A/N: Okay, this is my last angst for awhile. Probably. I hope.

The Lake of Souls will drive you to insanity. I guess I was already insane, but.. You get my point.. Gods, what I have done?... I.. I betrayed Darren, murdered an innocent child, left my own son.. I'm a monster... I guess I got what I deserved, didn't I? I know you can't hear me Darren.. But I'm sorry... You know that right?

I'm sorry Darius. You must hate me... You deserve a better father than I ever could've been.. I know these apologies won't fix anything but.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving, I'm sorry for lying, I'm sorry for everything. I love you, son.

Gannen... You were so much more than just my protector.. I'm sorry we didn't win. Things never went according to plan for us, huh? I'm sorry.. Sorry you had to put up with me for so long, sorry I won't get to see you again.. Fuck, we.. we aren't going to see each other again.. I love you...

Annie.. I never should've dragged you into this... I'm sorry.. Take good care of Darius... Okay? Make sure he doesn't... Make sure he doesn't turn out like me.

Darren.. I'm sorry... I'm so fucking sorry... I put you through hell. Fucking hell... Crepsley was right about me.. I'm evil. And look where being evil got me... I'm sorry..

Just.. don't forget about me okay?... And.. please.. Please.. Don't hate me..

A/N: It's nine in the morning, I have not slept, and now I'm sad..