Ah. I'm writing another story…Ehehehe. Sorry?

Anyway, this is my first different gender thing. I was way too inspired by Yaoi stuff… Warning- So it may contain yaoi in the future or might turn out gen. Honestly, I have no idea. I'll go where this story leads me. Slight transgender mention.

Disclaimer- KHR is NOT mine. If you thought it was, well, you've got a bad eye sight.

Sawada Tsunayoshi was not always Sawada Tsunayoshi. He knew that. He had always known that. He also knew that he wasn't always a 'he' but he didn't really mind that. He had once been Hinata Hyuuga, a person thought to be shy with an admiration for someone strong. A person who once wished to take in the strength of will of the person she admired had. A person who once thought she loved that man.

They couldn't be more wrong.

Hinata Hyuuga wasn't who she showed herself as but she knew herself better than anyone. She had a legitimate stuttering problem, not just because she was shy. She had loved her sister, Hanabi enough to show herself as a failure, almost kill herself, to keep a status quo with her clan of inbred idiots. She admired a person who could be the light, a person who could openly show who he truly was. She was in love with him until the Forth Shinobi War ended, her beloved cousin died, and she was on the verge of dying. But she was too far away from a medic and she had no chance to survive. She died alone on the battlefield watching and despising the way the man she thought she loved chased after Sasuke instead of the people he lead to death and victory.

She had been wrong, she realized, watching the man she had supposedly loved, walk away. She had never been in love with a man. She had loved the ideal of freedom. But she had been chasing the wrong thing. She hadn't realized her greatest mistake till her death. And she watched as Kiba found her and cried tears, living in denial and trying to save her. Watched as Shino sat beside her bleeding body and held her hand, giving her chakra, a few other insects going to collect Sakura or Tsunade but she knew he had already calculated her chance of survival. Kiba held her wound and she gave him a sad smile. She had really been blind, hadn't she? She chased after freedom and loyalty when she already had them with her team.

She remembered the way she lifted her hand and pressed it against Kiba's hand on her wound and smiled at him softly. She remembered sitting up stiffly, even as her blood flowed more this way. She leaned against Kiba's chest and gave a light kiss on his chin, even as tears flowed out of her eyes. She had never really loved Naruto but she had probably never loved Kiba either. But he deserved it, didn't he? He had given her his heart and loyalty. How could she not repay that?

"I've been blind." She almost laughed at the irony, a blind Hyuuga. "I've never truly seen you. But don't stay stuck on an idiot like me, okay?" Kiba almost swallowed his tongue in surprise.

"You…know?" Her breath came lighter and she gave a huffing laugh and leaned more heavily on Kiba.

"Thank you….Kiba….Shino…Sorry for…..being such an….idiot." Her whisper was barely audible but she knew they caught it. Shino leaned closer and lightly kissed her forehead and Kiba held her closer, curling protectively around her. She saw Sakura approach from the side as her vision slowly faded. She kept a smile on her face, made it as peaceful as she could even with the numbing pain and the darkness. Let her hands curl around Kiba's clothes. At least Kiba had a memory of her acknowledging him, right? Maybe he would imagine that she could have loved him. Keep a happy memory instead of only chasing after a teammate who only chased after an idiot.

She liked that thought, however selfish it may seem.

After a long time, she felt something. She felt a slight tightening around her. She had immediately tried to call up her chakra then. But instead of a soft rushing, there was an awakening inferno inside her, blooming and brightening. She felt a rush of freedom and lightness with it. Joy spread through her at the feeling. She felt amazing. She felt a faltering weak presence come from somewhere close. She immediately suppressed her strange chakra-hybrid, made it as weak as she could. She didn't want to lose the whole feeling and something told her that it would be a bad idea. The suppressing felt odd but the brightness in her encouraged her suppression and she kept it very low and shimmering. Then she waited.

After a long time of consciousness and unconsciousness, she felt a tightness and soon after, light. She didn't react even thought something itched at her to scream and show her annoyance at the rough hands and light. She didn't.

"…..quiet….no problems…."

She still didn't know where she was. Was this a weird heaven or hell or something? She changed places and realized that there were hands below her and moving her. It was only when she opened her eyes to a blonde man, cooing at her 'my beautiful boy Tsunayoshi is going to make papa proud' and a tinkling laughter of a beautiful woman that she realized what had happened. She really felt like crying then. She really didn't want to deal with another life with memories of her previous one!