AUTHOR'S NOTE: Some of the texts in a few of the tape chapters are taken directly from the Netflix series "13 Reasons Why".

"You're the problem, Hanna! You're always the problem!" Those two sentences were the only things running through Hanna's mind as she slowly made her way to her bathroom, razor blade in hand. She approached the filled tub and submerged herself, with her clothes on, in the cold water. It was the perfect temperature, Hanna thought; freezing. It made her exposed skin feel numb. Numb was the ideal word to describe how Hanna was feeling on the inside. And thanks to the water, on the outside now too.

What Aria told Hanna the night before brought her to a situation that she thought wouldn't happen so soon: suicide. Even when Hanna found out that her best friend Mona was the person torturing her throughout her junior year of high school, Hanna never thought of killing herself. Her life back then seemed like child's play compared to her life now. Not only did she have another psychopath after her but this time her friends seem to be against her and if that wasn't enough, her frenemy, Alison, was back in Rosewood and everyone seemed to be confusing Hanna for her. With Alison back, Hanna had no idea who the hell she was anymore. Or maybe she never knew to begin with.

A reminder of all the terrible things that had happened in Hanna's life so far came flooding through her thoughts like tidal waves. At that moment, she knew what she had to do; she had to make it stop. She had to make her life stop. She knew it couldn't possibly get better from thereon. So she raised the razor blade in her right hand and slowly dragged it across her left wrist. She cut deep enough to the point where blood was oozing out. The sight and the pain of it made Hanna shed a few tears, but she knew she had to do the same with the other wrist, so that is what she did.

After a few minutes, Hanna passed out. A knock was heard at her front door as she passed out. It was Caleb.

"Hanna? Are you home? I thought you said you were going to ditch school and grab something to eat with me? You haven't answered my texts or my calls either. That was almost two hours ago. What's going on? Are you okay? Hanna, I know you're home; your car is in the driveway. Please answer the door," pleaded Caleb.

But his words fell on deaf ears. Caleb used to crash at Hanna's house, so he was a pro at sneaking in and hiding from Hanna's mom. He made his way to the back patio, moved the flower pot that was next to the door and picked up the spare key that was lying under it. He made his way back to the front door and let himself in. He knew Hanna; something happened to her at school that she doesn't want to talk about with him. Caleb flew up the stairs like a bat out of hell while simultaneously calling her name. He looked in every room, just to be safe. He walked by her bedroom and saw that she wasn't in it. The door to the bathroom was closed so Caleb thought she must be in there. He didn't hear the shower running so maybe she was taking a bath and couldn't reach her phone? He was trying to be optimistic. Being the gentleman that he was, he knocked before entering.

"Hanna. It's Caleb. Why didn't you come back to the cabin? Did something happen at school?" he asked sadly, hoping the answer was 'no' and that Hanna just wanted to skip school and take a nice hot bath.

When he got no response, he turned the knob and found that the door was unlocked.
"I'm coming in Han," he said apprehensively.

Caleb was honestly hoping that she fell asleep while taking a bath. After all, she's done that before. But what he saw when he opened that door nearly made him faint. He wasn't wrong; Hanna was taking a bath. But apparently, she planned on making it her last one. She was passed out in the tub with her clothes on. Caleb refused to think she was dead. Both of her wrists were bleeding, and the water in the tub was starting to turn red. He immediately ran towards Hanna and started to shake her shoulders.

"Hanna, baby. Please, please, please wake up! Why would you do this to yourself?!" he cried hysterically. He pressed his ear to her chest to see if she still had a heartbeat. He let out a breath he didn't know he was holding when he heard the faint "lub dub" sound coming from beneath his ear. He immediately pulled his cell phone from his pocket and dialed 911.

"911. What's your emergency?" asked a friendly woman.

"My girlfriend just slit her wrists and tried to kill herself!" Caleb yelled, frantically.

"Sir, please calm down and tell me where you are so we can get help to your girlfriend as soon as possible," she said calmly.

"She lives at 34 Turning Leaf Lane. Please hurry! I don't think she has much longer!" Caleb cried into the phone.

"Help is on the way! In the meantime, try to find a way to stop the bleeding," she added.

"I will. Thank you," added a calmer Caleb.

"Good luck, and I wish you and your girlfriend the best," she said sincerely.

"Thanks again," Caleb said as he ended the call.

Caleb looked around the bathroom and found what he was looking for. He grabbed two small towels and made his way back to Hanna. He wrapped a towel around each wrist to make a tourniquet. After he finished, he checked to see if Hanna's heart was still beating. It was, but it was very faint. He sat Hanna up to help increase her heart rate.

"Where are the paramedics!?" Caleb thought to himself. He checked his phone, and it had been three minutes since he called 911. Just as he put his phone back in his pocket, the sound of sirens wrung through the neighborhood.

"Finally," Caleb said under his breath. The sirens got louder. Caleb ran to the bathroom window and saw that the ambulance had arrived in front of the house. The paramedics got out with a stretcher and looked up to see Caleb in the window. Caleb waved to silently let them know that that is where in the house they needed to go.

Thankfully, on his way into the house to find Hanna, Caleb left the door wide open, so that saved everyone some time. Caleb could hear the paramedics running up the stairs and them dragging a stretcher.

After what seemed like an eternity, the paramedics reached the bathroom and carefully laid Hanna on the stretcher. They placed an oxygen mask over her mouth and began to carry her out to the ambulance. Caleb followed suit but stopped in front of Hanna's room when he caught something out of the corner of his eye lying on her bed. He walked into her room, turned the light on, and noticed that there was a shoebox on her bed with a sticky note on top. He wondered why he didn't notice that earlier when he checked to see if Hanna was in there.
"That's weird," Caleb said to himself. He wanted to get to the hospital to be with Hanna, but he thought that maybe whatever this was could help him help her.

He peeled the sticky note off the box and read what it said: "For whoever finds me first – Hanna."

"What the hell does that mean?" Caleb said aloud this time.

He took the cover off of the shoebox and what he found inside confused him even more. Inside the box were a bunch of cassette tapes. Caleb wondered why Hanna would have these. He didn't even think they made those things anymore or that Hanna even knew what they were.
Caleb looked up from the shoebox for a second and noticed something else that stood out in Hanna's room. On her nightstand was a cassette player. He picked it and the box of tapes up and made his way back downstairs. He needed to know what was on those tapes, but more importantly, he needed to know if Hanna was still alive.