All mistakes are mine considerings I wrote almost all of this chapter on the google docs app for iphone.

I'm sorry that Farkle being awake is only mentioned in passing, the next chapter will be at least part of the way Riley/Farkle bc babies. Well honestly Farkle is baby, Riley is an afterthought. But an interesting afterthought (DON'T KILL ME! my outside personality is Riley, my inside personality is Maya) and I love Riarkle although instead of ship-bashing, I bash the ship wars.

Though still crying, Josh began to check his phone. There were so many missed calls, but the majority of them were from Amy. He didn't want her to worry more than she was probably already worried, but he just couldn't talk to her right now. She still wasn't entirely keen on him and Breana together, though she had made peace with it already, after all, he had taken her off the streets from the kindness of her heart. In all honesty, he needed time to process this.

Besides his mother, he had a few missed calls from Topanga as well. The voicemails progressed from wondering how he was to saying that she and Cory were worried about them all.

Dr. Shepherd quietly brought Breana back from getting an MRI and a CT scan, seeing Josh deep in thought. She went to talk to a college to double check the results of the scans before she told Josh. She wanted to be sure, but the pit in her stomach told her that double checking was useless.

Josh sighed. How was he supposed to tell his family what happened? Especially his mother. She was still warming up to Breana, after having been furious at Josh for bringing a complete stranger into their home. But when Josh saw her walking on the side of the road on his way home from the soup kitchen, and almost hit her with his car at that, he knew he couldn't just leave her there. She needed a place to stay, somewhere where she could slowly become herself again. Alan had been glad for more help at the family store, and it was almost like Morgan was living at home again. Key word being almost. Breana and Morgan could never be each other.

Josh made a face at his brain's funny way of putting things. He then shook his head, glancing over at the hospital bed holding his heart before he looked up at the ceiling. "God, how could you- no, how could I have let this happen? I should have been driving- wait, no, that wouldn't have been fair to her. Fuck! I don't know anything anymore!" He screamed, disturbing the peace being the furthest thing from his mind.

Josh stopped berating himself when he heard the familiar clickety clack of crutches going at rapid speed on tile. Riley. It had to be her. She's the only one on crutches that would have reason to visit the room.

"Riley…" Josh whispered, fiercely fighting the urge to cry again. He pushed the other chair out farther so Riley would have more room.

"Uncle Josh." Riley whispered, clumsily plopping down in the extra chair. Josh had to steady her before she fell.

Riley looked up at Josh. "Are you ok? Topher told me that she's pretty bad. They're trying to wake up Farkle now. You were right, he only has a concussion and some scrapes and bruises. Lucas is with Maya again the hospital's will, Smackle is in surgery, and nobody has heard anything about Zay yet. I texted my dad. It's bad, isn't it Uncle Josh?" She rambled on, her eyes pleading with him to say that it wasn't that bad.

Josh couldn't lie to Riley. Even if lying would protect her innocence, nothing was ok. "Yeah, Riley, it's bad. I don't know what I would do if I lost her, but I also wouldn't put myself in her place because she's lost enough."

Riley paused for a moment, chewing on her lip in thought as if Josh had just spoken gibberish. She took a deep breath before speaking. "Do you really love her Uncle Josh?" She stared at him with big brown doe eyes.

Riley's intense stare almost made Josh uncomfortable. "Of course I love her. I'm the one who has been the first person to wake up with all her damn nightmares! Do you know how many times I've sang her to sleep, how many times I've stayed up with her, not because she couldn't sleep, but because she just didn't want to? I should have payed the consequences for transferring colleges late, and gone to Pennbrook this year instead so I could have spent more time with her." Josh sighed. "I wanted to propose to her on this trip. Which the way I planned to do it was probably really cliche, and I'm going to do something else when- if I get to do it. I probably should have asked for the family engagement ring, but mom's still not crazy about her. So I bought my own."

Riley was still looking at Josh, wincing a bit from the force of his words. She opened her mouth to say something but closed it a second later.

osh sighed again. "I'm sorry, that was probably uncalled for. I didn't mean to yell at you." He apologised to Riley.

Riley shook her head. "You have a lot of feelings right now, and it's getting harder for you to hold them all inside. This isn't some soap opera, as much as I love Degrassi and Red Planet Diaries." She sighed. "Do you want to tell me what's wrong with her, or would it be too much for me?"

Josh nodded. "Her arm, is broken, as you can see. Some of her ribs were broken as well. She had to have surgery because of internal bleeding." He sighed, not sure if he should tell Riley the part he was really worried about.

Riley looked at Josh. "There's something else, right? Something that you don't want to tell me either to protect me or you're afraid I'll tell everyone. How bad is it, on a scale from one to ten?" She looked him up and down, and then briefly glanced at the hospital bed.

Josh was dumbfounded at how mature Riley sounded. Just last year she was forcing Maya to watch children's movies. Well she still did that, but she was 16 now. A lot could change in a year. He took a handful of deep breaths. "It's a 10. Well, it's not a 'she's going to die' 10 but rather a 'holy shit what am I going to do' 10. Excuse my language." He chuckled a bit at the idea of apologising for his language. Because even though it was Riley, the idea of apologising for adult language when he was an adult, and had just spent a few months at a college full of adults, seemed utterly ridiculous.

Riley gave him a look, cocking her head to the side. She was confused by his laughter, even if it was only a chuckle, but she shook her head before looking at Josh normally again. "She's pregnant, isn't she? That's why you don't know what to do?" Riley wondered. If she had caught bits of her grandmothers conversations with her mother about the new houseguest at the Matthews residence in Pennsylvania, it didn't matter now.

Josh nodded, his stomach dropping when Riley said that topic out loud. "Yes, she is, kiddo. The baby is only ten weeks along, and its sibling already didn't make it past the embryo stage. The doctor is surprised that I managed to get her pregnant in the first place with how much scar tissue in her uterus."

Riley frowned, sniffing a bit. "Poor little baby. I know what scars are, but is scar tissue? And what does that mean for her getting pregnant?" She asked Josh.

Josh slumped in his chair, emotionally and physically exhausted. "Scar tissue is when your body tries to heal itself, but it's not always a good thing depending on the injury. Scar tissue in her uterus means that it would be hard for her to keep a pregnancy or hard for the embryos to implant. She's had some pretty rough stuff happen to her, Riley. Not everyone's life can be sunshine, sprinkles and rainbows." If he sounded too harsh for Riley he didn't know, he was just trying to keep from breaking down again. Josh had been dating Breana for ten months, and even then he still didn't know everything that had happened to her.

Riley whimpered a little. "I know, Uncle Josh. You know, Maya's my best friend." She sighed.

Josh grunted. "She's had it worse than Maya, Riley! She has nightmares every other night, if not every night!" He just snapped. He didn't mean to, but the fact that Breana had been through that much upset him deeply, and also made her angry at the ones who hurt her. It wasn't Marcus' fault that he had died, but everyone else that had hurt her only had themselves to blame.

"No, Maya doesn't have nightmares but she randomly cries sometimes. I'm just going to go check on Farkle." Riley accepted her crutches from Josh and just left, the clicking of the crutches fading down the hallway.

Josh was seething, red hot anger coursing through his veins. He screamed at the top of his lungs, not wanting to hurt his other hand by punching something. He panted, trying to catch his breath as he collapsed to his knees in a mess of sobs.

Dr. Shepherd rushed in after having been in the hallway. She bent down next to Josh. "Are you alright?" She helped the lanky mess of a mid-sized man off the floor.

Josh hiccuped, trying to breathe even though it felt like no use to do so. "My niece came to visit."

Dr. Shepherd nodded. "Did the conversation not go well?" She asked gently.

Josh shook his head. "She asked how she was, the conversation got heated after Riley guessed that Breana was pregnant. Riley is a lot more mature now but she still doesn't fully understand the real world." He breathed a bit slower, his lungs on fire just like the ache in his heart.

Dr. Shepherd nodded, helping Josh sit in a chair. "I have some news."

"Good or bad?" Joshed questioned, though he knew it was most likely bad.

Dr. Shepherd sighed. "It really depends on how you look at it." She paused for a moment, trying to read Josh's expression. "She has a blood clot. It's in prime vacinity to go to her lungs in about a day, two at most. It's about medium size. We can give her a blood thinner, like Heprin, to break up the clot, but since the baby already isn't doing to well, it could harm him or her. Since you are her boyfriend, and we don't have her parents or anything on hand, the direction of her care ultimately goes to you. The clot could break up on it's own, but it's very risky to leave it untreated with the state of her health, the size of the clot, and how there are less veins for the clot to go through with her legs having been previously amputated." She tried to sound as professional as possible, though her voice wavered slightly.

Josh swallowed. How could he be responsible for one human being, let alone two? "I understand. How long do I have to make a decision?" He avoided looking directly at Dr. Shepherd.

"About twelve hours, because the blood thinner would need time to work." Dr. Shepherd told Josh. "I'll leave you alone to think."

Josh nodded. "Thank you."

Dr. Shepherd sighed. "Don't thank me yet, honey." She walked out of the room to go check on other patients.

My heart totally dropped while I was writing this. I was stuck on it for so long after the first two paragraphs, but then I had a sudden burst of inspiration last night and then had a solid three hours during school to write this because the program I get bused to is on spring break this week but my school is not. It's so annoying but it was worth it for this.

And update on my Boy Meets World watching- I should be finished with the whole series this week if not tonight.