She is just a girl, a girl who is in way too over her head but doesn't know what to do about it. She's scared, she doesn't know what to do and she doesn't know how she could possible have let herself get into this situation. She's only seventeen years old, still mourning her parents recent death and she's pregnant, almost eleven weeks now with the child of her identical twin sister's ex boyfriend.

Right now with watery eyes, she stands half naked in front of her mirror. Her fingers tips, cautiously and gently brushing over where her lower abdomen protrudes out in a small bump, the bump may be small but now it's more noticeable to her, but probably not too noticeable for people not looking for it and thankfully no one is.

She lets out a breath of air as her eyes narrowing in on it because she's pregnant and that the bump is hardly noticeable doesn't change the fact she is showing. She knows she won't be able to keep it a secret much longer as the bump isn't the only change she's seeing in her body now, she's been feeling more tired, her breast are always sore now and she's pretty sure they've gotten a little bigger, having needed to buy new bras, and she's been throwing up almost every morning. Someone's going to figure it out before she has the courage to tell them, she thinks, probably Jenna or Caroline.

She turns to her side, looking at the bump in the mirror and splaying her fingers over it, thinking about the child growing inside of her and how she got here.

She was stupid, grieving, crazy in love and slightly drunk.

Her parents had just died, she felt like she died with them as she didn't feel very alive after that so Jeremy started to drag her to parties with him to get her mind off the tragic event that stole their parents from them and this party toke place a month after their deaths and started out just like the others. Music was pumping, alcohol and drugs at every turn and she had a red solo cup in hand, having just finished her first drink before she ran into the blond. She had fallen in love with Matt years ago, when they were in third grade, and since then her love only grew. When Matt started dating her sister she was devastated as her heart broke but her for him feelings remained despite herself

She was surprised to see him there but he was now freshly single and could do what he wanted. When he and Elena broke up two weeks ago Alexis honestly was happy because that meant they might finally have a chance. He was only probably at the party to watch over Vicki as he still believed he and Elena would work out, but he ended up pulling Alexis aside and talking with her.

Smiling and joking around as they listened to the music, having a good time together. She doesn't really know what it was that came over her next, maybe it the maybe it was the music thrumming in sync with her heartbeat, maybe it was because she was a little tipsy, maybe because this was finally her chance, or maybe she just wanted to, but one second they were talking and the next second her lips were on his.

He had paused for a moment and just as she was about to pull away he kissed her back, pulling her closer even though he knew it was wrong. She smiled into the kiss, feeling like she was on cloud nine and it was perfect.

The next morning she woke up, naked in his bed, wrapped in his arms. She felt so safe and at home in his arms but as he woke up, they pulled apart and she had thought having sex with him would, giving him her virginity...She lets out a hurt breath...She thought maybe they could be more, that it'd prove to him something, that it would convince him but as she saw the look on his face, she knew he regretted everything and probably just slept with her because she was the closest thing to Elena he could have now. She was hurt, she practically ran out of there as fast as she could and ran back home, thanking god that it was summer and she wouldn't need to see him.

She was heartbroken, tears streaking down her face as she thought of how foolish she was for it all. She curled up in her bed, wanting to call her best friend, Caroline, but couldn't as she was at cheer camp and that only made her cry harder. It wasn't long before her aunt Jenna had come up into her room with a tub of ice cream and two spoons in hand. They sat crossed legged on the bed, eating the chocolate flavored ice cream and crying (Mostly Alexis..Okay just Alexis was crying) as she explained everything that had happened, she can remember Jenna asking her if they used protection and she remembered saying yes but that was not obviously lied, but to be fair she didn't really remember if they had or not, she just assumed they did but as time passed the missed periods and the pregnancy test told her different, told her she was pregnant as well.

She presses her lips together nervously because of how she is going to have to tell people soon, very soon and how they'll react to the news.

Elena...She doesn't think Elena would forgive her for sleeping with Matt so soon after the broke up. She'll be disappointed in Alexis and confused and hurt that she didn't tell her sooner but in the end she thinks Elena will be there for her and help her figure it all out.

Her brother..Jeremy would feel guilty for taking her to that party but other than that she thinks he would be to high to actually care much and if he did he'd talk down to her or go off at Matt.

Jenna, she will be angry and upset because the woman has hardly been coping taking care of the three of them but add a baby that might be too much for her. Though she can see Jenna be a little excited despite herself.

Caroline has her suspicions already so she won't be too surprised. Caroline would probably buy every baby book in Mystic Falls and be so excited about it, helping her through everything.

Matt's reaction, she has no idea how he'll react because of how complicated it is and how she thinks he only wanted her because she looked just like her sister, not because he wanted her. She still loves him and objectively she knows Matt is a good guy and will do what is right by her and the baby...she hopes but whatever happens she is going to love this child with everything she is. She is nervous about everything has to give up though and things she won't be able to do now but in the end she knows it will be worth it. She has to start telling people but she's so scared yet she needs to tell them. She shakes her head as her hands drop from her stomach to her sides before she turns around and walks over to her wardrobe she shares with her sister before pulling out an outfit.

She dresses quite unlike herself but not to unlike herself that too many people will notice. Her hair is thrown up into a high messy ponytail rather then of spending hours curling her hair or taking time to straighten it, flat shoes on her feet rather than heels but other than that her usual attire doesn't change, she wears shorts, a causal t-shirt and a loose jacket that pulls her outfit bump is only slightly visible but to anyone that would notice it, it just looks like she gained a little weight. She looks back to the mirror, taking in a deep breath, looking herself over once more before a small smile is on her lips even though the stress for today still lingers, knowing she will see him today. She ducks her head, deciding no matter what she will tell at least one person today, before heading down stairs for her first day back at school, the starting of a new year.

Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed and want to read more! Let me know what you think and any suggestions! (also imagemanger is down rn so i cant upload the proper cover photo but i will asap) so obviously she's going to be telling some people in like the next chapter or 2 (she def needs to tell Jenna so she can see a doctor)

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