Chapter 12)

She told me everything. It truly hurt too see her like this. How I wish I could wrap my arms around her and protect her from everything bad in this world. Protect her from people like Patrick. But it's just physically impossible, it's times like this I just feel useless and weak. But as hard as it is for me, this is about Clark. Patrick had something special and he took it for granted and he ruined the bestest thing that could of ever happend to him. She gave him a chance to tell the truth and he lied. I hated that this had happened to her, the only reason I moved back home was because the same thing happend with me and Alicia. The last thing i wanted for Lou was for her to feel that type of heartbreak. She still had her head tucked over my shoulder and had buried herself there. She was sitting there quietly and I could start to feel her relax as her shallowed breath hit my neck and the room began to be filled with a comfortable silence.

"I'm so sorry clark, you really don't deserve this" I whispered. I could hear her quietly sniffiling as she took a breath " I just dont understand" she took another deep breathe but on the exhale, she almost let out a hurt laugh "you know, what's worse is, he tried to turn it around on me" she paused and unburried herself from my shoulder and looked straight at me, even though her eyes were red and puffy, she still looked beautiful "He umm-" she continued "He tried to insinuate I was cheating on him with you, I told him you were just a friend but-" and just like that everything else she was saying became a blur to me. 'Just a friend' she said, I can't lie it hurt to hear her say those words, it was like the kiss meant nothing to her, like I meant nothing to her. But maybe I'm just overreacting, right? Am I being selfish about this?

"What's going on here then" I snapped out of it as I heard Nathan waddling towards us from down the hall. It seems his nap had sobered him up. "You alright Lou?" He said as he looked at me then back to her. "Yes, I'm just tired, it's been an emotional week, I think I'll make a cup of tea and head to bed, do you need any help?" ... "Will" ... "Earth to Will"... I must of zoned out again because I had no idea she was talking to me. "Its alright Lou, I've got it" Nathan butted in. She nodded and slowly got up from my lap, Nathan looked at me and nodded with a concerned look across his face.

Before I knew it I was being picked up and placed into bed. I hated this part, as yet again I felt useless, is this what it's going to be like for me for the rest of my life? "Hey man, What's up, are feeling okay" Nathan looked at me with an overly concerned look on his face. I wasnt okay, but this wasn't a health related problem. This was a Louisa Clark problem. "Yes, I'm all good, thank you, just tired, I'll be fine in the morning" he sighed with relief "Alright, well if you need me, just shout, Goodnight Will" "Night, Nathan"

Truth is, I really thought I was okay. I still couldn't feel parts of my body, I had no pains, i had no aches or a temperature. That's when it hit 2.07AM. That's when it happened. I felt a huge burning weight press againts my lungs. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't move. I couldn't do anything. And then everything went black.