I decided to leave my home,leave my team, leave my love my life, but now i am doubting upon my decision.

Now when everything is far and i am close to my dream of being a successful blader, i am missing my home, missing them, missing my family my friends.

I am a star now but why do i feel that i can't be without them. Why i feel my glory would be no more than a blurred picture without them. I... I feel like a fading star.

My life is looking like a wound

Feeling the pain of boundries around

At the sky, close to the stars

Yet it pains for the life afar

Slowly small sting are killing me inside

Down with tears I want to hide

Stars around make me give a try

but the dark sky wants my scream and cry

But what the biggest pain,

its myself

Thinking the sky will teach me to glow

But it is the one who faded my shine with a blow

I miss you friends, Mariah I miss you and i am nothing without you.I want you in every achivement of mine.~Your Ray.