Update as of Saturday February 2nd 2017

My god is has been a while since I have done anything. Hey everyone TheTriforceofAwesomeness here with some information to give all of you.

First off, I want to say that I am REALLY sorry for not updating my stories. Text doesn't even come close to describing the amount of guilt I am experiencing right now.

I am actually debating on creating a YouTube channel dedicated to this whole FanFiction business as a means of providing updates in a verbal form as well as maybe read aloud some of my favorite works on the site or just read my already uploaded stories. Let me know what you all think of that.

Anyway, the reason as to why I haven't been updating my stories include but are not limited to:

Taking College classes 4 out of the 7 days of every week.

The amount of time for homework that is required for said classes usually takes an average of 5-6 hours.

The emotional stress I experience from not having a job and the lack of self-confidence in myself for trying to find one despite the fact that having a job would help me in the long run but at the same time I am unsure as to what I can even do anymore.

Trying to make YouTube videos for my Channel which at most can take an average of 6-7 hours for one video. I have uploaded a few, but that Channel is also going under the same circumstances as my writing.

Trying to desperately achieve a balance between all of the things I have mentioned above.

Experiencing an unnerving feeling that none of you really care about my writing or have even forgotten about me which fills me up with even more guilt that I am not providing content to you all who may or may not care. It doesn't help me emotionally that every so often I get 1-2 people finding my stories and it makes me feel that they expect a Chapter out soon despite the fact that it has been a while.

The guilt I feel when I am realizing that I haven't updated in almost a year and it makes me question my own personal credibility as a writer and makes me question myself if this is all worthwhile.

Viewing myself as a person who lives for feedback on everything that I put out on the internet and expecting feedback so I can see if I can improve myself and not receiving anything. This leads me to believe that I really don't need improvement, but it also makes me hypocritical as how I am expectant of others and seem to disregard my own expectations or the possible expectations of what others expect of me which in turn repeats the cycle of uncertainty and hopelessness.

Coming up with even more stories and possible crossovers that I am not even sure if I should upload or keep on the back-burner in order to try to update my current stories. The amount I currently have in-progress are maybe 3-4 potential works.

Worrying about the point of when I want to move out of my current house, but also knowing that I am really not doing much to achieve that.

Not sure as to what I want to do when I graduate from college.

The overall lack of self-confidence in myself as a person and as a writer, YouTuber, and a friend.

Worrying about my friends who I haven't contacted in half a decade because I feel like they are too busy with their own lives to give a shit about me.

Questioning my place in this life as I more often than not feel empty, inadequate, and uncaring about my accomplishments as I feel that whatever I try to do I just know that someone just does it better.

And so much more stuff that I don't even know if I want to get into.

So that is what has been going on. School, Life, and Personal Issues. I do hope that I can update at least one of my stories sometime this year and maybe even complete one of them. At this point I don't even know anymore.

I'm honestly surprised that my stories are somehow not removed from the site after a certain period of inactivity. If anyone has details on that kind of stuff and is willing to share that information with me it can help ease my mind.

I think that's all I really have to say, so I hope that I will see you all again soon.