Things are going to be hard I know
It is not something I would wish upon anyone my darling
Life often throws unexpected twists and turns
But this is the last thing I would want to put you through
One who has lost her mother, her father, her sister, her grandfather- my husband and being separated from her twin since a few days after birth, one who has lost more and more
One who seems cursed with bad luck and is fated to be either alone or hunted by one of my own sisters
One who we locked away for being a threat to others
You despite being cursed are also blessed
Blessed with such hope and wonder
Blessed to still try and be happy when everything seems bleak
To help those no matter what
Even if it's a thankless job and are often misunderstood
Scorned for being in the way when your heart says otherwise
For that it shows you are blessed with knowledge that will continue to grow as the years go by
For this is my power, one that I have created-Knowledge and Time
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Know that no matter what my darling I am proud of you, we three will watch and assist when in need
Even in disguise
Do not think you are unwanted or hated
No my darling you are loved.
You have more than my blood to keep you safe
It would be seen dangerous to have this, but not everything is what it seems
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Believe in yourself, for you have more potential in that heart and mind of yours, even if others say otherwise
Do not give up on life as things put you down
For if you give up, if you die there is no going back. There is no do over
There is only regret and misery
Wishing while what ifs fill your mind because you destroyed the bridge that would give you salvation
It seems like there isn't but there is, there is always hope
You just need to find your spark, your goal
Find something that gives you meaning and hold onto it
Even if you feel alone
Know this that you are never alone
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Stand up tall after you fall
Take a step back and breathe, see the world in a larger perspective
For everything is not what it seems
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If you have a dream
Live for your dreams
For it will give another reason to move forward
Do not take a step backwards if things seem scary
For if it is the right path, one filled with peace and relief which contains no wars or hatred
Accept it with open arms
Do not allow pride to govern you for it will make you fall faster than you think
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And most importantly
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Smile
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Smile even when things go bad
Even when things are against you and you know that you are innocent
For you have nothing to hide or feel ashamed about
Why should you?
They are the ones who wronged and assumed the worst
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I pray that my sacrifice will not chain you to despair and regret my darling
For my death, my last strength to remove what would gravely wound you
Know that it was worth it
I would sacrifice my role
My existence, my darling light
If it means that you will live
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I would do it again
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No regrets