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This will be the last chapter of this story. Sorry for the readers who wanted it longer, but I felt this should not be a long story.
Maura had been doing her best to be loving and open with Hope, but she was having trouble. Most of her childhood was spent in boarding schools and being by herself. The only person she has ever felt comfortable talking to about her feelings is Jane. Jane has been telling her to trust Hope and open up to her about what she is feeling, about the whole situation. So twice now she has tried to confront her but she always ends up rambling about her work.
Maura was on her way to work when her phone rang.
"Hello, Dr. Isles." She said, expecting it to be Suzie telling her she was late.
"Maura, it's Hope."
Maura was some what nervous as to why she was calling her, "hi, Hope! Is everything okay?"
"Yes everything is alright! I was just calling to see if you were free for dinner tonight?"
Maura wanted to say she was busy but she knew she couldn't. " Yes... I am."
"Great would eight o'clock at my house work?"
"Yes that would be fine."
"Alright see you then. Bye."
"Bye."
She had gone to work for most of the day. When she left work she grabbed some coffee then came home. She had taken a shower, did her hair, and gotten dressed. Albeit, she had taken quite some time to figure out what she wanted to wear. After deciding on a black pencil skirt, dark blue blouse, and black pumps, she grabbed her purse and keys and left.
The drive seemed way to quick for her. She pulled up to Hope's house and just sat in the car. She was dreading going in there. She already felt like she loved Hope but she just needed time get over her anger and confusion.
She got out of her car and walked up to the door. She took a moment and then rung the doorbell. The wait was no more then five seconds and the door opened.
"Maura, I am so glad you could make it. Come in."
"Thank you," was all she could say.
Maura followed Hope to the kitchen area. Hope's house was beautiful, in many ways like Maura's.
"I hope you like pasta.?!"
Maura's mind had wondered to a different place and Hope's voice pulled her out. She did not hear Hope talking to her.
"Maura...are you alright? You seem a little distracted." Hope put her hand on Maura's shoulder when she said this.
Maura realized Hope was talking to her, "um... yes I am fine. Sorry I was just thinking about the case we are working on." She made this up. The truth was they did not have a case. And she was hoping her hives would not break out.
"May I ask about this case that has you so distracted?"
Great now she had to make something up again. "We are not supposed to talk about it, sorry." This was not a lie if they actually had a case, which they didn't.
"It's okay. I completely understand. Alright I think the food is ready," Hope said with enthusiasm.
"Great. Can I help with anything?" Maura said in a tone Hope couldn't quite read, which worried her.
"No you sit down, I can get it."
Maura then sat down and waited for Hope to finish everything.
Dinner was short and neither of them talked much, which Maura was thankful for. After lunch they went to the living room to talk. They both sat on the couch together.
"So how are you doing Maura?"
Maura was hoping that she would just ask about simple things but she just had to ask, 'how are you doing'. " I am doing fine. I hope you are the same?"
"I am...Maura I don't want to be pushy but...what's wrong and don't tell me nothing because I can tell something is bothering you." Hope was concerned about Maura.
Maura thought about what Jane had said to her. She needed to be honest with Hope. She just needed to figure out how to say it. "Hope I just..." Maura couldn't speak because she was so nervous.
"Maura it's alright. Just say what you need to say." Hope said trying to reassure Maura.
Maura knew if she did not say this now she would never say it. She could feel the tears starting to slide to her face so she looked down at her hands. "Why weren't you there?" Maura said this so quietly Hope almost did not hear it.
For a second, Hope did not understand what Maura said. Then she realized she was talking about her childhood. "Oh Maura..." Hope leaned forward and wrapped her arms around her and to Hope's surprise Maura did not pull away. Maura started to cry even harder when Hope embraced her. Hope on the other hand was trying to figure out how to comfort her. "Maura you have no idea how badly I wish I could've been there. I wish I could've been there to see you grow up and to watch you as you became the amazing woman you are now...but the odds were against us. So many things stood in our way of finding each other. Yet here we are. So no matter what my opinions are or yours, just remember that in the end we found each other and that is all that matters."
As Maura listened to Hope she realized she was right. Albeit she wished she could've had the mother she wanted when she was a child, she has that mother now. "I know. It's just I was so alone. I was shipped of to boarding school when I was ten and before that I spent all my time with the nanny or the tutor. Then when I got older I was just sent to more boarding schools. I didn't have anybody till I met Jane. All I ever wanted was a mother that would love me. Not that Constance doesn't love me or my father, it's just they were always so busy."
Hope felt so horrible for the things that Maura has had to deal with as a child and as a adult. "I know baby and that's completely understandable. Any body could understand that. Just please don't ever worry about that again. I will always be here for you no matter what."
Maura was still being held by Hope and she did not want to move. "You promise?"
Hope squeezed Maura a little tighter. "I promise."
Hope took her hand and brushed the hair out of Maura's face. She then leaned down and kissed the top of her head. "I love you."
Maura was so happy to know that Hope loved her. "I love you too, mother."
Both of them sat in a comfortable silence. Hope started to play with Maura's hair. She did this till she felt Maura's breathing become even. She looked down to see Maura sound asleep. She smiled at this. She knew the road before them would be long and tough. They still had some stuff to work through but they would be doing it together.
