Hey #EmisonBabies How's life? This was inspired by Emison sneak peeks and may different a little bit. Emily and Ali are having a talk in 7x11 7x12 so its a mixture of those scenes. Enjoy. Hasn't been proof read yet so mistakes may be present.

'Ali, that day you kissed me - was that because you wanted to or because you didn't want me to leave?' Emily questioned

'Honestly? I-I don't know.' Came the blondes answer

Emilys heart had been drumming against her ribs during this whole confrontation with Alison but now as they stood there in Alison's living room it was threatening to come out her mouth along with the contents of her stomach. Closing her eyes for a brief moment to gather her thoughts she inhaled deeply. Not that doing this particularly in the presence of Alison ever worked. The swim coach could never really catch her breath with Alison. She was just so damn beautiful god damn infuriating all at once. One minute Emily would catch herself staring dreamily at her from down the opposite end of the hallways at RHS. The next she was minutes away from wanting to tear out all of her hair when the blonde opened her mouth to make a snarky comment about Paige.

'Hello, Emily?' Alison said

Emily blinked rapidly a few times as reality set back in. Somehow thinking about Alison always sent her mind on a tangent and it was hard for her to focus.

'Sorry. What were you saying?' The brunette said setting her attention back to the English teacher.

'This isn't your problem'

In that moment the blonde looked defeated but indifferent at the same time. It seemed to Emily that the blonde had come to expect nothing less than rejection and ill faith from everyone around her.

'Remember what I said the other night? I support you, whatever you decide.'

'It's late you should go. I have to get up early in the morning.'

"Why do you do that?'

'Do what?' Alison deadpanned

'Ali, come on.' Emily began as if it was completely obvious 'Why is it you push away anyone that gets close to you? Whenever someone shows any signs of caring about you or even loving you, you swat them away like a they're a bug?"

'It's just easier that way.'

The brunette's harsh facial expression softened at the blondes admition 'It's also really lonely Ali. '

The blonde was silent, her eyes searching the room if only to avoid staring into those same warm brown eyes that had always been her safe haven.

'It saves time.' Alison sighed heavily. 'How can anyone possibly care about me Emily? I'm a knocked up hot mess of an English teacher whose bastard husband stole all my money and ran off leaving me to pick up the pieces of what's left of my life.' Alison voice cracked 'I'm damaged goods Emily. My life's over. All I have is my job. I'm nothing no one...to anybody.'

Emily could see that the teacher needed comforting, reaching out her hand she took hold of Alison's wrists as she rung her hands together fidgeting uncomfortably with her own fingers. "Ali. Please don't say that. None of that is remotely true!'

Alison met Emily's gaze 'It is Em. I have to face facts. I brought this all on myself. I have no one else to blame but myself.' Looking down at her hands in Emily's sent shivers up her spine and not in a good way.

She had wanted this...them together for so long, in fact as far back as she could remember she had wanted it. To have Emily there and with her, forever. Now everything was twice as hard and twice as complicated as before when they were only children. Stroking the brunette's hand with her thumb she spoke again.

'I need you Em. I really need you but I cant do this to you again. I can't drag you into my messed up life. You don't deserve it. You deserve to live a life free of worries and complications with a woman you love. I wish I could be her but I cant. I can't give that to you.'

'What are you talking about?'

'I'm saying, I have feelings for you.'

Emily almost choked 'What?'

'I have feelings for you Emily. I always have but it's. clearly too late. I hate myself for taking so long to realise it but...I love you. Which means you have to leave. You can't stay here with me in my house anymore. If you stay here much longer I'm going to want to kiss you again and share my bed with you and sit across from you at the breakfast table and carpool with you to work. I cant be around you and keep my hands off you. I love you. I dont trust myself with you Emily,'

Emily was gobsmacked at this sudden outpouring of Alison's. did she really just admit to being in love with her? Did she admit to wanting a better life for her than what Alison could possibly give her if they were to become a real couple?

'Ali I-I dont know what to say.'

'You dont have to say anything, but I need you to be gone. I'll help you make other arrangements to move out if you'd like?"

Emily shook her head 'If that's what you really want then...i'll go.'

'I dont want you to but I think it's for the best. I have to deal with things' she gestured to her stomach that had yet to grow a noticeable baby bump 'on my own first and I cant do that if you're here.'

'I understand.' Was all Emily said before exiting the room with one last word 'I only wish you'd let me help you. That's all. Goodnight'.

HOPE YOU LIKED IT :) I WAS INSPIRED BY THE NEW SNEAK PEEKS OF #Emison leave me a review ok?

Many thanks #LittleArmyOfBabes

-Nat xx