Thought it was finally time to update this story, my computer decided that my spring break was an amazing time to fritz and putter out. Ugh...anyways through the power of an extra computer screen, my ol' jalopy of a laptop's keyboard and HDMI magic, I can at least update now! XD

Ratchet speedily walked down the hallway, trying his best not to run. His mind was running wild with thoughts and accusations. As he slowly got closer and closer to Bumblebee's door he became increasingly more sick of himself,why had he tried the synthetic Energon? He could of stopped this train wreck before it left the station. Stopped all this drama and pain. He should have listened to his scientific side, and Optimus. His mind halted all thought when he found himself standing in front of the little scouts door. Taking a deep intake of air, the medic slowly knocked on the metal door, making a echo resound around the hall. Ratchet strained to her if anyone was inside the room, but no sound was coming from within. Suddenly the door opened part way and the scout stood in the doorway. When he saw Ratchet he greeted him with a small questioning look and a wave.

Ratchet was quite surprised at this reaction. There was no lubricant tears or curses being thrown around, instead the scout just looked confused at his presence. Ratchet finally relied he had been standing there in silence for almost a full minute and quickly composed himself. Looking down briefly he sighed.

"I-I just" Ratchet began, stuttering his way around the words until he finally managed to form a sentence " It has come to my attention that whilst I was...inebriated...I did some hurtful and unsavory things. Most notably how I treated you during my animosity towards Optimus's orders to go back to base" Ratchet paused in his dialogue to gauge the youngling's reaction. He wasn't sure if this somewhat formal way of speaking was making it better or worse.

Bumblebee was silent. The quiet atmosphere encouraging Ratchet to continue with his point. Although he did sense the formality of his tone was making the situation just a tad bit more awkward then it had to be. He sounded as if he was discussing a diagnosis with a patient instead of offering a sincere and heartfelt apology to someone he cared for. So he continued with less formality.

"I heard what I said to you, I heard those horrible lies I told." the medic's voice was full of sorrow "I know what I said and I know you can most likely never forgive me for my unacceptable actions during that time and I am fully aware of how stupid I must sound right now. I'm a horrible Cybertronian and an eve worse Autobot. It was my fault that you never got a proper childhood, mine and every other adult that didn't try to stop the oncoming war when the first signs were there. Because of our reliance on the council and government we didn't do everything in our power to stop it until it was to late. " Ratchet paused to take a breath in, helm still down.

"After all that, I still had the audacity to make it sound as if it was your fault you never had the proper training like we did. And then on top of that I brought up a subject I shouldn't have. I cut open a wound that was just starting to finally look as if it would heal. I said other younglings would mock you for it. Mock you for being brave and not giving in to a warmonger. For having the spirit to continue on when others fell."Ratchet's tone was turning to one of self loathing and anger quickly as he continued.

"I mocked you for being full of hope and believing in the Autobot cause, when the world pushed you not to. I berated you for your age, your will and your incredible way of trying harder when it seemed Primus himself had given up. I told lies that no one should ever tell, lies that no one would or should ever think!-" Ratchets self hating rant was stopped suddenly by a servo on his shoulder.

Ratchet looked up from his head bowed position and saw it was Bumblebee's servo that was laid on his shoulder. Looking down at the young Autobot, Ratchet could see there were many emotions flashing in the blue optics, gratitude? Concern? and acceptance? Ratchet was very confused to say the least, and was about to make his confusion vocal when Bumblebee interrupted him.

"Ratchet..." Bumblebee beeped softly as to get the older bot to calm down. "I was never mad at you and never hated you" Ratchet's optics went wide, and his thoughts began to race.

"You weren't the one who said those things. It was the synthetic stuff in your tanks." the scouts hand dropped back down to his side as he continued, looking to the side "I mean, sure, what was said that day hurt. A lot. But I never blamed you for it. No one is to blame. Well.." Bumblebee's tone became joking "except maybe the guy who made the information shoot off into the Primus forsaken reaches of space as a safety feature"

Ratchet smiled slightly at the joke and couldn't help but let out a snot of laughter. Bumblebee smiled under his faceplate and continued.

"So, all in all, its in the past. There is no way we can go back in time and change anything, so why fret over it? Ill get over it soon and it'll all be good again" the yellow bot concluded. Ratchet gave him a unsure look and Bumblebee laughed and rolled his optics fondly.

"Really I swear!" Ratchet finally seemed to believe him enough to smile a little. Bumblebee quickly came out of his room and shut the door.

"It looks like it's just about time to take Raf home" He explained "plus I've moped around long enough for two lifetimes"

And with that the two Autobots set off down the hall towards the main room. The air seemed clearer then before and the two seemed to be happier now that the misunderstanding was out of the way. Suddenly Bumblebee snickered.

"You know Ratchet? You went full n rant mode back there. Like when someone gets injured and you yell at them for being stupid, and then you hit them on the head with a wrench..." Ratchet laughed lightly at this.

"Only this time I was ranting on about myself, to myself" he joked "does that mean I should hit myself in the head with a wrench?"

Crappy ending but hey it's something right? Right? No? oh... okay...XD I will try to update all of my stories soon, maybe one or two per day.