Chapter one Beast boys memory

I sit here every day breaking a little more with each minute that ticks by each time the clock ticks a little more of me dies. I feel like my heart is getting broken into a thousand pieces why can't i just forget or better yet will it just shatter already leaving me with no emotion. It would be better if i could just go to sleep and never wake up never see the light of another empty day. I feel like a caged up animal that wants nothing more to do with anything. The only escape from this empty feeling of loneliness i just want to belong somewhere anywhere as long as i truly belong. I guess i should find something to eat among this faceless town with people running around not taking the time to appreciate what they have or to even take notice of anything around them.

Raven woke up as from a nightmare thinking to herself whose thoughts had she just accidentally taped into where they memories a dream. She focused her mind on who was thinking these lonely thoughts perhaps Robin she focused on his mind he was dreaming about Starfire in a very sexual way she left quickly I wish I didn't see that. Next would be Cyborg he was dreaming about the next upgrade on his car or baby as he called it. Raven thought it couldn't possibly be Starfire she was always so happy but Raven had to make sure she was okay. She focused Starfires alien brain was always difficult to get into once inside her dream she saw Starfire dreaming about getting married to Robin she had recently discovered about marriage an earthy custom. Raven left her a smile on her face of course nothing could be bothering the alien princess but that leaves only Beast boy the prankster of the team. "I'm not looking forward to his mind" she thought outloud she brought herself to focus yet again she wandered into Beast boys dream he was in a wandering around the streets of jump city with the mask on that he had been wearing when they had first met him. He looked pitiful as she saw him rummaging in a bin looking for food he had found half a cheeseburger it was still warm she felt his hunger and was surprised to see him through it to one side. She know he was a vegetarian but this level of hunger would have made anyone want to eat anything even her own cooking which was inevitable. He then found nothing else in the bin and walked away the smell of the burger filled his nose he looked back at it one last time before moving on.

She left his dream confused to what she had just seen she then realized this wasn't a dream but a memory. She left her room and wandered into the common room she made herself a herbal tea this wasn't the first time a teammates dreams had awake her by mistake. She had been in just about every ones in the titan tower even visitors. She never did this on a purpose she respected everyone had the right to their own privacy. She then thought to herself even though this had been the case so many times she had never been in Beast boys memory not once. His nightmares a few times after the Beast had came out as he was fearing that he would hurt his teammates again but other than that Beast boys dreams had always been quite. She then went back to bed she struggled to get back into a peaceful sleep as her mind was racing with thoughts she decided to meditate instead as this would clear her mind.

The following morning was just like any other even though she had been the last one to wake up which was rare but the titans know that it was best not to question when this happened. She walked into the common room Robin was drawing up some ideas for some training exercise they would have to all do. Starfire was eating well something with Starfire it was always like she just throw everything she got her hands on in one pot and ate it. Cyborg and Beast boy was having their usual banter about meat and tofu as they ate. She started to make her usual tea and toast as she stared at Beast boy he seemed his usual self. He was spitting the odd bit of tofu from his mouth as he was telling Cyborg that he needed to at least try the tofu. She smiled thinking how many times had she seen this exact scene just then the toser blow up. They all turned to face Raven in her usual monotone "sorry I'll replace it" everyone just shrugged it off and laughed.

Robin looked at her jokingly "well that's one way to stop them from arguing" hinting towards Cyborg and Beast boy. The boy wonder had become a lot more softer after gettting with Starfire at last I mean it took them long enough as Cyborg had said a many a time since.

Raven would never say it out loud but she was happy for them she had seen them both change ever so slightly since getting together. In her usual monotone "I'm going to meditate before I end blowing up the titan tower" she smile slightly at the last part she went to her room ever since defeating her father she was far more relaxed with her had taken her some time to get used to this but now it seemed more natrul to her it would take more time to agust too just how much she could feel without her power blowing things up but she know with the support of her friends she would get there.