"You have no right to be here." Spat the woman blocking the doorway.

"About as much right as you do, I'd say Eileen." Kozik stood toe to toe with his mother.
"I'm in recovery." Eileen snapped. Kozik cocked his head to the side.

"Oh yeah? How about when I was the one raising her? Where were you then?"

"Mama, don't. I called him." Came a soft voice from inside the hospital room. Eileen turned on her heel and set her cold eyes on her daughter.

"What do you mean you called him?' Kozik shouldered past their mother and waltzed into his sister's room.

"I think she means she used the cell phone I got her, to call me, and tell me she was in a car accident." Kozik rolled his eyes and bent to kiss his little sister's forehead.

"Him or me Lillian." Eileen crossed her thin arms over her chest. Kozik looked at her in utter disbelief.

"You can't be serious. She was just in a car accident. Broke her damn foot and that's what you're concerned about?"

"Mama, please don't do this." Lillian said, biting her bottom lip.

"It's clear to see your choice has been made." Eileen turned around and stomped out the door, slamming it shut behind her.

"Lil, I'm sorry. I should have asked at the desk if she was here before I came back." Lillian shook her head, trying to hold back the tears.

"No. No Kozi, it's okay. I called you. I wanted you here." She took a deep breath and puffed it out. "It's just hard. She's my mama and you're my brother. I just love you both so much." Kozik tried to interrupt her but she held up her hand to stop him. "And I know you have your reasons to hate her and I don't blame you, but she's never wronged me the way she's wronged you. I was too little to remember what she was like when she was using. You kept me from the worst of it. But at the end of the day, junkie or not, she's my mama." Kozik nodded softly and tucked her long brown hair behind her ear.

"I know kiddo. I just don't want her to ever break your heart the way she broke mine" Kozik cracked a grin. "But let's find that doctor and see what it's going to take to bust you out of this joint."

Three hours later, with a cast and crutches that Kozik paid for, he had her loaded up in the passenger seat of Jax's pick up truck.

"Nice ride." Lillian said eyeing the interior. "Who'd you swipe it f rom?" Noticing the base of a child's car seat strapped in the back, she turned to glare at her brother. She understood that sometimes in their lifestyle they had to "borrow" things but she hated when they took from families. Kozik held up his hands and laughed before turning the key in the ignition.

"Relax chief. It's Jax's truck. When you said they were pretty sure it was broken he offered his truck to get you home safely." Lillian smiled. Jax had always gone out of his way to make sure Lillian got what she needed. Kozik and some of the Sons had even driven the three hours to attend her graduation when she called him crying to tell him that their mother said she had better things to do. They had all gotten her graduation cards and filled them with cash and little notes about proud they were of her. Along with a significant amount of cash in Jax's card, he had also gotten her a necklace that to this day she's never taken off.

The half hour drive home went by too quickly for Kozik. He felt as though his little sister's life had moved in an entirely different direction and he got left behind. It was almost like he was just getting to know her again. He turned right on to the street Lillian lived on and his grip tightened on the wheel. Eileen had thrown everything out of Lillian's bedroom window and on to the front yard. Lillian's bottom lip trembled and her eyes filled with tears as she turned to look at her big brother, her protector.

"Kozi.." Her voice broke. Kozik felt his heart break for her and decided there was only one way to handle this situation. He put the truck in reverse and backed into the laneway.

"Stay here baby girl. I'm gunna get everything out of the yard and then I'll take you inside to make sure you have everything you need." Kozik opened the door and was halfway out of the truck when she spoke.

"Kozi?" He turned to look at her and she wouldn't meet his eyes. "I don't have anywhere else to go." Kozik felt like the biggest ass in the world. His poor sister was left to suffer the abuse his mother inflicted on him for years because he wasn't around to take it anymore. He had taken off to fight in a war and for a lack of a better term had abandoned Lillian.

"You're coming home with me. To Charming. Where you belong."

It only took Kozik twenty minutes or so to gather his sister's belongings from the yard and throw them in the back of the truck. The majority of her things were broken but they'd take care of that when they got back to Charming. Far, far away from Eileen. He pulled open the passenger door.

"Ready kid?" He helped her down and got her steadied on her crutches.

"As I'll ever be." She made her way to the door and tried the knob. Locked. She dug in her purse for her keys and tried to unlock it with trembling hands. She knew her mother could be a bit over the top sometimes but she didn't think that she could actually be this psychotic. She turned and looked at Kozik before shaking her head and turning towards the truck. Her key didn't fit the lock. Her mother had been serious about her choosing Kozik. She hadn't made it off the porch yet when Kozik's boot me the front door and it crashed open. He marched into the living room where Eileen stood with a bat.

"Get the fuck out of my house! Neither of you are welcome here!" She raised the bat and stepped closer to Kozik. He reached into his waistband and pulled out a handgun. He cocked it and leveled it with his mother's face.

"One more step and I'll fucking kill you. I swear to God." Eileen stepped back and sat on the couch. Lillian crutched her way into the house, up the stairs and down the hall to her room. The walls were bare, the dresser emptied and her bed torn apart. She pulled her suitcase out from under the bed and set to work packing everything her mother hadn't tossed out the second story window. She pulled the pocket knife Kozik had given her for her sixteenth birthday out of her purse and used it to pry up the loose board under her desk. The one Kozik had loosened for her so she had a place she could hide things from her mother. The more she thought about it, every good thing about her life had something to do with her brother. She reached into the hole and pulled out her little box of treasures. Every letter Kozik had ever sent her while he was overseas, the birthday and graduation cards from the Sons, her childhood pictures of her and her brother, her life savings and anything she valued was hidden away in this box. She tucked it safely under her arm and stood before making her way back to her suitcase. She quickly filled it and called out for Kozik to come help her. She followed him down the stairs and as soon as Eileen spotted the suitcase in Kozik's hand, she lost it.

"Useless! Ungrateful! Dumb little whore! Going off to make some biker slut of yourself." They were halfway to the door when Eileen said something that shook Lillian to the very core. "Your brother never made anything of himself and neither will you." Lillian stopped in the doorway and turned to face her mother. With eyes full of tears, she smiled.

"I love you mama. Don't worry about me. Kozi's gunna look after me, just like he always has." She turned and walked calmly to the truck and climbed inside. Kozik's eyes followed his sister until she was safely away from Eileen.

"I will never understand how a person as fucking horrible as you could bring such a saint into this world. That girl did not deserve your or the hell you put her through. You will not call. You will not write. Don't even thing about coming to Charming for her. You've done enough damage to her over the last nineteen years and that ends now. Right fucking now, do I make myself clear?" Kozik looked into his mother's eyes and felt no love for her.

"Go to hell" She said quietly. Kozik smiled.

"I'll see you there." He closed the door behind him. He placed Lillian's suitcase in the bed of the truck before climbing in and starting the engine.

"Are you sure you want me to come to Charming?" Lillian asked, avoiding meeting her brother's eyes.

"Lillian Avery Marie Kozik, there is nothing I want more in this world than to have my kid sister in my life." A ghost of a smile flickered across her face and she nodded settling into the seat. Kozik put the truck into drive and pulled out of the laneway.

Lillian fell asleep as soon as they had made it on the highway. The poor kid one hell of a day and the adrenaline had started to wear off. Kozik stopped only once on the three hour drive back to Charming He was fueling up the truck when he heard her.

"Kozi?" He opened the door to the truck. "Are we home?" She asked softly and Kozik felt his heart soar. Home wasn't a place to herm it was wherever he was.

"Soon kiddo, just had to stop for some gas. Want any snacks when I go inside to pay?" She cracked an eye and smiled. Kozik shook his head and laughed.

"Let me guess, sour cream and onion Mr. Pringles and a bottle of Dr. Pepper?" She nodded and closed her eyes again. When Kozik made it back to the truck with her bag of goodies, she was snoring softly. He shrugged out of his kutte and unzipped his sweater, using it to cover most of her body. He climbed back into the truck and started it up again.

"We'll be home soon kiddo."

Kozik pulled on to the lot at Teller-Morrow a little after seven. The bay doors to the garage were already open and he could hear the whir of the electric socket gun. He parked Jax's truck and looked over at his little sister sleeping peacefully. He started to wonder when the last time she actually got a decent nights sleep was, but pushed it from his mind. He wasn't ever going to leave her again. He'd make sure she got the life she deserved here in Charming. He opened the door to the office to find Gemma sitting at her desk. He plopped himself down on the couch and let out a sigh, running his hands over his tired eyes.

"In all the years I've known you, I've never seen you up this early," Gemma chuckled, looking at him over her glasses.

"Not up. Haven't slept." Kozik groaned rolling on to his side on the narrow, lumpy couch.

"Why?" Gemma asked dryly. Kozik pointed out the door to Jax's truck. Gemma got up from her chair and looked through the blinds. She noticed a woman slumped against the window sound asleep.

"Up all night for a piece of ass? I thought you were getting too old for that Kozi." Gemma teased, making her way back to her desk.

"M'sister Gem." He mumbled into the back of the couch. Gemma dropped her files onto her desk with a loud thump.

"Sister? You mean Lily?" Kozik nodded. "Jesus Christ, what's she doing here? We're about to go to war with the fucking Mayans and you bring a child into the mix." Kozik rolled onto his back and opened his eyes, before turning his head to look at Gemma.

"I'm aware of what's going on with the Mayans Gemma. She called me, she needed me, I got her."

"Why'd she call?" Gemma cut him off. Kozik hadn't heard from his sister in months and Gemma thought it strange that she turned up out of the blue when shit was about to hit the fan with the Mayans.

"She was in a car accident, broke her foot. She called me from the hospital so I went. Shit got ugly with Eileen and she threw her out. What was I supposed to do Gem? Leave her? I practically raised her. You know just as well as I do the hold she's got on me." Gemma nodded, knowing how close Kozik was with his sister before he moved to Charming.

"How old is she now?" Seventeen?" Gemma asked. Kozik shook his head no.

"She'll be twenty at the end of next month. She's a good girl Gem, I'm gunna get her on her feet here. Help her get a place, a job. It's the least I could do for her." Gemma smiled and nodded at Kozik.

"She won't be able to do much until that foot of hers is healed. I could use some help around the office. Answering phones and shit. Pay won't be great but it'll get her feet under her. We take care of our own Kozi. If she's your family, she's our family. We won't leave her out in the cold."

"I appreciate it Gem. I don't want her mixed up in the club stuff but I can't shelter her from it forever. She doesn't know about the gun running or anything. I don't know how to tell her, her big brother's an outlaw."

"She loves you Kozik, your rap sheet isn't going to change that. Just be straight with her."

Lillian woke up to a soft knock on the window of the truck. It took her a minute to gather her thoughts. The car accident, Kozik showing up at the hospital, the fight with her mother, her mother… Lillian took a deep breath, she was home now. She belonged in Charming and she knew Kozi would keep her safe. She cracked an eye, grimacing at the bright morning sunshine. She heard the door open and the cool autumn air filled the cab of the truck. She pulled whatever Kozik had covered her with tighter and took a deep breath, pull in the familiar scent.

"Morning darlin'." Jax's voice was like music to her ears. She could practically hear the smirk that was surely plastered across his face.

"Morning? I though it had to be at least midday by now." She opened both eyes and laughed. She stretched and groaned as heard her back crunch. She already knew she was going to be stiff today from sleeping curled up in the truck. She turned to face Jax, drinking him in. His long blond hair was pushed back behind his ears, his blue eyes the shade of a summer sky. His scruffy goatee and his tan skin made him even more attractive. He was wearing his kutte over a Teller-Morrow work shirt. "Even the bad boy bikers work a 9-5? Who ever woulda thought." Jax pulled her out of the truck and on to her feet. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her in for a hug. He smelt like leather, pine and Marlboro Red's.

"7-3. but close enough." He chuckled in her ear. Lillian wrapped her arms securely around his waist and let her head rest on his chest. "Sorry to hear about your foot. You okay?" He asked, voice full of concern. She nodded and shrugged.

"Smoke a joint, I'll be fine." Jax let out a hearty laugh and reached around her to pull her crutches from the truck. He helped steady her and gestured towards the open door to Gemma's office.

"You sure are a Kozik…No doubt about that." She slowly crutched her way there, already getting annoyed at how slow this case was making her. Jax stayed by her side all the way to the office, pecked her cheek and then opened the door to the garage and disappeared to start his day.

"Lily." Gemma said over the sound of Kozik's snores.

"Gemma." Nodded Lillian. She pointed to the only other available chair in the office. "May I?" She asked. Gemma nodded and Lillian sank into the chair, leaning her crutches against the filing cabinet.

"Surprised you remember me. You haven't been to Charming since you were a little girl." Lillian shrugged.

"You're hardly forgettable Gem. Plus Kozi writes. Kept me updated on who's who and what's what. Although he did forget to mention Jax being a dad." She said remembering the car seat in the back of Jax's pick up. Gemma snorted. "I take it I should keep my congratulations to myself then?" Gemma eyes her up over the glasses perched on the end of her nose. She and Kozik shared a lot of the same features but Lily's face was so much softer. So young and so innocent, the club would either make her or break her and Gemma hoped it wouldn't be the latter.

"His name is Abel. He's in the NICU at St Thomas. Jax's ex hit the crank and Abel came out ten weeks early with a bad ticker and his guts hanging out. But he's a fighter. Few more weeks till we can bring him home." Lillian felt her heart ache for baby Abel. Not even born and he'd already been dealt a shitty hand. "Kozi says you're going to be staying awhile." Gemma said looking over at Kozik sleeping on the couch. Lillian nodded.

"That's the plan. Find some work, get a place. I've got some saved up but it won't last forever." She neglected to mention that the majority of her savings was from the club. She bit her lip. "Clean slate at nineteen wasn't exactly what I imagined you know? Starting over.. It's hard." Their mother had moved them around a lot when they were growing up and there was nothing Lillian hated more than being the new kid.

"It's not what you get, but what you make of it that counts baby. I told your brother I could use some help around the office. Just till you get your feet under you." Lillian smiled.

"Thanks Gem. I appreciate what you're doing, taking me in and all." Gemma leaned forward and patted the young girl's hand.

"One thing you'll learn quick here is that family is family. Now pay attention, I have a hair appointment at elven and I want this done when I get back."

Lillian picked up on Gemma's filing pretty quickly. She had just answered the phone when Jax walked into the office.

"Teller-Morrow. No ma'am. Well that depends. Let me grab one of our mechanics to better discuss your options with you, he'll be able to give your more information. No problem." She sent the call to the garage phone and hopped to the door. "Oi, call on line two for somebody who knows their shit about warranties." She click the door shut and gimped her way back to the desk.

"You're getting the hang of this pretty quick." Jax smiled, lighting a joint. He held it out to her and blew smoke rings up at the ceiling. She shrugged and watched as Kozik stirred. Sniffing the air, he cracked an eye.

"Not even twelve hours in and you're already getting her blitzed Jax?" Lillian rolled her eyes and took another puff off the joint.

"Well good morning to you too sleeping beauty." Lillian laughed. Kozik grumbled and reached out for the joint. Lillian finished putting the last of Gemma's files in the cabinet and leaned back in her chair.

"Hey if you're all finished up the work Gemma left you, I'm heading to the hospital to see the kid. I could use some company?" Jax asked.

"Yeah, sure. I'd like that." Lillian nodded as Gemma appeared in the doorway.

"I'm impressed Lily." She said taking in the organized office. "Pretty sure this is the straightest I've seen the place since we opened." She kissed Jax on the cheek before walking to the desk and dropping her purse in the drawer. "Going to St Thomas baby?" He nodded.

"If you let me steal your secretary from you." Gemma pursed her lips and eyed her son.

"I guess she's done enough for one day. Go on, go see you boy."

Jax pulled into the visitor's lot of the hospital and killed the engine.

"Ready?" He smiled at her. The last time he'd seen her had been her graduation almost two years ago. She had filled out since then, her hair was longer and she carried herself differently.

"You betcha!" She hopped out of the truck and tucked her crutches under her arms. They slowly made their way to the doors of the hospital. Jax let the way to the NICU but stopped short.

"Fucking great." He mumbled when he noticed Tara in Abel's room. Lillian stopped beside him.

"What's wrong?" She asked following Jax's eyes to the woman standing in Abel's room. "Is that your ex?" Jax chuckled and nodded.

"Yes but not the one you're thinking of. Wendy is in a rehab in Stockton." Lillian nodded.

"Who's that then?

"Her name's Tara." Jax explained. "We were together in high school. She left Charming for a better life and I stayed because of the MC. That's how I ended up married to a crank whore." Jax grimaced.

"Married?"

"Only on a technicality. Just waiting for the judge to sign off on the divorce papers and it's over." Lillian smiled to herself and crutched into Abel's room.

"Family members only." Tara snapped looking up from her clipboard. Lillian rolled her eyes and leaned her crutches against the wall before hobbling her way over to Abel in the incubator.

"Guess it's a good thing I'm family then isn't it?" Lillian shot back. Jax followed her into the room and stood beside her.

"She's here with me Tara. Let it go." Jax said.

"She's not on the list." Tara's eyes narrowed.

"Add her to the damn list then? She's here with me isn't she?" Jax shrugged. "Lillian Kozik. If you can't get ahold of me or Gemma, call Lily at the garage." Jax turned to look at Lillian. "That okay with you?" She smiled and turned her eyes to Abel.

"Of course, anything for Abel." Tara shuffled her papers and rolled her eyes. She headed towards the door.

"It was nice to meet you Tara. I'm sure I'll see you soon." Tara said nothing but pulled the door sharply closed behind her.

"Starting a turf war with my old, old lady already?" Jax laughed and crossed his arms. "You've already been spending too much time with Gemma." Lillian laughed and reached through the side of the incubator to hold Abel's hand. He latched on to her finger and started kicking his little feet. She had never seen a baby as small as Abel. Jax had said he'd been in the incubator for a few weeks, so she could only imagine how small he was when Wendy overdosed.

"I never figured you to be the dad type Jax." Lillian said quietly as Abel cooed up at her.

"I wasn't. I'm not. I never wanted kids, but my bed was cold after a night of drinking and Wendy was more than willing to keep me warm." Lillian rolled her eyes at Jax's semantics and snorted. "A few weeks later she shows up at the clubhouse waving a piss stick around in the air." Jax crossed his arms and scuffed his white sneaker on the floor. "I don't think Wendy ever wanted me really, she just wanted the club. I'm the son of the original President and eventually when Clay can't ride anymore I'll be the one at the head of the table." Jax got quiet and Lillian wasn't sure if she should interrupt his thoughts.

"Is that what you want for yourself?" She asked softly.

"It's all I've ever known. Christ, Harley's are practically in my DNA."

"That wasn't the question Jax." She turned to look at him.

"I honestly don't know what I want. I'm focused on the here and the now, not next week, not next month, not next year. This lifestyle isn't exactly easy to make a schedule around." She nodded her head, that's how she managed to tolerate living with her mother on the bad days.

"You have to though Jax. It's not just you anymore, now you have Abel to worry about because clearly Wendy's not up for it. This poor kid, he needs somebody in his corner and that somebody he needs is you." She hopped her way over to Jax and laid her hand on his arm. "You're gunna be a great dad Jax." Jax met her eyes, and she could see how terrified he was.

"I don't know the first thing about babies Lily. How do I know the difference between hungry and cranky? Or when he wants to be held or wants to sleep?" Lillian shook her head and smiled.

"You learn Jax. You think Gemma and your dad had any idea what they were doing when they brought you home? You fake it till you make it and you learn along the way. Besides, the first one's the trial and error baby anyway.. I mean just look at Kozi." Jax let out a laugh and wrapped his arm around Lillian's shoulders. Lillian laid her head on Jax's chest and rested her hand over his heart.

"Yeah I guess you got me there. This kid couldn't have been dealt a shittier hand. His mom's a junkie and his dad's a member of a biker club that runs guns for the IRA." Lillian lifted her head, and her hand that was resting on Jax's chest gripped the front of his SAMCRO shirt.

"Jackson Teller, what did you just say?" Jax opened his mouth but couldn't manage to find a decent enough lie. "YOU MEAN TO TELL ME," Lillian's voice started to climb, she stopped and took a deep breath. She narrowed her eyes and stepped back from Jax, crossing her arms. "That the Sons run guns for the fucking MOB." She hissed. Jax bit his lip and avoided her eyes.

"Kozik wanted to tell you. He just didn't know how." Lillian let out a breath she didn't know she'd been holding. She had been absolutely petrified when her brother went and enlisted, and now she finds out that he's selling guns.

"Who?" Jax gave Lillian a puzzled look. "Who do you sell them to?" Jax sighed.

"I promise I will tell you. Just here isn't exactly the best place. Why don't you say goodbye to Abel and we'll go somewhere and talk?"

"That's…reasonable." Lillian nodded and turned back to Abel. She bent and whispered in to the incubator. "Bye bye for now Abel, the next time we come back your daddy might have a black eye or something but don't worry I won't break his pretty face." Lillian blew Abel a kiss and took her crutches from Jax. "Alright let's get this over with." She shook her head and crutched out of the room.

Lillian lay stretched out on Jax's bed, staring at the ceiling. Her mind was racing as Jax explained the Sons of Anarchy's ties to the gun running world.

"So basically what you're telling me is that after your dad died, Clay hooked the club up with the mafia-"

"IRA." Jax interrupted

"Right, yes, sorry. Hooked the club up with the IRA and started moving the guns into the States?" Jax nodded. "So we get the guns and we sell them to heroin dealers."

"One Niners."

"Heroin dealers."

"What they do in their spare time is up to them, personally I like to ride my Harley but whatever gets you through the day." Jax shrugged.

"And you're okay with this?" Lillian couldn't wrap her head around what Jax was telling her. They sold guns, big guns, to drug dealers and that was okay?

"It's not like that Lily. The deal Clay made was that they don't deal in Charming, and they don't deal to kids. Other than that it's not my problem if people decide they wanna score some crank. As long as they stay on their turf, and don't go shooting up corners, everyone gets what they need."

"I just don't understand…" Jax cut her off.

"You think turning wrenches all day pays worth shit? The club's business is my income, that's how we all earn. That's how we put roofs over our families heads, clothes on their backs and food in their guts. I'm sorry if we're not the motorcycle enthusiasts that you thought we were sweetheart but that's life." Lillian met Jax's eyes and they softened. "My kid's lying in a toaster in a hospital, you think a mechanics benefits are gunna cover that?"

Lillian rolled on to her stomach and crawled over to where Jax was sitting, leaned up against the head board of his king sized bed.

"I didn't mean it like that Jax. It's just you guys are living a double life I had no idea about. Like imagine waking up one day and finding out that I work as a stripper.." Jax raised his brows and smirked. "Shut up. Shut up. Bad example." She rolled on to her side, facing away from Jax and covered her face with her hands. She felt the warmth of Jax's body as he laid down behind her and his arm snake around her waist.

"Well I'm sure Kozik would have a fit but that's a show I wouldn't mind seeing." Jax said smugly. Lillian responded by driving the heel of her fiberglass cast into his shin.

"Ouch Lily! What the fuck!" Jax reached down and rubbed his shin. Lily smirked and rolled on to her stomach again, resting her face on Jax's pillow.

"Shut up and give me a back rub ya whiny baby." She laughed, stretching out.