Lying, confined to a bed, stuck by herself with nothing more than the train of thoughts running through her mind, Leia felt so much like a younger version of herself. Like the young twenty-two year-old Leia of so long ago, she thought. That's what it seemed like, considering the way she and Han were dancing so precariously around each other, carefully watching the other's moves, trying to decide what step to take next. Similar, maybe, expect how the mood between them was nothing like the teetering edge of unresolved and unexplained tension and burgeoning passion which had engulfed their time together prior to a certain flight to Bespin. Now, things were more serious, darker- an unbalanced bridge that had stood so firmly for so long, Leia would never have questioned its sturdiness. It must be repaired, she knew, or the bridge wouldn't be able to hold. But to repair or to replace?
Since Han had left, since he'd escaped her grasp and wandered so far away, Leia had refused to let that bridge burn. She'd refused to give up and insisted on waiting. Even when everyone told her to move on, she'd remained patient, standing on the doorstep, watching, waiting for him to come back home. And she'd been so anxious for him to return, cried over missing him, anguished over his absence. All she'd longed for in these past months was to have her husband back, but now that he was here, Leia didn't know what to say to him or what to do. They were both here now, and Leia felt more lost than ever.
All I could think about since you left was how much I wanted you back. I never considered what I'd do once you came back to me. When she saw him now, she lost all her words and nothing was working the way she'd thought it would. It wasn't working at all. Now, here you are and I don't know what to say to you because all I can think about are the last words we exchanged. Fighting, yelling, blaming, accusing. Every rotten and unexcused comeback she had in her to defend herself from every raw and low insult and accusation he'd thrown her way. I've already forgiven you and I want to put this behind us so badly. But I can't.