It had been a whole year, Harm was relatively happy with his life and the way things seemed to have turned out with their new Commanding Officer at JAG – The man gave a lot of tougher cases to the new lawyers, so Harm was working less and mentoring more, which led for stress-free days and even weekends now, Mac and He were finally on the same page. Hell, they were even finally talking about the future, but something deep down in Harm's gut, and mind, was nagging at him.

He was standing at McMurphy's with a draft beer in his hand, his friends and Mac surrounding him, everyone was congratulating them and talking about their announcement that they were now engaged. Harm had an uninterested half-smile on his face, but it faded quickly when he saw a pair of brown eyes flash before him, and they weren't Mac's eyes that he'd seen, "I'll be back in a minute." Harm stated as he set his beer down and made a beeline for the front door.

When he got outside, he looked both directions in the alley, he spotted the brown sports coat trying to make a hasty retreat, but his long legs carried him towards the form quickly "AJ…" Harm called out when he was within earshot of the man.

The bald man stopped and slowly turned around with a smirk on his face "Didn't think you'd recognized me." AJ said quietly as he moved to lean against the brick wall.

Harm shook his head, "How could I not? I've spent the better part of ten-years looking at you from all angles… What are you doing here?" Harm asked softly as he moved to stand beside AJ.

The older man sighed as he pulled his hands out of his pants pockets and wrapped his arms across his chest "Wanted to know if the rumors were true… See if you and Mac finally figured each other out… And, to say goodbye… Heard you were headed to London, Captain." AJ said softly, a slight chuckle escaping his lips that quickly faded at the lost look on Harm's face, "Harm? What's wrong?" AJ asked as he turned to face the younger man.

Harm shook his head slowly as he shifted on his feet and stared down at them "I can't marry her…" Harm whispered quietly, his eyes falling shut at the sadness in his own voice.

"Why? Harm… You know you can talk to me if something is bothering you…" AJ told him, settling his hand against Harm's shoulder, his finger gently caressing the new Captain's bars on Harm's mess dress uniform.

Harm nodded as he pulled his hands out of his pockets and fiddled with his keys for a second, removing one and holding it outward to AJ "You remember where I live, right?" he asked softly.

AJ nodded as he wrapped his fingers around the key, Harm and AJ's fingers lightly touching and sparking an electrical current through both of their bodies, "Ye-… Yeah, I remember. Don't be too much longer? I am an old man after all." AJ said with a wink as he carefully pulled the key from Harm's grasp and turned back down the alley, disappearing into the darkness.

Harm went back to McMurphy's with his head hung low as he looked down at the hand that AJ had just touched, the feel of their skin making contact, the heat from the older man. The thoughts he was now having were racing around in his mind at cataclysmic speeds, his heart was pounding to the beat of the music playing in the background as he returned to the bar and grabbed his now Luke-warm beer and downed the entirety of its contents.

Mac turned to her fiancé with a raised eyebrow "Are you alright?" she asked softly as she set her hand on Harm's elbow lightly.

Harm nodded as he motioned for the bartender for a refill "I'm fine… Think I'm going to head home after this last beer. Still have a lot of packing to do." Harm said quietly, shaking the thought of AJ being at the lot, sitting there and waiting for him.

"Do you… Want me to come back with you?" Mac asked tentatively, worrying her bottom lip between her teeth as she watched several emotions flit across Harm's face.

Harm shook his head slowly "No. I mean – I'd like for you too, but… The loft is a disaster right now… Trip to the ER is not on the itinerary for tonight. I'll just see you at the airport in the morning… If that's okay?" Harm asked as he grabbed his refilled beer and turned his back to the bar, leaning on it with his elbows as he took slow sips from his beer.

Mac sighed as she nodded her head slowly "That's fine. I have my own packing to do as well." Mac said with a sadness to her voice as she finished off her tonic water and smiled tentatively up at Harm.

Harm returned the smile halfheartedly as he leaned forward and kissed Mac's lips lightly, the fatal attraction he once had for this woman had seemed to have faded in a matter of seconds, and he knew the exact reason for the turn-around, "I'll see you later." Harm stated as he drained the remainder of his beer and grabbed his keys from his pocket, his shoulder hunched slightly as he walked out of the bar and towards his SUV.

Just as Harm put the key in the lock, Mac came up to him "Harm, are you sure you're okay to drive? You look a little out of sorts?" Mac asked softly as she stood behind him.

Harm nodded his head slowly "I'm fine, Mac. I promise." Harm stated through clenched teeth, he hated lying to anyone, especially to someone who was his supposed fiancée, not that he had much experience in that department.

Mac sighed as she shrugged her shoulders, "Alright, but if you get into trouble on the way home… Don't say I didn't warn you." Mac said as she leaned up and kissed Harm on the lips again.

This time, Harm hardly participated in the kiss, and then sighed heavily as he slipped on a 'more-than-tired' look as he turned back to his SUV "I'll see you later, Mac." Harm said as he got into the car, started the engine and drove off without another word.

Harm pulled into the alleyway behind his loft ten minutes later and stared at the black Escalade parked there, "Very discreet." Harm said with a rueful chuckle as he turned his car off, and then looked up towards his loft windows, there didn't seem to be any lights on inside, Harm shrugged as he slid out of the SUV and began climbing the stairs, foregoing the elevator to give himself time to calm down by the time he got to his door and entered the apartment.

AJ was sitting at the breakfast bar with a bottle of scotch and two glasses at the ready, he turned and looked up at Harm with a smile on his face "Thought you'd chicken out and not come home!" AJ said with a chuckle.

Harm sighed as he shrugged out of his mess jacket and hung it on the coat rack "You're at my place, remember? If I'd said meet at your house, I probably would have chickened out… But, I would have had to come home at some point, and it's hard to chicken out when you're already here." Harm stated, laughing nervously as he closed and locked the front door, then joined AJ at the bar.

AJ sighed as he turned to face Harm again, setting a strong hand against the younger man's forearm, "So, tell me – Why can't you marry her?" AJ asked softly, his eyes glittering from the moonlight streaming in through the kitchen window.

Harm sighed loudly as he grabbed the glass of scotch on the bar and swallowed down the entirety of its contents, "Because, I'd never make her happy – Not one hundred percent happy, anyway…" Harm said softly as he drew his fingertip around the rim of the glass slowly.

AJ sighed as he reached over to Harm's knee and gently squeezed it, "She wouldn't be happy… Or you wouldn't be happy?" AJ asked softly as he patted Harm's knee and then reached back to his drink and took a small sip of it.

"Honestly? Neither of us would be happy, I mean… Maybe we would be for the first year or two? But, then I'd end up screwing it up… I'd resent her, myself… None of it would be for the better, it'd just never work out." Harm said with a shake of his head as he twisted the cap off the scotch bottle and began caressing the neck of the bottle slowly.

"So, why'd you do it?" AJ asked curiously as he watched Harm's long fingers working the bottle, his own tongue coming out and sliding across his bottom lip slowly.

"Ask her to marry me? Because, I thought I'd get past it… Thought I could keep hiding. Then, when I saw you again… I lost it… Every shred of control on that part of my life, completely gone in a matter of seconds." Harm stated with a ragged sigh as he looked up at AJ, a small smile on his face.

AJ chuckled as he leaned closer to Harm, "How long have you known, Harm, about me I mean?" AJ asked curiously as he took another sip of his scotch and watched Harm intently.

Harm laughed as he shrugged his shoulders "I've always had my suspicions… But, with policy as it is…" Harm trailed off with another shrug as he stood up and walked over to the large wall-to-wall windows and stared down at the dark alley, "So, what about you?" Harm asked as he glanced over his shoulder at AJ.

"I'm not going to lie. I honestly never imagined you for the type… But, then there have been times when I thought…" AJ said with a chuckle, shaking his head slowly "We're answering the questions, but not answering them at the same time…" AJ said as he swiveled in the bar stool slightly.

Harm nodded slowly as he twisted his glass of scotch in his fingertips, "It's hard to say when I knew exactly. But, I just always had this feeling – Deep down inside, you know?" Harm asked as he turned around and leaned against the window sill.

"I know what you mean… So, what are you going to do about Mac?" AJ asked as he stood up and walked over to Harm, now staring down into the alley.

Harm shrugged slightly, "Wouldn't be fair to keep stringing her along, now would it?" Harm asked as he reached up and stroked his index finger down AJ's cheek softly.

AJ shook his head as he looked over at Harm briefly "No, I suppose it wouldn't." he agreed easily as he turned back to the alley and sipped on his scotch slowly.

After a few minutes of comfortable silence, AJ turned to Harm again, his eyes traveling the length of Harm's six-foot-four frame, "So, how do you prefer it?" AJ asked as he turned to lean against the window sill.

"What…? What do you mean?" Harm asked nervously, swallowing convulsively as he looked down and then back up at AJ.

AJ smirked as he moved a bit closer to Harm "I think you know exactly what I'm asking now." AJ said huskily.

Harm nodded his head slowly, his tongue darting out to wet his lips "Promise not to make fun of me?" Harm asked self-consciously as he set his glass down on the ledge of the window.

AJ shook his head slowly, "There's no reason to make fun of you." AJ said softly as he also set his glass down, then reached his hand out and brushed it against Harm's cheek softly.

Harm leaned into the touch and sighed contentedly "I'm a confirmed bottom." Harm said quietly as he bit down on his bottom lip slightly.

"Don't do that." AJ said, a slight moan escaping his lips as he leaned forward a bit more.

"Do what?" Harm asked breathlessly as he inched closer to AJ.

"Bite your lip… Such a turn on." AJ said, his voice husky as he slipped his hand behind Harm's head and threaded his fingers through the soft black hair.

"Is it?" Harm asked, his voice dropping an octave as he nibbled on his bottom lip, faux-innocent eyes looking up at AJ under dark eyelashes.

AJ nodded slowly "Damn hot." AJ said softly as he set his other hand against Harm's ass and pulled him closer, their lips colliding in a searing, passionate and bruising kiss.

Harm moaned into AJ's mouth as their hands freely roamed clothed skin "AJ…" Harm gasped as their lips disconnected, both breathless as their foreheads came together.

"I've waited a long time to do that." AJ said huskily, his eyes dark and dilated as he caressed the back of Harm's head.

Harm nodded slowly, unable to form a coherent sentence, his bottom lip trembling as he nimbly began unbuttoning AJ's shirt.

A flash of headlights streamed into the dark living room as AJ's shirt slowly came open, Harm quickly pulled away from AJ and looked down at the car parking in the alleyway "Shit! Shit. Shit. Shit." Harm cursed as he watched Mac who was getting out of her car.

"Damn! What do you want to do?" AJ asked as he glanced around the loft, his hand trembling slightly.

Harm shook his head as he grabbed his glass of scotch "Nothing wrong with two friends having a glass of scotch, is there?" Harm asked with a smirk as he lifted his glass.

AJ shook his head as he collected his glass and clinked it against Harm's glance, both took a sip and stared at each other until the inevitable knock resounded in the loft.

Harm chuckled as he walked over to the door, unlocked it and pulled it open, leaning against the frame "Mac…" Harm said as he stood out of the way for her to come into the apartment.

"I'm so glad you thought you had to lie to me! Why not just tell me you and AJ were planning on having drinks?! Do you really think I would have cared?!" Mac shouted, staring pointedly at Harm, her nostrils flaring with her anger.

"I didn't lie to you Mac – He was here when I came home!" Harm shouted back, his own nostrils flaring, his eyes dilating as his anger level rose, his eyes flicking to AJ who was staring out the window and swallowing the remainder of his glasses contents.

"Oh, right – And let me guess, you were just meeting someone else outside the bar?!" Mac shouted, her eyes spitting flames at Harm.

"NO! I just… I needed some fucking air Mac! I didn't meet… I didn't meet anyone outside of the bar! I just needed air… I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think!" Harm said as he dropped down onto a bar stool, resting his elbows on the bar, he clenched his fists together and rested his head on his closed fists.

Mac sighed as she shook her head slowly "We can't do this, can we Harm?" Mac asked quietly, her voice sounding defeated as she dropped her head to her chest.

Harm sighed heavily as he shook his head, "We would have never made it, Mac. We fight too much… Eventually we'd have fought beyond return. I don't want a marriage that will inevitably turn miserable. Believe me when I tell you this, I love you Mac, but… Not at the expense of ruining our friendship. I couldn't do that to you… to us." Harm stated as he bit back his bottom lip, looking around the room, then turning and locking eyes with Mac.

Mac nodded her head slowly "I understand, and I… I guess I will accept it. Harriet won't be happy, but… She'll just have to deal with it. I'll see you at the airport in the morning… I do love you Harm." Mac said as she nodded in AJ's direction "Admiral… Take care of him." Mac said softly as she turned and pulled the metal door shut behind her.

Harm sighed as he slid off the bar stool, he walked over to the door and locked it, laying his forehead against the cool metal and fighting the urge to begin smashing his fist against the door.

"Harm, are you alright?" AJ asked from across the room, his feet 'cemented' to his place near the window.

"I'm fine." Harm states tersely as he walked away from the door and up the two steps that lead to the bedroom, practically ripping off his uniform and his undershirt. He tossed both articles of clothing into the corner of his room, neither item giving him enough release as he looked around the bedroom angrily, his back muscles tightening and rippling with his anger.

Harm dropped down onto the edge of the bed as he pulled off his dress shoes, viciously throwing them at the closet door, the wood splintering and cracking from the toss. AJ sighed as he walked over to the bedroom, standing at the bottom of the steps "Yeah, you're the poster-boy for fine, Harm." AJ said teasingly.

Harm groaned loudly as he dropped backwards on the bed, he turned his head towards AJ "Shut up." Harm said with a laugh as he tossed a pillow across the room at AJ, hitting him square in the chest.

AJ laughed as he grabbed the pillow and walked up the stairs to sit down beside Harm on the bed, "You look a little tense, how about a massage?" AJ asked with a smile on his face.

Harm nodded as he slowly turned over onto his stomach, AJ chuckled as he slapped Harm's ass lightly, then squeezed the plump flesh beneath Harm's dress uniform, "Mmm, I see why you're a confirmed bottom… Jesus Harm, how can you hide such a luscious ass?" AJ asked in a husky tone as he began running his fingers up Harm's back, his thumbs lightly grazing over a few scars left from warzone injuries.

Harm groaned as he inhaled sharply, "That hurt?" AJ asked as he stilled his hands and looked down at Harm, concern evident on the older man's face.

Harm shook his head slowly "No, not at all." Harm whispered huskily as he lifted his hips off the bed, undoing the button and zipper to his pants and shimmying out of them, letting the pants drop off his feet.

AJ groaned as he bit back his bottom lip, "Do you always wear such skimpy little pieces underneath your uniform?" AJ asked as he grabbed Harm's ass and squeezed lightly.

Harm nodded "Always have… Like the way… they feel." Harm said through gasps as he grinded his hips against the bed, his bottom lip quivering, a deep groan rolling in his throat as he continued writhing.

"Jesus Harm, are ya' horny or what?" AJ asked with a chuckle as he stripped off his shirt and unbuttoned his pants.

Harm whimpered and nodded his head "So horny, daddy." Harm whispered huskily, his entire body shuddering with anticipation.

AJ groaned as he stood up and pulled his pants and boxers off, his hard cock springing out and slapping against his stomach "You make a habit of calling men daddy?" AJ asked curiously as he kneeled between Harm's spread legs and returned to massaging the perfect globes of Harm's ass.

Harm gasped and shook his head "No sir… Just… oh god… I've always wanted… I… I need you…" Harm said brokenly as he slowly turned over onto his back.

AJ sighed as he looked Harm's muscular body over completely, "You've been working out, a lot more than usual, haven't you?" AJ asked as he trailed his fingers from Harm's bikini underwear, over the valley of his abdominal muscles and up to his neck.

Harm nodded "Mhm." He murmured as he continued writhing helplessly against the bed.

AJ leaned into Harm's ear "What have you always wanted?" he asked as he drew his tongue across the shell of Harm's ear slowly.

"I've… always… wanted to call you daddy… Ever since… I met you… Oh god!" Harm groaned out as his hips bucked upward into AJ's body.

AJ set a hand on Harm's stomach and gently lowered him back down onto the bed "Shhh, stop talking now baby, let daddy take care of you." AJ whispered into Harm's ear as cupped Harm's erection through the fabric of the bikini, squeezing slightly.

Harm whimpered loudly as he bucked upward into AJ's hand, "AJ…" Harm gasped out as his entire body trembled.

"Shhh, what'd I tell you?" AJ asked as he slapped Harm's thigh sharply. Harm's bottom lip quivered briefly, "Just relax." AJ whispered as he ran his fingers over Harm's taut muscles, Harm nodded as he continued whimpering and writing on the bed, his eyes closed tightly as he nibbled on his bottom lip.

AJ knelt up on the bed as he slipped his fingers around the elastic band of Harm's bikini underwear, sliding them down his long and slender legs, dropping them over the side of the bed "Lube?" AJ asked as he looked down at Harm. Harm nodded as he pointed to the nightstand, AJ smirked as he leaned over Harm's body, and their erections brushing against each other as AJ grabbed the lube "Condoms?" AJ asked as he held up the packets.

Harm shook his head "No… No condoms… Please… I need… I want it… raw… please..." Harm begged, his entire body shuddering intensely.

AJ nodded as he dropped the condom packets and moved to kneel between Harm's spread legs again, "Scoot back some." AJ said commandingly, Harm eagerly obeyed as he positioned himself in the center of the bed, pulling his legs up expectantly.

AJ chuckled as he crawled up to Harm "Such a good boy." AJ said as he popped the cap on the lubrication and squirted a generous amount on his fingertips. Probing and gentle fingers prodded at Harm's entry, Harm gasped and shuddered when AJ's fingers breached the tight ring of muscle "Damn honey, you are tight!" AJ groaned as he began scissoring his fingers and twisting them to open Harm up.

Harm whimpered and writhed, his body rocking backwards against AJ's fingers, "Please… Please AJ… Need you…. Please!" Harm begged as he gripped the silk sheets on the bed.

AJ nodded as he slowly withdrew his fingers, smirking when Harm whimpered loudly from the loss of contact, AJ then smeared a copious amount of lube on his leaking cock and then hovered over Harm, one hand pressed into the bed, the other wrapped around his cock as he slowly began pushing past the tight ring of muscles again.

Harm moaned loudly as AJ bottomed out, his legs wrapping around AJ's back to pull him in deeper, "That's it… That's it…" AJ cooed as he pulled out to the tip and slammed back in, sending Harm's body forward with each thrust. Harm screamed out in pleasure as AJ mercilessly pounded into his body, his fingers tightly wrapped around the sheets as he bucked upward, meeting each of AJ's thrusts as the two men neared completely "Oh fuck… Damn Harm!" AJ moaned as he bit down on his bottom lip.

After satisfying their needs, AJ collapsed into the bed beside Harm, both their bodies glistening in sweat "When does your plane leave?" AJ asked as he looked over at Harm who was already half asleep.

Harm turned over onto his side and snuggled into AJ's side "Zero eight hundred…" Harm replied sleepily as he slid his leg between AJ's legs, resting his head on AJ's chest.

AJ chuckled softly as he wrapped an arm around Harm's back, "Want me to leave?" AJ asked curiously as he drew his fingertips up and down Harm's spine.

Harm shook his head against AJ's chest "Nuh uh." Harm murmured around a loud yawn.

AJ smirked as he rubbed into Harm's back "Okay… Go to sleep, Harm. I'll make sure you get to the airport on time." AJ whispered as he kissed the top of Harm's head lightly, Harm nodded as he closed his eyes. AJ smiled as he reveled in the warmth of the younger man, listening as Harm's breathing evened out, his own eyes falling shut as he fell into a peaceful sleep.