This was inspired by Silver Queens Dreaming Of Sunshine. I have so many ideas for this story, but any suggestions you have I would love to hear. Would also love to hear any feedback (:

I have added things here and there to chapters 1-6 right now, which I will be updating the other chapters, tonight and tomorrow. I hope they're a bit better now than they were. If you still feel that they need more please let me know, and I will fix them.

All I could feel was pain, and confusion. So much pain and confusion. I had no idea what was going on. I could hear shouting and screaming, but I wasn't sure why there was shouting and screaming. And I couldn't see anything, couldn't open my eyes. I could barely feel myself being yanked up. Then someone yelling in my face. I couldn't tell what they were saying. It was pretty much muffled sounds. What was happening? I had to remember. I couldn't though. I was starting to feel tired. It was hard to stay awake. I tried to fight it but it was so hard. So I finally gave up and fell into nothing.

When I came to I was aware. Aware that I could feel nothing, could see nothing, there was just nothing. Any senses I once had were now gone. I couldn't even panic. I was aware and that was it. I had no sense of time so I had no idea how long I had been in the darkness until I saw light. I pushed myself to it, trying to reach it. I immediately regretted it though because now I could feel. Pain. I could feel more pain. The light was supposed to be a safe haven, not cause me more pain. I started to cry. When would this end? Was I being punished? All I could feel was a painful pressure, and then nothing. No more pain. Which now made me scared. I still couldn't see but I could hear a jumble of voices. I couldn't make out what they were saying. Why was it so dark though? It then hit me. I opened my eyes, and had to quickly shut them again. It was too bright. I tried opening them again, but slowly this time.

I looked around. It was a hospital. What was I doing in a hospital? I realized I was being held? I noticed a woman was in the hospital bed. She was beautiful. She had long straight dark blue hair and forest green eyes. There was a man next to her. He had black hair and eyes and very bushy eyebrows. I looked back at the woman. She looked sweaty and tired, like she had just given birth.

That's when I realized. I was a baby. I had no doubt been reincarnated, with all of my past life memories. I started to panic. I was scared. I couldn't do anything else but cry. And that's exactly what I did, cried. I wailed. At some point I was aware I was put into my new mothers arms, but I couldn't stop crying. I cried because I now remembered what happened. How I died. How I lost everything and was expected to just start over, with all of my old memories. I cried because I didn't know if my little brother was alive or not, didn't know if I managed to save him, it all happened so fast. The truck that didn't stop at the light, all of the other cars that were around. It had been pretty busy. There were cars coming from different ways, there was no way to escape it. It had all been in slow motion. I looked at my brother in the back seat, he was yelling my name, and he looked terrified. I didn't think, I just yanked my seat belt off, and threw myself onto him. It all happened so fast and before I had knew it I was yanked away from my baby brother and thrown threw the windshield. I now hoped so badly that he made it, that he was alright. He had been with me, it had been my job to protect him. And I hoped that what I did worked, even if I lost my life, so he could live. I was older. I was 22 and he was 12. He still had so much to live for and expierience. But I knew I would never know, I could only hope.

I finally stopped crying. I was now tired. I saw that they brought a child in. He looked to be only a year old, and a lot like my new dad. So I could only guess he was supposed to be my new brother. I inwardly grimiced. He only smiled at me though. A bright, loving smile. I instantly felt bad. None of this was his fault. It wasn't any of their faults. So it wouldn't be fair to punish them for it. I knew there wasn't anything I could do about it, so I just had to put the past behind me.

After a few days in the hospital my mother and I were realeased. My brother was estatic. It was rather cute. I hated being a baby though. Relying on others to take care of me, because I couldn't take care of myself. And don't even get me started on the diapers.

It wasn't really that bad with my new family. I was starting to like them. Especially my older brother, who I now knew as Lee. He was always playing with me, so I was never bored. Everything changed though when I was just around 3 weeks old. Everything fell apart. At first I had no idea what was going on, but I only had to hear one word, just one word only. Kyuubi. That was a word I recognized in a language I had no idea how to speak. That also meant I was in Naruto. I was scared.

My mom burst into the nursery, and grabbed me as gently as she could. She met up with my father who had my brother who I now knew was Rock Lee. Which meant that my new parents would die. I started to cry again.

I was sure they were taking us somewhere safe. I stopped crying, so I could look at my mom. She was young and beautiful. I knew she couldn't be any older than 23. Then I looked at the goofy man I had come to accept as my father. He wasn't much older then my mom. I felt so sad and heartbroken. I would be losing even more loved ones. It had only been 3 weeks but I had accepted them as my new family, and they were being ripped away from me, so quickly.

They dropped Lee and I off somewhere where other children were. I didn't want them to leave. But there wasn't anything I could actually do about it. I was a damn baby. I was placed in a nursery with other babies. My mom craddled me one last time. She said something to me, but all I caught was Hotaru. I worked out at some point that that was my name, cause they said it often, and it was always towards me.

The hours ticked by, I held onto hope that they would come back. That is when I felt it. Kyuubi's chakra. It felt like fire burning through me. The other babies started crying. I wanted to as well but I was frozen in fear. The chakra felt suffocating. It lasted well into the night. Being paralyzed with fear. What if he came our way? There was nothing we could do, and I would die all over again. Time slowly ticked by and the chakra went away, meaning he had been sealed in Naruto. Poor innocent Naruto.

That day our parents never came back, and Lee and I were sent to the orphanage. Lee cried. He wanted our parents. I knew he didn't understand. He was still a baby himself. But me. I just stayed quiet. I felt empty.

Through the years Lee and I stayed together in the orphanage. Never leaving each others side. And I started to work on my chakra control. By the time I was 5 I was able to sense other peoples chakra, and stick things to myself using my chakra. Lee and I didn't have friends in the orphanage, but it didn't matter because we had each other. It was probably because Lee was a little ball of energy, and the other kids were scared of me, because a few months ago, an older kid had been bullying Lee. So I bit him, and refused to let go. After that the other kids stayed away from us.

When Lee turned 8 he signed up to go to the academy. He had been so excited. I dreaded it though. I wasn't sure if they tested chakra control on the first day or not, but even so it would be soon. It hurt to know that I could use chakra and Lee couldn't the way I could. But I also knew that he was determined. Very determined. It wouldn't stop him from becoming a great ninja, but I would still push him when he needed it. I would make sure he succeeded. What kind of sister would I be if I didn't? A bad one, that's what.

When it came time for Lee to start at the academy I felt sick. By now Lee and I lived on our own. Since Lee was now an academy student the village helped us by letting us live in our own apartment, they paid for everything we needed for now, but when Lee became a ninja it would be his responsibility, because he would be getting his own income. Until then the Hokage gave us a monthly check, just enough to live off of for two children.

The morning Lee would be going to the academy, I went with him to see him off. He was very excited. He chattered with me the whole way there. My heart twisted painfully. If they tested it today like I thought they would then Lee would be so heartbroken, and that was definitely not something I was looking forward to.

Once Lee went into the academy, I decided to walk home slowly. I had a lot to think about. Like how to try to cheer Lee up when the time came. Which would most likely be later today. And what would I do about my chakra? Should I hide the fact that I had it, would anyone be able to tell? I wasn't sure. I could think about that later though. I didn't have to stress it right now, since I wouldn't be going to the academy until next year. But then again I didn't have to become a ninja.

That made me stop. Of course I have to. I was a huge fan of Naruto, in my old world. I knew so many things that were going to happen. So many things I could stop. So many people I could help. Sasuke. I could help Sasuke. I could stop him from going to Orochimaru. It probably won't be easy, but I could do it. I knew I wouldn't be able to stop the seal from being placed, but I could help him. I would help him.

I started walking again. That was it then. That was my plan. What would drive me. I could could save so many people. I could do it. I can't stop everything. But I could do something and that's what counted to me.

I made it back home rather quickly, and decided to practice with my chakra. I still couldn't really do much honestly, just the same senseing and sticking things to myself. After awhile I stopped. I was extremely bored without Lee. I wasn't used to being without him.

I made my way to our small bathroom. Sometimes I liked to stare at my reflection, and see the huge difference between my old self, and me now. It also kept me thinking about my old life. I used to tell myself to forget but I couldn't. I didn't want to. I wanted to remember, even if I told myself that I didn't. In this life I had long straight black hair like my father, and forest green eyes like my mother. I was glad I had features of both of my parents, and wasn't like Lee who really just looked like he was dad's much shorter twin. In my old life I had had curly blonde hair, and brown eyes. I actually liked how I looked in this new life then I did in my old one.

After that I went into my room, and laid on my bed. I thought about my past life. I had still wondered if my little brother made it. And I wondered what happened to my friends and family after my death. A part of me actually felt guilty because I was actually happy to be here. I was happy with my new but broken little family. But I also felt like I was replacing my old brother with my new one. I hated it. I loved my old brother, of course. I actually died for him, but I really loved Lee as well. I honestly felt like a traitor, because Lee was my family now. My old life was gone, and it wasn't fair to Lee if I kept holding onto it. I knew I shouldn't keep thinking of my past, but it was hard. Sometimes I just couldn't help it.

Hours later I heard the front door open. I stiffened. I knew it was Lee. I got up off of my bed, and went to the living room. The way I saw him, all slouched over and defeated, and.. broken. It was heart wenching. He slowly came over to me and hugged me. He had a tight grip but at that moment I didn't care.

"What happened?" I knew fully well what happened but he didn't know that.

"I can't use chakra, like everyone else." He said in almost a whisper. "I can't be a ninja. they told me I can't fight with just Taijutsu. That I wouldn't make it." He sounded heartbroken and defeated.

I pushed him away from me at arms length, and gave him a hard stare.

"And why not?"

He just gave me a blank stare.

"There is no rule saying that you can't be a ninja just using Taijutsu."

"But it's unheard of." He aruged.

"Well then I guess you better get to working on it then."

He had tears in his eyes. "You think I can do it?"

I softened my expression. "I know you can, if you're determined and dedicated enough. You can do anything you put your mind to. If you want to be a ninja, then you're going to be a ninja. No matter what anyone says. I believe in you. You should believe in yourself too."

Lee's quiet crying suddenly turned into loud wailing sobs, as he crushed me in a bone crushing hug. I stuggled to break free. "Thank you my little firefly!" I smiled at his nickname for me. My name meant firefly.

Lee ended up taking what I said to heart, and went back to his crazy and determined self. That also meant that he would make me train with him, which in a way I didn't mind, becuause I just wanted him to be happy, and training made him happy, and gave me a head start, so I was okay with that. I would endure anything to make him happy. Which I know sounds like a bit much, but he was my brother and I loved him. I just hoped I would be able to help others as well.