Usami Akihiko

One lesson I have always learned again and again is that nothing good comes out of loving someone. You put your heart out there only for it spat on. Growing up being surrounded by mutiple examples of how such an emotion is a weakness and as such will be taken advantage of has shown me that. Admitting feelings to others will only be a weak point for others to exploit to shoot you down. In the end you're the bleeding fool and you'll be alone when it comes down to it. Is feeling too strongly really such a crime? Such a thing to be manipulated and crushed? Time after time after time. My heart has grown worn, weary and jaded.

But then I met you.

You were childish, reckless, brash, and inconsiderate. To top it all off an idiot too. I dismissed you without a second thought. After all, you were just like all the rest. Yet, the more I got to know you the more you fascinated me. You showed me compassion, empathy, and bore your tender heart to me. You tore away at my walls and, before I knew it, melted the ice that had chilled me down to the core. How could I ever respond to such feelings but bear my heart to you in response?

The world may slap on titles and labels upon me. Mad. Bizarre. Deranged. Irrational. But what is the world if not anything but irrational? It is too late for me to turn back, for I fear if I do this time I may shatter into pieces and no one could piece me back together again. I am aware of how my shortcomings create doubt in you. How you waver at the pressure impressed upon you. I am nothing but contrite for the burdens you must now bear. Nevertheless, know this, as long as you wish it, I will be there for you every stumble, every slip. I will burn away anything that may cause you to doubt. I will never let you fall and break.

For you are my beloved.

My most cherished.

My precious love.