I know this is late, VERY LATE but my new partner in crime Charm 1355 and I have been writing a shared story Lightening the path which I hope you will check out. I have sad message to you the end is upon us. I have finished the story. There are no more chapter but this, as I don't feel I can write more without going in circles. Thanks a to all you wonderful readers, a special thanks to those who reviewed and thanks for all the support.

I fell, Kanan fell, everyone fell, what was happening?

"Kallus, let go on your pain or your mind will destroy both of us" Kanan screamed to me.

"How?" I screamed.

"Reach within and let go of your pain" Kanan screamed.

I tried to focus, but it was difficult when you were falling. I closed my eyes and reached within but I found nothing.

"Concentrate, relax" Kanan told me.

I tried to reach further within and there I suddenly felt it. I was filled with pain, not just physical but also mental, I hurt. I opened my eyes and saw that it was only Kanan and me know falling in a seemingly endless hole that only contained of darkness. 'Let go' Kanan had said … how? It was like that he sensed my question.

"Reach within let go of the pain" Kanan called.

I closed my eyes and tried to do as he had said. I was immediately flooded with pain. I screamed, it was like trying to let go of the pain only made it worsen. Even so I tried to let go of the pain, but it was not easy. Slowly the pain started to leave me. All the suddenly Kanan and I landed on the ground hard. I groaned but then noticed something else, the pain had dimmed, I did not hurt as much now that I was finally aware of the pain.

"Well done Kallus. I just don't hope your mind has taken to much damage. It was literally trying to tare itself apart" Kanan said.

I looked at him with worries and confusion at him and even a little bit of shame. After all this was a man that I brought in for interrogation and later torture and when I had tried to help them I had sent Thrawn straight to the base.

"You have questions and you feel guilt" Kanan said as a matter a fact.

I glared at him uneasy, Jedi force abilities had always been a mystery to me and I did not like it when they used it on me.

"Easy Kallus I am not here to hurt you" Kanan said right on que.

"How do you know these things? How can you see? What is going on? How are we here? How did you get here? Kanan please I am so confused" I blurred out before I managed to control myself.

I hated myself for sounding so weak and unmoving, and even … I winched a bit like Bridger when he threw a million question at people.

"Easy Kallus you need to try to relax this stress is not good for you. To answer you I can sense your emotions so I know how you feel. You are scared and confused and therefor very jumpy right now. I can see because this is happening in the mind, it is just images inside your brain nothing more. I entered your mind because it was tearing itself apart and you were in dire need of help" Kanan answered calm.

I thought about for a few minutes before my shame took over me.

"You should not have done that. I don't deserve your help" I said in shame.

"And why is that Kallus?" Kanan asked calmly.

"Because it was my fault Thrawn found you" I said and looked down in shame.

"How?" Kanan asked me carefully.

"I found out Thrawn had called a meeting I wasn't invited too. I spied on it and found out that Thrawn knew about the planned attack. I decided to warn you but it was a trap. Thrawn found me and caught off my signal so nothing went through, I am sorry" I said looking down with shame burning in my cheeks.

"You did not know it was a trap Kallus. You tried to help us and you did. Had it not been for you we would have done the attack and then there would be no rebellion left. We can't beat him in open battle as we found out when he attacked us on Atallon" Kanan argued.

"No, you don't understand he found you because of me. Thrawn traced my signal and then crossed it with the flight pattern of Dodonna's fleet it is all my fault" I said angrily and full of guilt.

"It seems like it was with good intensions you made your way and it did work Kallus. Some of your message went through giving us a small warning. If not for that we would have been slaughtered by Thrawn" Kanan protested.

"How can you defend me for leading Thrawn to your base?" I protested angrily even though the anger more came from guilt than being angry at the Jedi.

"I am just pointing out what you apparently cannot see yourself" Kanan answered. I rolled my over the choice of word but I did not really wish to speak against him. After all I had been doing horribly things to him. Why would the man even defend him? Suddenly the ground started to shake a bit.

"Kallus stop, your guilt is close to consuming you. As I said your mind is overreacting and tearing itself apart. You must stay relaxed" Kanan said.

I look around and nodded and tried to slow down the breathing trying to do as the Jedi suggested. As I got more relaxed the ground stopped shaking. "Better" Kanan said.

"I still don't understand why do you help me? I just told you that I lead Thrawn to your base" I protested.

"Kallus you tried to help us and as I said had you done nothing we would have been slaughtered by Thrawn why won't you see that?" Kanan asked quietly.

"I .. I can't. I don't deserve after everything I have do to all of you, what I did to you in that room" I mumbled.

Kanan looked at me for a long time before he spoke again. When he did he extended his hand to me.

"Come on Kallus. I think you should see what I went through after you left" Kanan told me.

"Why?" I asked confused.

"I want you to know exactly what you did and did not do" Kallus answered me.

I was hesitant to follow, but I got a feeling that this was not really something I had a choice in.

"Okay" I said.

I took his outstretched hand suddenly I found myself a long hall filled with doors.

"How? Where? What?" I asked surprised.

"I have taken you to my mind because I want to show you a small piece of what they did to me when I was captured and after you left" Kanan answered me.

"I can guess pretty well myself. Why do you wish to show that to me? I would think that it is painful for you" I protested.

"It is but there is something I want you to observe" Kanan replied.

Kanan opened a door and screams of pain filled the hall as we stepped into an interrogation room where Kanan stood strapped to an interrogation table with the Inquisitor letting his lightsaber run up and down of Kanan. My eye's widened as I saw this, this was not standard interrogation. I had been present at several interrogations, some had involved torture but never to the extent where you exposed people to burning their skin off.

"Any information?" Grand Moff Talkin walked in asking.

The Inquisitor stopped making Kanan stop screaming but whimpered and fell forward in his restrains.

"None, I truly starts to believe he doesn't know anything" the Inquisitor replied.

"Or perhaps your methods are just not strong enough. I suggest that you up your game. I don't care what remedy you use just get this so called Jedi to talk" Tarkin snapped and walked out.

The Inquisitor walked over and activated the metal rote and upped the volume, my eyes widen when I saw what he dialled in.

"Last chance Jarrus" the Inquisitor said to the trapped Kanan.

The trapped version of Kanan did not say anything, just stood at the table trying to catch his breath. Then the electricity sparked to life and Kanan screamed and pulled desperately trying to get away from it. Suddenly the man felt unconscious and everything turned black and we stood in the hallway again.

"Wait what happened?" I asked confused.

"It was my memory so with me out cold, we can't see anything else from it" Kanan said but I noticed how pale he had become.

"Tell me Kallus, what did you just saw?" Kanan asked after a short break. "I saw you being tortured fiercely by the Inquisitor and on the orders from Tarkin" I answered.

"Good, anything else?" Kanan asked.

I looked confused at Kanan unsure of what he was asking about.

"No I didn't see anything else" I said confused.

"Exactly" Kanan replied.

"I am not sure that I follow" I said.

"I was tortured by the Inquisitor, not you, it was ordered by Tarkin, not you. Even back then you tried to be decent. You tried to talk me into giving up the information and giving me a truth serum. There is a long way from that too torture" Kanan said.

"That doesn't excuse what happened here" I replied confused.

"No but it tells a story about a man who did what he believed was right and tried to avoid being corrupted in a place where, so many has given in. That was why you were willing to change your perception and help us, was it not?" Kanan asked me.

I was a bit taken back by the comment and was not sure how I could reply to that remark. "Listen Kallus your future is changing and very uncertain, you need to let go of the self-blaming. I am talking from personal experience when I say it doesn't help" Kanan continued.

"I assume you mean the fall of the Jedi order" I said carefully, knowing it was most likely a touchy subject.

"Indeed. I blamed myself for it. I kept thinking what I might had been able to do differently. I wished I had stayed with my master, so I would not see her die because of me" Kanan replied in a low and sad voice. "My whole way of living gone in matters of days, my master killed and suddenly I was an enemy of the state. I dared not sleep afraid someone would find me and hand me over to the authorities. To survive I started stealing and going into the criminal underworld. Your kind of can't get a normal job when you are wanted. Through it all I could only think of how much it was my fault. I tried to drink the pain away and yet the more I drank the more I seemed to think on her. Always asking why? Why did I live? It should have been her to survive, not me and without me she would have. It was first when I meet Hera I finally turned around. She managed to convince me there was another way of living" Kanan told me.

I thought about what he had said to me and he seemed to just stand their waiting for me.

"You think I blame myself like you do and should try to make peace with it" I concluded.

"Well I hope you will, but it is up to you. Only you can forgive yourself. If you wish so then you can blame yourself that Thrawn outsmarted you, and found us for the rest of your life, or you can see it as you tried warn us and because of that we weren't massacred" Kanan replied.

I looked thoughtful at Kanan. I had to admit he had a point. I could tell he understood where I came from and how hard such change could be. As I stood reflecting on this I also started to see how similar we were. We were both educated for war, both had our would turned upside down, both struggling to adapt, and both has suffered for our belief. I then reflected on what he had said about forgiving of myself. It was true that I had tried to warn them but it was also true that I had lead Thrawn to them. Perhaps I was not willing to forgive myself that just yet but perhaps I could work towards earning my own forgiveness by helping the rebellion. At least I had to admit that self-blaming was not helping.

"Thank you I replied softly.

"You are welcome" I replied.

"You are welcome after all I kind of knows what you have been through. We are a bit alike" Kanan replied to me.

I nodded my head in agreement as he confirmed my suspicion of why he was willing to talk about his experience despite it being painful. Kanan could relate to what I was going through.

"Now if you are ready, you should wake up. Zeb is very worried, and Ezra must be tired of trying to keep our hearts steady" Kanan said.

"What do you mean that Ezra is trying to keep our hearts steady?" I asked confused.

"Ezra has tried to keep our hearts at a steady rate to prevent us from dying" Kanan explained. I stared shocked at him.

"I can't imagen he would do that for me. I doubt he is happy with that task" I replied.

"No but he accepted the task even if reluctantly" Kanan replied to me.

"Then I better say thank you" I replied sighting. Being in debt to Bridger did not set good on me.

"Now focus and try to find your way back" Kanan said.

I closed my eyes and was suddenly whirling through a colourful maze before everything turned black.

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Zeb was sure that he would soon burn a whole through his walking, which would not please Hera, but he could not help it. Kanan had been crying out but then it had passed only for him to sit completely still, while Kallus had been laying on the ground and he neither had made a sound or noise. Ezra had confirmed that they were stable, but it just not did anything to keep his worries down. Finally, Kanan started to stir before he woke up and started to stretch. "Kanan" he greeted in relief. Kanan smiled to him reassuringly.

"Kallus should be awake very soon, but he will be in a lot of pain" Kanan told him.

"Thanks" he said. All three of them turned as Kallus made a low growl.

O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O

Ow it hurt, everything hurt. It was excruciating painful to return to conscious, but I finally managed to do so. I opened my eyes and found Zeb, Bridger and Kanan staring at me. I tried to say something but all I got was a painful mourn.

"Easy Kallus, you need rest. You are badly hurt" Zeb said in a worried voice.

"I know, but I need to talk to …" I tried before a coughing fit interrupted me.

"Talk to who? Who are you going to talk to? To betray us?" Ezra growled.

I glared at the young man, even though his question was not entirely unexpected or unfair.

"No … but your safety standard is somewhat lacking. Thrawn found you … because I tried to warn you and he traced my signal and crossed it with Dodonna's fleet …. which he was able to because there was no safe jumps … to avoid such things" I replied all though I was having a hard time to catch my breath.

Kallus, Zeb and Ezra all stared at me.

"Okay I get Dodonna, but after that you need rest. You are still far from well" Kanan said and left the room.

As Bridger mumbled something that could be understood as an apology and I … gulp thanked him, he left too leaving me with Zeb.

"Glad you made it" Zeb said.

"Me to. Thank you, Garazeb Orrelius" I replied.

"Just Zeb Kallus" Zeb said.

I smiled at that and Zeb smiled back before he left and I leaned back and tried to rest before I would meet the rebel leader. I was not ready to forgive myself as of yet, but perhaps I could take the first step to do so with this meeting. With this happy thought I leaned back and waited with a small smile around my mouth.

A/N Question for you my dear readers. Would you be interested in a similair story for Kanan set during Rebels Resolve and Fire Across the Galaxy. I am thinking about it but don't know if people would be interested.