?" Rossi answered.

"David, Penelope is in Quantico general hospital, I need you to come back but don't tell the team anything" Aaron said trying to keep the worry and panic out of his voice but failed miserably.

"Alright I'll be there by morning" Rossi said before Aaron hung up. Rossi quickly packed his bags and checked out of his hotel room before calling a cab, but unfortunately Morgan was still in the lobby.

"Rossi, where you going man" Morgan asked looking at Rossi's packed bags.

"I'm needed back in Quantico and I think it's pretty important if I leave now to get back in time" Rossi said before continuing to leave the hotel.

_Before I go to sleep_

Aaron awoke when one of the nurses came in to check Penelope's vitals, rubbing his face he slowly got up from the uncomfortable hospital chair and walked towards the hospitals café area. After receiving a message from Rossi and having a small cup of coffee, he returned to Penelope's room. Rossi was about five minutes from the hospital and Aaron was trying to hunt down the doctor when the machines in Penelope's room started to go off and she started flat lining.

Prepare for a new chapter soon but hopefully this one is good bye bye for now xxxxSarahxxxx