Hey guys! Did you miss me?! Nah, but I'm so sorry for not updating anything in a long time! School and my sucky job has been getting in the way. I've been working on this chapter and a few others for awhile now, as well as new stories that I will start just as soon as I finish at least two more stories that are already in progress! That means a lot of more Haleb, Spoby, Ezria, Emison, and whatever other ship goodness. Send prompts if you want your couple in a one-shot or story of their own. Also to those who have been wanting stories and have sent me prompts already, I am unbelievably sorry for the delay. It's all a work in progress I swear and no story will ever be left unfinished. Be patient with me because as much as I love writing, especially for you guys, school is my priority right now until graduation in just 2-3 more semesters. So here it is, the next chapter and I know it's short, but more to come! I hope you guys enjoy xoxoxo

Chapter 5 Hanna's POV

The ride home was silent, mostly because I didn't want to talk. I knew this conversation would come back at some point and no matter how much I hate it, it needs to be addressed. We finally pulled up to the house and park the car. We just sit there in more deafening silence until he eventually gets out, before coming around to assist me out. Something I find annoying, but really endearing. I'm not that pregnant just yet, but I know that's how he was when I was first pregnant, so I got used to it. I unlock the door and we immediately walked to the kitchen, him to get water and me to sit down from my emotionally exhausting day. He sits the glasses down and takes his seat across from me, and nobody talks, not really knowing where to start.

"Hanna."

"Caleb," we say at the same time which caused a chuckle or two which thankfully broke the tension. I motion for him to go first, really wanting to know what was going through his mind.

"No matter if we were together or apart, since I've met you I've known I wanted you to be apart of my life. I knew that I wanted to love you, take care of you, and grow old with you. Deep down, I knew you would change my life and you did Han, you did. All those years ago I couldn't wait to make you my wife and the mother of my child. I wanted so bad to make that dream a reality and I almost got it right. When we lost Jaden, I really didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't know how to handle it and the fact that I didn't know what to do, we suffered. I guess where I'm going with this is I am 1000% behind you, but promise me whatever happens that we won't break again. I can't lose you again Hanna and I want you to promise me that I won't. This is going to be tough on us, with us making sure that we get the chance to see this little one grow, but I'm willing to do this with you, beside you no matter what we may face," he says to me. I just sit there in both shock and awe of this man that I've loved for so long. I've had the same pictures of happily ever after in my head as well, and I never really imagined anyone but Caleb being the one I share that with.

"I want that to so much. Every dream, thought, and picture in my head... it was always you. I love you so much and I really want to be with you for the rest of my life. I want the marriage, the kids, the growing old together. I want it all with nobody, but you. I promise not to let you go again no matter what happens along the way. I know it's going be tough with the worry of losing this baby too, but I want this more than anything," I sob to him, really crying hard at this moment.

"Then, let's do it. Let's have this baby, let's be together, let's do this!" he says smiling at me.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah," he nods. "I love you so much Hanna."

"I love you too Caleb," I say kissing him like it's the first and last time I ever will, which couldn't be further from the truth. He is my past, my present, my future, and my forever.

HCHCHCHCHCHCHCHCHCHC

It's been a few weeks since then, and now here we sit at our first doctor's appointment together. Today we get to hear the heart beat and reaffirm that our new bundle of joy is happy and healthy, growing and living inside of me. It's something most people wouldn't freak out about, but I am nervous as hell. I'm afraid that something will go wrong, that the doctor will tell me some very bad news just like so long ago.

"Babe, calm down. We won't know anything until we actually see the doctor, but I'm sure everything is fine."

"How can you possibly know that? Last time everything was fine until it wasn't. I don't want to lose this baby. I can't lose this baby," she finishes with slow tears caressing her face, hands holding her now protruding belly.

"We just have to stay positive that everything will be alright. Have faith that even if something is wrong, that we're in good hands with the doctor and we can get through this. As of now, just deep breaths and relax as much as you can before they call our names, okay Hanna?" Taking a deep breath, I try to calm myself the best I can. Thankfully not too long after, our names are being called to be seen next. I am still jittery for the most part, but at least I'm breathing normally.

"Mr. Rivers, Ms. Marin, how are you today?"

"We're fine, just a little nervous," Caleb answers, intertwining our hands in an act of comfort.

"That's perfectly normal for you to be a little anxious. So, I will not keep you in suspense any longer. I just have a few questions," the doctor begins. After asking questions of our medical and family history, I am laying on stiff paper in a gown that flashes my ass which in turn rubs against the rough ass paper. Taking more deep breaths, legs in stir-ups, feeling exposed as hell, the doctor does her probing.

"Okay Ms. Marin, this will be a bit cold and you'll feel a lot of pressure, but it will all be over soon."

I nod my head in understand while also crushing Caleb's hand and trying not to cry. She wasn't lying about the pressure, I wince in discomfort, which I forget all about at the sound of a strong pounding sound echoing across the room.

"Is that..."

"It sure is. The baby's heartbeat, and it's a strong one," the doctor smiles at us. I can't help but smile back with tears streaming across my face. I look over a Caleb who seems to be wearing the exact same expression as me. It's all becoming real. We're being given a second chance at being parents.

"Now let's see if we can get a picture of the little bean." It takes a few minutes, but soon we're staring at an image of our little peanut and the tears that never stopped, continued to flow. I am just overwhelmed with so many emotions ranging from joy to fear. But in this moment, the most powerful emotion of all is love. Love for this little peanut and who it will become after so many months. Soon I'm getting redressed and rescheduling my next appointment.

"I will see you guys in one month. Here's your pictures and video. Good luck, Ms. Marin, Mr. Rivers, I'll see you soon," the doctor smiles and walks away. The car ride is filled with silence, but a more in awe, joyful silence. We're both still reeling from listening and seeing our baby for the first time. It's all happening and we couldn't be happier, but a small air of worry surrounds us as well. Pulling into The Radley, we exit the car, hand in hand, to meet our friends inside.

"Hanna!" The girls exclaimed while Toby and Ezra just smiles my way. I hug my best friends hello, and sit across from Emily.

"So how was the appointment?" Alison brings up first.

"It was good. We listened to the heartbeat and uhm, here," I say handing each girl an ultrasound picture. I had copies made for them, myself and Caleb, and my mom.

"Oh wow! Our Hanna Banana is really having a baby! The first one of us to reproduce," Spencer teases fondly.

"Terrifying," I say in what I thought was a mumble.

"Why?" Aria asks curiously. I swallow hard and look at my best friends' faces. Only Emily knows because she was visiting at the time it all happened.

"Well, uhm, I was..." I feel Caleb's hand slip into mine, giving an encouraging smile. I don't know why I never told the girls. I guess I just didn't want the sympathetic looks and the treating me with kiddie gloves, but to be honest, I could have used them all when it all happened. Having Emily there was a huge help, but having them all there would've been amazing.

"I was p-pregnant before," I mumbled, but I can tell they heard by the gasps I heard. I then went into full detail of how we lost Jaden and how it caused Caleb and I to drift apart.

"We had no idea," Alison says.

"Emily did because she was there, and I wanted to tell you guys, but it was way too painful, I didn't want to be pitied or be a bother to you guys," I shrug half-heartedly.

"Oh, sweetie, you are never a bother. We're glad you weren't alone, but had we had known we would've been there in a heartbeat," Aria reassures, smiling over at me. I could tell she meant it, that they all meant it by the honest looks in their eyes and smiles on their faces.

"Thanks guys. That means a lot," I smile at them. All sadness was forgotten as we gushed over baby names, baby showers, and how the baby will be spoiled rotten. When we part ways, Caleb and I go home together.

"I know it took a lot to tell them, but I'm so proud of you," he says kissing my head. I cuddle closer to him on the bed and breathe him in.

"I always wonder if things would've been different if I had told them when it happened. Having them all there, they would've helped me through it and make me see reason. Make me see that shutting you out would ultimately destroy me and you," I confess in the dark.

"Well, maybe, but let's not dwell on the past. We're here now and that's all that matters. We have each other and our focus is making sure this little bean is healthy and happy," he smiles at me.

"You're right. I love you Caleb," he kisses me softly but I felt the love behind it.

"I love you too Han."