This fic is pretty dark, it will not have a happy ending.

WARNINGS: RAPE OF A MINOR, IMPLIED RAPE, SUICIDE, ALPHA/BETA/OMEGA DYNAMICS, dub-con, physical and mental abuse, twisted S&M relationship (I think?), forced bonding, mentions of mpreg, major character deaths. The individual chapters will mention what warning it contains. If there's a warning I missed, please tell me so I can add it.

Chp 1 WARNINGS: EXPLICIT RAPE OF A MINOR, physical abuse and forced bonding, so if you want to skip that, skip the italics until the /:/:/ in the centre of the chapter appears.

And all the people say,

"You can't wake up, this is not a dream,

You're part of a machine, you are not a human being,

With your face all made up, living on a screen,

Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline."

(HALSEY: GASOLINE)

He'd been feeling ill for quite some time that night. As though his skin was too tight for his frame. Heat curled within his stomach and he'd retreated to his room for privacy when his parents left him alone with his babysitter Kyousuke Higuchi. An older, un-bonded alpha. He hadn't been in there long before he could feel the slick begin to drench his lower half, a yearning welling up within him which he tried to suppress by clutching pillows to his chest. It didn't work, he never thought it would. Events went downhill from there.

Higuchi was quick to enter his room, no doubt able to scent his pheromones from across the house. He never wanted him in there, but the omega within him cried out to be taken. He hadn't realized at the time that when he had attempted to control what was happening, he'd lain instinctively on his stomach in a full submissive pose his rational side screamed at. Higuchi was quick to take advantage.

Within moments he found himself stripped, propped up on pillows and being teased open by Higuchi's tongue, his body instinctively undulating under the stimulation despite his internal cries of 'No, stop!' He stuttered out a quiet plea, despite his omega side begging for it, he didn't want it. He managed to strengthen his voice, repeating the command "Please, stop." Higuchi stilled in his movements, mouth moving away from his opening and drawing an unwanted mewl of discontent at the removal of the wet muscle an earning a dark chuckle in response.

"It's okay baby boy, I know what you need, even if you don't." The alpha straddled his legs, pinning him to the bed and causing his heart to skyrocket even as his pheromones quickly began to release conflicting signals of both arousal and distress. Light was aware of fingers gripping and massaging his skin, despite his heat clawing at his sanity, and begging for him to be taken. "I'll make you feel real good baby." The alpha cooed, just as he slid a finger into Light's leaking hole.

The sudden intrusion caused Light to buck and whimper at the burn, tears beginning to stream from his eyes even as his mind warred with his instincts. Higuchi had pressed a hand down onto Light's lower back, keeping him still despite his squirming, the finger sliding in and out of his ever slickening channel. 'I don't want this. I do want this. Please stop. Don't stop.' He was so lost in the flurry of contradicting thoughts that Higuchi had managed to insert a second finger and it was only brought to attention when the discomfort caused him to whimper. "Higuchi…" He trailed off softly, emotions filling the word with enough dread and pleading for this to stop that he knew Higuchi heard it. The third finger caused him to buck against the pain, once again he was pushed upon the mattress as Higuchi made soft cooing sounds and kissed bruises across Light's back as he worked the three fingers in and out of Light's channel. If the plea to stop was somehow missed in translation, the high scent of distress should have been more than enough.

The removal of the fingers and the sound of a zipper had Light tensing up all over again, though his heat had reduced him to utter vulnerability as it quickly sapped his strength. The blunt head of Higuchi's cock pushed at Light's entrance demandingly causing Light to not only groan but whine at the building pain.

"Higuchi, please stop." He begged, looking over his shoulder for the first time since the ordeal started, locking tearful eyes with the lust blown ones of the alpha upon him. "It…It's too big," He was able to stutter. "Hurts." The last bit was a whine as Higuchi continued to press into him despite the pleas to stop.

Higuchi paused only long enough to utter in a dark tone, even as his hands clenched down in a busing hold on Light's hips. "I'm sure you can take the tip baby, just the tip?" He may have posed it as a question but it was clear he wouldn't take 'no' as an answer, pushing in with a single harsh thrust that wrung a scream from Light at the pain that suddenly engulfed him.

"Take it out. Please take it out. It's too big, it hurts." He cried, voice cracking at the most pain he'd ever experienced in his short life. Higuchi didn't hesitate, pushing in deeper even as he held Light down upon the bed despite his desperate cries for release.

"Shh, you're okay baby. You're fine. You just need a plug, yeah, I'll get you nice and stretched so you're ready to be taken whenever I want." Higuchi muttered even as he bottomed out within Light.

Light's memory was fuzzy from that point on. He remembered the pain of his virginity being stolen away from him, the repeated screams as Higuchi punched his growing knot into Light before shooting his seed deep within Light even as hit bit down harshly upon Light's scent gland, forever marking them as bonded mates. He remembered the hot blood dripping down from the gory wound, hands rolling him to his side as Higuchi pushed his knot in deeper and shot more seed into him. Unwanted fingers tracing his stomach as Higuchi talked about how he couldn't wait to see Light swollen with his pups and that he was willing to try and fuck him pregnant during his first heat.

/:/:/

Light jerked awake from his sleep, heart pounding and pheromones of distress filling the air as he struggled to take in deep even breaths. It wasn't the first time he'd been besieged by that particular nightmare, no, memory. The events that played out within his subconscious mind had actually happened to him, and even after all these years it was still enough to send him into a spiral of depression. The bite mark on his scent gland burned, and even though he knew it was only a figment of his imagination, he couldn't help the whimper of distress that escaped him even as he hunkered down into his pile of amassed soft and furry blanket nest. He'd been only twelve when his 'babysitter' turned rapist and forced bond-mate took advantage of his unexpected first heat and presentation as an omega. Despite the fact that his body craved the other on a painful level, Light had never wanted the events to happen, not that it mattered much back then.

The world was divided up into three separate categories. The beta's, average humans who didn't present when they hit puberty, they made up the majority of the human race. Alpha's, humans who presented with elevated senses and fertility, though they made up a significantly smaller number of humans they held the most control over the way the world was run. Then there the omega's, there was an even smaller population of omega's then there were alpha's and due to that they were frequently discounted as the weaker species. Omega's were highly fertile, and regardless of gender; though males were extremely rare, were able to carry children to full term. They were constantly used and abused by alpha's who saw them as little more than breed mares, and society let them.

For years people looked away when an omega was assaulted by an alpha. Turned deaf ears to the pleas for equality and simply to be heard. Then one day, everything changed. Omegas were counted among the rest of the population, they were given rights, freedom, voices. Too bad it all happened a month after Light was forced into an abusive relationship with an alpha who refused to conform to the new way of life.

As he was wont to do whenever he experienced flashbacks, Light waited until his heartbeat had settled and pheromones settled back into their usual levels before crawling out of his blanket nest and heading from the small cozy bedroom into the kitchen/dining room area of his small apartment. He'd settled down with a fresh cup of hot herbal tea and a stack of blue prints and lists of chemical components, grinning a small rueful smile at the scribbled notes in the borders of his plans. He'd made so many over the course of a few years, each one of them accounting for every possibility he could see becoming an issue. With the way things turned out though, he hadn't needed to use any of them.

He hunkered down into his seat, snuggling deeper into the warm folds of his extra-large hoodie he wore to bed, sipping on his tea as he turned on the early morning news. His eyes narrowed and a scowl formed on his face as he glared at the alpha currently running for leadership of Japan, his competitor a beta, his scowl grew deeper and eyes narrowed to slits even as his hands began to strangle the mug within them when he heard of the alpha's plans for the country. First step, strip omega's of their hard-won freedom and force them to mate with the alpha's to boost declining birthrates. Completely ignoring the fact that the human population hadn't suffered any major blows, he was clearly only thinking of the alpha's out there who'd been imprisoned for attacking omegas.

'You're all just the same. Power hungry monsters hiding behind human faces. You all deserve to die.' His internal voice spat in uttered hatred, and his sneer turned feral in agreement. 'Since the big, bad, powerful alpha has decided to make a last ditch effort at stopping the extinction of his race, he should be more than happy to meet an omega just dying to meet him.' He pushed aside various blueprints and plans before settling on one, tea going cold as it sat forgotten as Light read well into the day.